HEART OF STONE
Chapter Fifty one: Pillow Talk
Written by TheCrimsonDM
Trixie inhaled sharply as she opened her eyes and saw nothing but blackness around her. Her body was shaking, and she was terrified. She was about to scream when she felt a warm leg wrap itself around her waist and Maud whisper, “Shh, Lulu. I’m right here.”
Trixie slowly began to calm down and closed her eyes. She stayed still as she enjoyed the warmth of the two ponies next to her. Maud who was on her left and holding her tightly, and Pinkie who was on her right. She felt safe in between these two, safer then she had ever felt before. Pinkie Pie snuggled in a little closer, sandwiching Trixie in between the two of them.
Pinkie was quiet as she asked, “Did we wake her?”
“No, I think she’s still asleep. She has nightmares…a lot,” Maud explained quietly.
“I’m sorry to hear that. I’m glad that we didn’t wake her though,” Pinkie said. There was silence for a few minutes and Trixie nearly fell asleep again but stopped just as Pinkie Pie asked, “Do you have sexual fantasies about me?”
“Why are you asking that?” Maud replied.
“What we did today was weird, and wrong…Maud, this isn’t what sisters are supposed to do,” Pinkie Pie said.
“It was just sex, Pinkie,” Maud replied.
“You always say that, but you know what? It’s never just sex, never. When I have sex it’s because I feel like I need to be loved,” Pinkie Pie explained.
“You are loved, Pinkie. By your friends, by your family, and by me,” Maud said trying to comfort her.
“Yeah well, maybe by my friends, and you, and Trixie…but our parents obviously don’t love me. They abandoned me, Maud. Abandoned their own daughter when she needed them most,” Pinkie Pie said quietly.
“What do you mean?” Maud asked, her voice as stoic as ever but Trixie could feel a growing sense of worry coming from her.
“Remember that accident that nearly killed me when I was younger. Well it wasn’t an accident, I was hurting myself and went too far one day. I used to cut myself and it nearly killed me. After that incident our parents thought that I was too much of a bad influence for the others and so they sent me to Ponyville to live with our aunt and uncle Cake,” Pinkie Pie explained with a serious tone.
Maud was silent for a few minutes, and Trixie could feel something in Maud, desperation. Trixie could sense that Maud was desperately looking for any answer that could explain why Pinkie did this too herself, and why their parents would send her away. Maud’s desperation continued until suddenly it stopped and she calmed down.
“Pinkie Pie, our parents do love you. They didn’t know how to help you, and they had two other children that needed help too. They sent you to Ponyville so that you could have somepony to take care of you, and give you all the love and attention that you needed. All the love and care that they simply couldn’t afford to give to you themselves,” Maud explained flatly, but Trixie could feel her kind heart with every word.
Pinkie Pie was quiet for a few seconds before saying, “You’re telling the truth…I’m…I’m sorry, Maud. It’s just so hard for me to handle things sometimes. It’s just so much easier to be crazy, nopony expects anything from me then…but now I have to take care of Trixie so I can’t afford to choose being crazy and reckless all the time. I have to be responsible and it’s really hard…especially after today.”
Pinkie Pie was quiet again for a long moment before saying, “You never answered my question. Did you want to have sex with me?”
“Trixie was asking me if I thought it was wrong to do this with you…and I don’t think what we did was wrong,” Maud said.
“Please just answer me for once, Maud. Don’t try and misdirect me or anything…I…I already know the answer but I need to hear you say it,” Pinkie Pie said in an almost pleading voice.
“Yes,” Maud answered simply.
An awkward silence filled the room and bothered Trixie deeply. Finally when the silence became too much to bare Maud added, “I love you, Pinkie Pie. You’re my sister and I know that what we did was different; some ponies would call it weird. But I have wanted to do this since we were young and now that I’ve finally got to do this with you, you’re upset with me. Why?”
“I’m…I’m not upset with you. I’m just confused, okay…and I’m trying to figure out how to help you but what you’re saying doesn’t make any sense to me,” Pinkie Pie said.
Maud began explaining, “It was just a sexual fantasy, and I thought that because of our close bond it would be more meaningful. You always know what I’m thinking, or what I’m feeling and I know it’s because of how close we are. I thought that if we did this our bond would only deepen, but it seems to have only made us grow further apart. Is it because it was just sex? Did you want something more from me and Trixie? If Lulu agrees then we could involve you in our relationship-“
“NO,” Pinkie shouted! After a few seconds of terrified silence Pinkie added in a whisper, “You need to stop saying and thinking those things right now. We are sisters, okay. Yes we share a bond that makes us super close, closer then you could be with almost anypony. But I will not be in any kind of a romantic relationship with you.” After a second Pinkie added, “And what about Trixie? Doesn’t she mean as much to you as I do?”
“Trixie is my entire world. She means just as much to me as you do, if not more…I know it’s wrong to love her more, but I love her so much, Pinkie,” Maud said.
“It’s not wrong to love her more than me. That’s normal. It’s the… the things you want to do to me that are not normal,” Pinkie Pie explained. “This became a problem last time we were close together for a long time too.”
“If you’re worried about Trixie being jealous, I’m sure she would love to have you join us,” Maud said.
“You just want a personal harem for yourself don’t you?” Pinkie asked.
“Of course not, it will be Trixie’s harem, not mine,” Maud said.
Trixie suddenly felt deep feelings of disgust and revolution that Pinkie had towards this idea. Trixie wasn’t sure what the Tartarus she was listening to, but it was one of the weirdest, and most perverted conversations she had ever heard. Maud couldn’t be serious about being in a relationship with her sister, or with the idea of having a harem. Trixie really wished she could go back to sleep right now.
“Maud, I will never agree to this…I don’t know how you could possibly be okay with all of this…but I think you need to think about a lot things. Maybe we might even need to take a break from each other,” Pinkie Pie said.
A sudden tension built in Maud’s heart, and then snapped. Maud’s fragile heart shattered in an instant and Trixie’s along with it. Trixie knew just how important Pinkie was to Maud, even if they were too close this was not something she wanted Maud to have to deal with. Soon Trixie began hearing some sniffling sounds coming from Maud. Pinkie Pie also felt this and suddenly said, “I’m sorry I didn’t mean it like that…I. Maud, what can I do to fix this?”
Maud actually whimpered before saying in a pained voice, “I don’t think you can. I obviously screwed up again, and now I’m going to lose you.”
“You aren’t losing me,” Pinkie Pie said.
“Is it really so wrong of me to want to take away your loneliness? To give you something like what I have with Trixie,” Maud asked, her voice on the verge of crying.
Pinkie Pie was silent for a few seconds before reaching out with her mind. Trixie could feel Pinkie’s mind groping outwards and covering Maud’s as well as her own. A somewhat ticklish sensation covered Trixie’s mind for only a few seconds before it vanished.
“So that’s what’s going on… well let me just ask you this,” Pinkie Pie said. “If I had feelings for somepony else, let’s say that I had gotten my hopes up for the idea of being with them recently…would you still be trying so hard to get me to agree to this crazy idea?”
“Who is it?” Maud asked.
“Fluttershy. Both Trixie and Rarity seem to think it’s a possibility, and I would really like to try being with her… does that upset you?” Pinkie Pie asked.
Maud was quiet for a few seconds before saying, “No, that sounds really nice. I was afraid that you had settled on the idea of being alone and I just wanted to fix that. I’m sorry for hurting you.”
“You don’t need to be sorry, Maud,” Pinkie Pie said.
“Yes I do, I had sex with you, and then I tried to drag you into a relationship because you’re lonely and, and…I’m so sorry. Please don’t leave me again,” Maud begged.
Pinkie Pie leaned over Trixie and kissed Maud quickly before whispering, “You’re my sister, and I do love you. I will never leave you, no matter how weird your ideas might be. Beside’s that I know now that you just wanted to make sure that I wasn’t lonely anymore, but, Maud, you don’t need to feel guilty over having such a perfect relationship with Trixie. You’re destroying yourself with your unwarranted guilt, and you’re going to destroy all your other relationships if you keep feeling that way.”
“So you aren’t jealous, or upset about me and Trixie?” Maud asked.
“Not even a little,” Pinkie Pie said.
“Thank you…and could you never tell Lulu about any of this? I…I don’t want her to know about what we talked about,” Maud said nervously.
“I Pinkie Pie Promise not to tell her about what you just told me,” Pinkie Pie said.
Maud relaxed in the bed and sniffled again a little bit. Pinkie Pie relaxed as well before she leaned into Trixie’s ear and whispered in such a quiet voice that it was doubtful that Maud would hear it, “Good night, Trixie.”