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// Not Needed 
// Story: Forced Smiles 
// by Scootaleuz 
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I don’t think I can take too much anymore. Nopony takes me seriously, and life is………….. different. After Cheese’s birthday, I think I realized something. I can’t live without Cheese, and I don’t know how I did before. Does Cheese hate me now? Was it something I said? 

There’s no point in throwing parties anymore. I just can’t put in the right kind of effort and heart into a party anymore. I feel…… deflated. There’s no longer a point. Cheese didn’t show up to my last party. I know he got the letter. Did he even want to show up? 

It’s not worth thinking about it. He hates me, doesn’t he?

Signed, Pinkie Pie



It’s been a couple days since I left Ponyville. I miss the Cake family, and my friends.  But there’s no harm in leaving them. They can survive without me. Plus, who wants a sad Pinkie? I know I don’t. And I know they don’t, either. Remember last time? I’m sure you don’t, Journal. I mean, only I do. It was awful, and I don’t want that to happen again.

Which is why I’ve decided to go to the only place I can feel welcome. To see Mom, and Dad, and Maud and Marble and Limestone. They are my only true friends. I mean, everypony else is fine, I guess. But I know all of them so well, and they don’t know me at all.  It’s not fair, really.

I don’t know if I’ll be coming back. It’s possible, I suppose, but the rock farm in a lot better in terms of both opportunity and friendship. If there’s no Cheese, then there’s no Ponyville friends either. It’s a one-way street, with Cheese. He would almost never turn back. Neither would I. Why should I?

Signed, Pinkie Pie


I’m almost at the rock farm, and I should feel at least a bit of excitement. But all I feel is regret and disappointment. Maybe a little angry, too. Angry that Cheese didn’t come to my party. Angry that my ‘friends’ didn’t even lift a hoof to try and help me through. Angry that I left Ponyville, to come to the farm. 

Why should I be angry at that? I did nothing wrong. It’s all my former friends who didn’t help me. Actually, no. It’s Cheese Sandwich’s fault for not coming. And he had absolutely NO reason not to. I thought he was my friend. Guess not, huh?

He’s not a friend. And neither is anypony in Ponyville. Or anywhere else, except the rock farm.

Dad never let me down.
Mom didn’t either.

But Cheese did.
And so did my former friends.

-Pinkamena Diane


Is there anypony left but you, Journal? Most of my family, my ‘real friends’, have already gotten over me moving to Ponyville, and taking myself away from the family business. They didn’t miss me at all, did they? Life would’ve continued for them, without any change. I didn’t make any lasting impact on them. 

Does anything? Apparently even family members don’t, so what does?

I’m leaving once again. If my destiny isn’t in Ponyville, or at the farm, then where? That’s what I’m setting out for. To hopefully find myself.

*sigh*.

I hope everypony in Ponyville is doing alright. 
They probably are.
Nopony needs me anymore.

-Pinkamena Diane