Pinkie paced back and forth. She had been waiting out here for a while and was getting worried that they wouldn't take her after all. Maybe they would be too busy or just not want to help her. Maybe they-
"Pinkamena Diane Pie, Doctor Blueheart will see you now."
Pinkie took a breath and walked over to the door. She looked back and Fluttershy waved her hoof at her and smiled, encouraging her to go forth.
After Fluttershy had saw Pinkie cutting and Pinkie had told her that she had been depressed for a while now and negative thoughts were pretty much all she could ever think about herself, Fluttershy had decided to take her to therapy. It was the same therapist Fluttershy went to for her social anxiety and stage fright. He was related to Nurse Redheart and was the best therapist in Ponyville, maybe even in Equestria.
Fluttershy had also agreed not to tell the other girls until Pinkie Pie was ready to talk about it with them. It was a big time in Pinkie's life and she wanted to be ready when she told them and make sure that they didn't...overreact.
Pinkie went into Doctor Bluehearts's office and sat down on a big, comfy chair.
"He will be here in a moment. Make yourself comfortable and help yourself to the candy on that end table if you would like," the secretary said to Pinkie in the kindest and friendliest voice Pinkie had ever heard. Pinkie forced a smile and picked up a mint from the bowl on the end table. She let it melt in her mouth as she waited for the therapist to come in.
She didn't know what would happen here. She hoped therapy would help her; Fluttershy said it would anyway. She just really wanted to feel like her happy self again and not mopey and depressed. She always felt so empty. She hated feeling that way. She wondered how she was so good at keeping other ponies happy when she was so sad all the time.
Suddenly the door opened and, who Pinkie assumed was Dr. Blueheart walked into the room and sat down on his chair. He pulled his clipboard and pen off his desk and turned to face Pinkie Pie.
"Hello Miss Pie, how are you doing today?" Dr. Blueheart asked.
"Well...to be honest...I'm kind of nervous about this," Pinkie stuttered as she answered him. She was never shy and always loved meeting new ponies but this felt strange and different...she didn't know why but she was just so scared.
"That is perfectly normal in a situation like this. Most patients are very nervous when going to therapy. I mean, a complete stranger hearing about your life and from what most patients tell me, almost judging them."
Pinkie's cheeks turned a shade of red as she nodded.
"Well, I assure you, I will not be 'judging' you. I will be listening and trying to help you as best as I can because I care about each and every one of my patients and I highly doubt you will be any different, Miss Pie," he told her as he smiled a small smile to ease her nerves a bit.
"Thank you...I'm usually used to strangers. I become friends with pretty much everypony but this doesn't really feel the same," Pinkie replied. She rubbed her hoof across her other.
"Oh, so you are a very sociable pony?" He asked, getting to the questions.
"Well, yeah I am...I make friends with so many ponies. I'm friends with everypony here. I love making ponies smile and be happy so I keep track of all the things they love and don't; that way when I throw parties for them, they love them and always have a good time," Pinkie said.
"That's very nice of you. It's good you like helping others. However, I think I can guess what the problem may be here...but I want your opinion first. Where do you think your depression got flamed or started?"
"I don't know...I remember one day feeling kind of sad or down but I had a party to throw so I just kind of shook it off and did what I always do. It just got worse off from there..."
"I see...would you say you ever just take care of yourself and put other ponie's problems on hold?"
"Oh no! I always help others before myself."
"Do you not think that's a problem?"
"I mean...maybe I could think of myself a little more...but I think helping is the right thing to do."
"Miss Pie, don't misunderstand me here, helping is always a good thing and everypony should think like that but if you over work yourself and only think of others, you won't do yourself any good. Also, if you are in a bad shape yourself, one day you won't be able to help anyone, including yourself," Dr. Blueheart explained.