I only followed Rainbow Dash and Pinkie around town, as they began their 'pranking crusade' as they called it. This is something that they enjoy, something I can't understand how they enjoy. Even if I've never really experienced enjoyment, watching a pony prank another doesn't really seem... interesting to me. It doesn't help my mood either, no matter how many times they try and get my spirits up. Because it's not working.
Rainbow Dash occasionally pulls these funny faces at me, waiting for some sort of laughter. All she gets is awkward silence. Which was the usual response everypony gets from me, if they even consider asking me anything, that is if there was a situation that a pony on purpose went up and talked to me. I still felt sad.
Pinkie Pie wasn't so forthcoming. She wouldn't give up on trying to make me laugh, in some sort of way. She put on endless after endless after endless joke and prank that she could think of, and it all fell flat. Needless to say, she doesn't seem as happy as she was before. She looks... a bit deflated. Was it because of me? It must have been... if I wasn't here with her, she wouldn't be ad that... I can't be happy... I felt a little worse at this. Because none of this is helping. Pinkie is a bad luck charm, so far. She's only making things worse, if anything. But... she isn't beating into me, like any normal typical bully. The same with Rainbow...
These friends are suspiciously convincing. But I won't be fooled. Yet I want to believe they aren't as harsh as I'm making them out to be...
I don't know, right now. I don't know.
I remained in my usual depressed mood, conflicted on how they were going to turn on me. I don't think it's going to be today. It seems like their... too caught up in the moment. And I am not complaining. But I know it's inevitable... but maybe I could change the inevitable to make it impossible to ever occur if I really become their friend...
What was I saying? That would be a dream come true, but they would probably bash me if I really tried to be their friend. This was all a ploy. A well done ploy. But... if that was the case... why am I still around them?
We're currently at the local lake, where Rainbow has this black circle on her eye... I wasn't paying attention. I was too busy... throwing rocks at the ground. I mean, the day is bright an all, but I'm not a bright stallion. They seem... really happy for being friends with one another. Maybe... no. I don't know how to be a friend. Does it involve laughing? I would instantly fail no matter what situation. What if... no, I don't have a sense of humour... after it was all beaten out of me. If I could start making jokes about anything... I wonder what they would be about? It's been so long since I ever considered... comedy in any way, shape or form. I was too busy running away from other ponies, and some of the time failing miserably. I don't know what's funny to me... what I can make fun of... and even if I did find something funny... they wouldn't, and would hurt me for doing so. Ugh.
It doesn't help that I know it will all be useless in the end. So what's the point dwelling on it? To past the time, perhaps. I mean, what else is there to do? Play that guitar or piano in my house? If there was any reason, or if I had any sort of passion... I haven't had any passion on... pretty much anything, not that I can remember the last time that I did take a big interest in something.
And apparently... they just pranked... Fluttershy. Something to do with a turtle... I don't see why I should care about her... but remembering that talk I have to have with her... it's only a matter of time. Might as well make it now... these two mares wouldn't care. Or notice.
The sounds of laughter began fading away, as I made my way towards her. I couldn't notice anypony else in the vicinity, which help things. I don't want any unwanted attention on me.
She didn't seem to notice my presence, and that was both good and bad. But, I'll try to make the best of this situation. Which... is going to be one of the hardest to do. I took a breath. There was no going back from the Nightmare Moon incident... last night. So really there isn't much point of me getting out of this... without being a coward. I don't want to be a coward, even though I know full-well that I am one. Maybe I can get that to change...
She was humming to herself, shaking her head back and forth as she mumbled something to herself. Peacefully, by herself. Guess she is used to being alone. Well... here goes nothing. "H-hey Fluttershy..." She didn't seem to recognize my voice, but she still jumped a little, before looking at me, with widened eyes. Slowly backing away... what, does she think I'm going to harm her? "H-hey, hey. I'm... not here to hurt you." I tried to sound as relaxing as I possibly could, without getting nervous. She didn't proceed to move away from me. "Umm..." How can I approach this? How about something new, for a change. Which appears to be the running theme of the morning.
...Being blunt?
"Alright, here it goes. I hold no long-term spite over... what you said to me. I know, I might have... overreacted a... lot. Sorry about that. But umm... I don't hate you."
"Really?!" That's not the reaction I'm expecting. At least... it could have been worse. I wish I could stop shaking. She doesn't look like she's going to hurt me again- "Oh, I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! I was overreacting too! I didn't mean to hurt you! I'm sorry! Please forgive me...!"
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"You're... strangling me..." I strained. She... it's like a bearhug. She kinda hugged me... or didn't a terrible headlock. My heart kinda froze as well, that's... not a bad sign. I'm inclined... to believe anything at this point. I've gone this far. I can regain my breathing once she had let me go. "Yeah... thanks. I forgive you... on... er... one deal."
"...W-What?"
"You don't hug me... like that." Better add that last part for good measure.
...wait, did I just say they can hug me? "Yeah, sure. Thanks... sorry I forgot your name."
"Thomas." I feel like my distinct name will make things worse around here... no mocking yet. Wait, how did you forget? I thought it was a big deal- Too much on my mind to care.
"Oh... Thomas..." Oh no, here it comes. She's gonna mock me like the rest- "That's a unique name."
...
That's it? No criticism? No mocking? No laughter? Just... unique? "Are you alright? You seem... confused over something..."
"No, no. It's alright. Just... it's nothing."
"Tommy!" A raspy voice calls from behind me. She immediately comes right between me and Fluttershy. She can fly really fast... Must be years of training and experience... I wonder what it's like to fly. "Huh..." She looks at both of us. "Seems like you both made up." Fluttershy give a faint guilty smile, while I give a look at her. "Well anyways... Oh yeah, we got ya good with the turtle 'Shy. And you seem alright." You really care for your friends there... "Come on Tommy! Me and Pinkie aren't done for the day!"
"Hopefully never!" I hear her shout in excitement from the top of a hill. It wouldn't hazard to guess Fluttershy didn't like pranking as much as I did. Just judging from her face... and she is very quiet too... like me. And these three are... 'best' friends? I wonder...
...something near-entirely impossible. It's... there's the thought... no it's mostly impossible. I can just roll with them for now... though getting fun from the pain of others... is horrific to even think that. I guess... it's a good thing, and I stress the word good, that these pranks aren't harmful to anypony. Just simple light... fun.
I can't comprehend it. Fun. And I've never bothered to learn... I've never experienced it before... "Well I'll see ya around Fluttershy." If ever again. I give a weak wave of a hoof.
"Oh, see ya Thomas!" She waved as well, making way back into her house. Me and Dash then sent off for an adventure...
Or am I skipping ahead here? It's just be watching them go about their day... what an odd schedule they have. Depressing conflicting thoughts aside here... just for once. I want to watch.