I looked upon the star filled sky. So different from the one on Earth, yet a few constellations were very much like the ones back on Earth.
I didn't actually stargaze much, never had any time for it and the light pollution was usually to much to see anything interesting. But I still enjoyed the stars. I can still remember the first time I did it. My mother had for some reason decided I could stay up late together with her and she took me stargazing. Well, maybe not stargazing, we didn't have any equipment or anything, we just laid down on a patch of grass and looked up at the night sky.
I think it was one of the first moments when I realized how small I was. Starring up at that sky, I knew it was empty. It was so empty, filled with the few stars we could actually see, and the rest, just an empty void. As young as I was, I was actually scared. Scared that whatever bonds held me lying on the grass would suddenly waver and I would be sent out into that scary abyss.
And yet, I remember it as a moment of wonder. Behind that fear, I felt amazing. It was a beautiful night sky, even if I could only see a small amount of the many stars that occupied the sky, and nothing else but complete blackness. I don't think I could ever forget it. To be honest, I think it would be one of the moments in my life that matters to me the most. I believe it in some way defines me, had I been a pony, I might of have gotten my cutie mark right there.
However, I didn't. Instead I'm stuck here. Dreaming of a pony I'm turning into, unable to get my own cutie mark and instead having to be content with one I once made up. Of all my OC's, Glimmer Thorn was perhaps the one with the saddest fate. Her life was one full of pain and suffering, memory loss, identity loss. And once she finally got herself together, it all simply came crashing down again.
As I thought about it I suddenly came to a realization. I never gave her story an end. I have never given Glimmer Thorn a happy ending. Every other one of my OC's had a definite end to their story, a happy ending. But... Does it even matter? Can I even play god like that anymore?
I deflated at the thought. I didn't know what to think. Glimmer Thorn was a creation of my imagination, yet, she was very much real. Despite the fact that she was real, everything I had ever thought about her was true. Every little detail I had decided about her was true, and she knew it. There was also the connection between us that proved this all not to be a mere coincidence. I was turning into her.
Following this logic, I really was to blame for all her suffering. It made me feel miserable. But what can I do? It isn't like I can undo what has already happened... But... maybe I can choose what will happen next? Maybe it isn't too late? Can I still choose what path Glimmer Thorn's life will follow, or have I thoroughly doomed her? Perhaps I should ask her once she wakes up? I thought to myself, still lying on the ground.
If I could still change things... What would I change? Would Glimmer even want me to change things? I sighed. These were questions I would know the answer to as soon as I asked her, no reason pondering on them now.
...
I've already gained her intellect, haven't I? I asked myself.
I chuckled to myself. Dreams... more like visits to other worlds. I remember hearing about the idea that dreams were windows to other worlds, seems it was true after all, who would've guessed?
Rising from the ground, I decided to check up on my sister and Wild Vine. They had kept on going with their flight lessons, especially since it was far easier for Sabrina to fly in Equestria than on Earth. Also, it seemed that the more changes we went through, the better she got at flight. If only I had received my horn first, I could have been doing magic by now! MAGIC! But of course the universe is a bit of a douche and decides it will be the last thing I get.
I walked over to the two Pegasi and once again sat down to watched as Wild Vine informed my sister how to handle sudden changes in surrounding air currents. My sister seemed to be enjoying herself. In fact, they were both having fun. I found myself frowning. I didn't dislike Glimmer, really. It was just that... compared to Wild Vine, she was far too serious and a lot less enjoyable to be around. Perhaps it was from her long isolation before meeting Wild Vine, or perhaps it was some form of resentment towards me for the life I put her through?
No, I can't think like that! I quickly decided. Glimmer wasn't like that, she would-
I stopped myself from thinking any further and instead asked myself another question, one that I feared the answer to. Had I just tried to decide who Glimmer was as a pony? Had I just almost decided for her? It scared me. If I had the power to create her, I most likely held the power to change, or even undo her. I shuddered at the thought and began trying to think of anything else than who Glimmer was or how she behaved. If I didn't think about it, I was less likely to change it. But if I asked her in person, she would be able to tell me the things I don't know, and I would know how she was instead of substituting it with my own guesses and ideas that could potentially change her in real time. Of course, this posed another problem, she might not want to talk about her own past.
I finally managed to distract myself from such awful thinking when I heard the laugh of my sister and Wild Vine. I was glad she was enjoying herself. While we were all thrown into this mess together, she was able to have fun and could care less for the future. To her it all looked bright and cheery. For me? I didn't know. I usually saw myself as an optimist, but right now I didn't feel like one. I was guessing it was the transformation that was behind it, but thinking about it only made me sad and once again brought me back to the depressing matter at hand. I could only wonder if it was like this Glimmer constantly felt. What little backstory she had wasn't a happy one. And her current situation didn't look much better. I wasn't going to think about the future and leave it to Glimmer to make herself a better one, I was done with dictating her life.
A sudden strange feeling overtook me as I looked up from my place in the grass. Not to far away from me stood Glimmer Thorn with a weird, far away look in her eyes. Before I could say anything she snapped back to reality and fixed her gaze on me.
"What did you do?" She asks me with a bit of malice in her voice.
"What do you mean?" I asked her confused. I had just simply been sitting here and thinking. I hadn't actually done anything.
"You did something! I don't know how, but you changed the connection. Somehow you stabilized a point in time-space that was until a moment ago completely unidentifiable. And you didn't do it to just one, nooooo~ You did it to every variable in the whole bucking corner of this universe! So I ask once again. What. Did you. Do?" She asked me again, punctuating each word by poking me rather hard in the ribs with her hoof, this time a lot more of her anger slipping into her voice.
Swallowing my fears I explained as well as I could what I had been doing. "Um... Well, I was thinking. I-I thought about the fact that you were a fictional character, yet we somehow were able to communicate, showing that you were still, very much real. However, this would somehow be contradictory. The fact that I met you, and the fact that I made you in the way I did, would mean that in fact you were just a puppet to my thoughts. Something you clearly are not. Then, it would most likely be coincidence, but how big of a coincidence could it really be if I happen to meet you specifically, a live representation of my imagination, but that not only I, but every other brony and pegasister as well. No, this is no mere coincidence, there is a connection. And the only, most logical connection would be that I am, in fact your creator. But, I... I can't live with that knowledge, to know, that every little fact I make up about you will become real! There are many things I don't know about you Glimmer, and as long as I don't know them, they are uncertain. This means, that you have a favorite meal I never thought of, but as soon as I do, I overwrite whatever it was before. And... It made me feel like a monster. I am responsible for most, if not all bad things that ever happened to you, I never even made a certain future for you, and now, I fear you may not have one. So... I decided I would no longer think about it. The only truth I would allow would be the one you told me, not just something that came from my head. I would meet you as a real pony, and not like the fictional creation that came from my head!" I ended my rant, explaining what I had been thinking about in a small summary.
I had during my explanation turned my gaze away from Glimmer and looked down in shame. Surely Glimmer would now hate me, now that she knew for certain that I was the one to blame for all of her misfortune. I expected her to scream, to be angry and to- I was doing it again, wasn't I? I thought to myself as tears began to form in my eyes. I really was a terrible pony.
And you can therefore imagine how confused I was when Glimmer instead proved all of my assumptions wrong. She hugged me.
I looked up at her to question why she was hugging me, but I was unable to ask as I saw that she was smiling, having tears of her own as she hugged me.
"Thank you." She whispered into my ear.
She kept on hugging me while I continued to become more and more puzzled about why she was thanking me, all of it while crying. She seemed to notice my hesitation as she pulled out from the hug and opened her eyes. As she saw my questioning face she chuckled and began explaining to me exactly why she was to thankful.
"George, when I asked you what you did I was mad. But it was because I was afraid. You see, you changed this world, with that one decision you changed everything. When I felt everything fall into place like that I knew that this world was finally complete. I immediately assumed the worst, that you had in fact come to a decision to complete everything you didn't know, to decide every little detail of my life, to truly make me a puppet to your imagination. But what you just told me states the opposite. You instead let go your ownership over this world, you are still the creator, but everything you didn't decide on has now been decided. You left the rest up to this world to complete by itself. And that means a lot to me. You've basically set me free. I can now do whatever I want, and there would be no force beside the 'real' ones to stop me. You gave up an incredible power, all for me, all because you care about me not as a creation, but as a pony. It shows how much you think of me as real. And I thank you for that." Glimmer said, ending her explanation with a bow.
I was breathless. Had I really just done that? Had I really just made such a big change just by thinking? Once again I became scared of the power that I seemed to posses, had I done the same thing to my other OC's? Looking at Glimmer Thorn I decided I wanted to ask her, but before I could she told me something I would never have expected.
"Also, my favorite kind of foods are pear and mango seaweed rolls." Glimmer said before getting up from her bow and seeing my dumbfounded expression. For a millisecond nothing happened, then she burst out into laughter and fell over while holding her sides. Recovering enough sense to move I managed to look over to my sister and Wild Vine who were both smiling.
I looked back to Glimmer Thorn who was still laughing and decided that this was perhaps the weirdest dream I had ever had. Taking out my phone I looked at the time and sighed, phones don't work well when you're sleeping.