Trixie and Maud: Heart of Stone

by TheCrimsonDM

Chapter Seventy Two: Her Last Mistake

A few hours had passed since Maud told Pinkie the truth about her parents, and Maud was becoming increasingly worried about her sister. Eventually Maud was unable to stay inside any longer and left to make amends to her sister, this left Trixie completely alone again. Even though Trixie had offered to join her, Maud decided it was best to confront Pinkie about this by herself. Although it was hard for Trixie to agree to let Maud do this alone, she trusted Maud’s judgment.

After that Trixie was left alone for nearly an hour and the entire time all she could do was worry about the things she had done with Fluttershy. The thoughts bothered her deeply and left her fearful of what could happen if Maud ever found out. The last thing she would ever want to have happen is to hurt Maud, but the damage had already been done. Depression and self loathing settled back into Trixie’s heart, she knew that she deserved to be punished.

The house was always quiet when she was alone, and that was enough to drive anypony to the brink of insanity. Thankfully the quiet was interrupted just in time as Maud walked through the front door with her head hung low. Trixie could easily sense that something was wrong, Maud was giving off a feeling of disappointment which was something Trixie had never felt from Maud before, and it was something that she could have easily gone a life time without having felt.

“Did Pinkie hurt your feelings?” Trixie asked gently, though she feared that she already knew what bothered Maud.

Maud looked up at Trixie with sad eyes and a small frown, both of these traits stood out instantly. Something was troubling Maud deeply. Maud cleared her throat before saying, “I found Pinkie drunk and she had read Fluttershy’s mind. Trixie I know what you did.”

A number of things flashed through Trixie’s mind at that very moment, hurting herself, crying, and the urge to run away and cry all hit her at once. Instead of doing any of these she chose the hardest option and closed her eyes, “Oh… you did.”

Maud was as silent as a rock while she stood in front of Trixie. It didn’t take very long before Trixie looked up into Maud’s eyes and said, “I… I bucked up big time, Maud.”

“Yes, you did,” Maud replied flatly.

“What are you going to do?” Trixie asked while her heart plummeted to the depths.

“I don’t know.”

“I’m sorry that I cheated on you, I told you that I was a bad pony, Maud,” Trixie said as she fished for anyway to fix this situation. “You shouldn’t have trusted me.”

Maud’s eyes shot wide open and a look of pure horror crossed over her. “You did what?”

It suddenly dawned on Trixie that Maud had never actually said what it was that she found out. Quickly Trixie began trying to explain herself, but only managed to ramble as the fear took hold of her heart. “Fluttershy was there when I needed somepony to talk to, and it just got weird and we had sex, lots of sex but it was um, she was like an animal, I mean I just needed somepony because I felt so alone, and oh Celestia please don’t hate me.”

The room was silent for a long drawn out moment as Maud closed her eyes. Pretty soon tears began sliding down Maud’s cheeks. Slowly Maud turned her head while saying, “I can’t, I, I’m going to stay at Pinkie’s for awhile.”

An even greater fear seized control of Trixie’s body and she quickly wrapped her legs around Maud while pleading, “Don’t leave me. Please don’t leave me. You’re the most important thing in my life, you can’t go!”

Maud’s body became stiff as she gently placed a hoof on Trixie’s chest and spoke quietly, “Let go of me.”

“No!” Trixie cried as she tightened her grip. She was going to lose Maud if she let go now, and that was something that she couldn’t have.

Maud began pushing Trixie gently but Trixie refused to let go of the one thing in her life that made her okay. Maud spoke in a very low tone, “Let go now.”

“I won’t let you leave me. You cannot leave me like this!” Trixie begged as the tears began spilling out of her eyes.

With a little more force Maud pushed again and Trixie felt herself losing grip, but she knew that if she let go that she would never see Maud again. “I’m warning you one last time, Trixie. Let go of me.”

“Never,” Trixie replied while tightening her embrace around Maud’s back as much as her feeble muscles would allow.

Suddenly with a force that Trixie had not expected Maud shoved the unicorn away. To both ponies surprise Trixie was sent flying through the air five feet away and only stopped as she slammed hard against the wooden wall. Trixie hit the floor a second later with a thud and she would have cried if she could breathe. For a moment Maud stared at the scene in abject horror while Trixie struggled to breath.

“I didn’t mean to use that much force, I’m so sorry,” Maud said her voice full of fear.

Finally Trixie was able to inhale a deep breath and as she released it, she began to sob. Trixie tried to speak but no words could be formed as she lay on the floor crying. Her chest and her back hurt, but worse then all of that was how wounded her heart was. Maud had just hurt her, even if it was an accident, even if Trixie had deserved it, Maud had still hurt her.

Maud backed away as her eyes grew even more worried and tears streaked down her face. To Trixie’s surprise Maud turned and fled out the front door with great speed. Trixie reached out towards her fiancé but could do nothing more than watch as Maud vanished from sight. A wail of torment escaped Trixie’s lips as she lay there regretting her every life decision. As she lay on the hard floor crying she could only wonder why she was still alive, if all she could do was hurt the ones she loved then how did she deserve to draw breath?

A couple of hours passed by before Trixie had finally managed to pull herself together enough to stop crying and go out looking for Maud. Even with her sore back she forced herself to move through the pain. The sky was overcast with snow clouds, the pegasi must have decided to add an extra layer of winter protection. First she hurt Maud, then Maud hurt her, and now it was going to snow, Trixie was knew that the universe was determined to destroy her.

Without the sun shining, the town became far colder then she had guessed it would be. Her white jacket and snow boots were not enough to keep her warm through this weather. Trixie wasn’t even sure what she would say to Maud, but she had to try something to make up for this, anything would be better than nothing at this point.

Trixie continued walking to Sugarcube Corner and only stopped when she saw the five familiar ponies that she came to call friends. They were all sitting outside and everypony save for Fluttershy were looking very upset. When Pinkie Pie poked her head out of the front door Trixie felt her heart stop.

“She’s asleep now,” Pinkie told them, her voice was quiet and sad.

Fluttershy could only look at her own hooves while the others all looked at Pinkie. Trixie walked up to them carefully and cleared her throat to gain their attention. Suddenly everypony looked at Trixie and glared at her. The only pony who still refused to look at anypony was Fluttershy.

“First we find out from Pinkie’s mind reading ability that you stole the Heart of Harmony from my castle, and that Fluttershy has been lying to us all the whole time, next we found out that you actually cheated on Maud, with Fluttershy none the less,” Twilight stated. “So let me ask you this just once, what do you think you are doing here?”

“Trixie doesn’t know,” Trixie admitted. “I just can’t lose Maud. Not like this.”

“Too late for that,” Pinkie Pie chimed in angrily. “You screwed up big time and hurt my sister worse than anypony has ever done before. I was right when I thought that you would end up hurting her.”

That was low and Trixie knew that Pinkie knew it, but with the way that she felt she couldn’t argue. Everything was coming to an end and Trixie knew it, but she stayed. Trixie lowered her head in shame, “Trixie knows, we told you that this would happen if you trusted us… we don’t know why you even gave Trixie a chance. You should have just killed us.”

“Darling, are you so obsessed with hating yourself that you did this to Maud just so that you could prove to her what a horrible pony you are?” Rarity asked.

“We don’t know, maybe,” Trixie replied lamely. It didn’t matter if Rarity’s words were true or not, because Trixie did prove that she was a horrible pony. Now she just needed to be punished for it.

“I saved your life,” Rainbow Dash said. “And you thank me by stealing from Twilight. I don’t even know what this Heart of Harmony thing does but it sure seems important. I mean it gots Harmony in its name!”

“You should have let Trixie die,” Trixie added as something broke in her. The walls that she had built up to keep her sane and happy were being destroyed by the very friends who had built them up in the first place.

“Now, sugarcube, yer mah cousin and Ah love you. But this is bad, Ah’m surprised that you actually did this to tell the truth,” Applejack said.

“Are you all done, or can Trixie go in and have Maud kill her now?” Trixie asked, she was sick of this conversation. For a second she paused and considered her words, they felt true. Trixie now knew what she was doing here, she wanted Maud to finish the job. Trixie believed with all her broken heart that the longer she lived, the more ponies that would get hurt by her.

“You can’t see my sister, in fact,” Pinkie Pie said, “I won’t ever let you see her again. Do you know that she was disowned by our parents for loving you?”

“Trixie learned of this only recently and unfortunately too late to fix her mistake,” Trixie answered. Maud had given up everything that she held dear for her, and now Trixie had gone and scorned that gift. If Trixie had planned on burning Maud’s heart to the ground and stomping on the ashes, well she couldn’t have picked a better way to do it.

Fluttershy looked up and stared into Trixie’s eyes. “Trixie, I am so sorry that I did this to you. I shouldn’t have let Pinkie Pie near me. Not after what we did… I promised that I wouldn’t ever leave you, and I meant it. I’ll stay with you if you want.”

Fluttershy’s words made something very clear to Trixie, the fact that she was dealing with a very sneaky and manipulative pony. The thought of Fluttershy purposely destroying her engagement crossed Trixie’s mind and a sudden flash of anger shot through Trixie’s entire body. “You don’t have to leave me, because I’m leaving you! You shouldn’t have invited me over and tricked me like that. I would have stopped too, I would’ve but you were so depressed, scared, and lonely that I was afraid you’d hurt yourself if I didn’t have sex with you the first time. And I bet that you knew that and used it against me.

“I’d have been better off if I’d just left you alone to die,” Trixie finished bitterly.

The broken look in Fluttershy’s eyes said it all. Trixie was done here. Nopony was going to let her in to see Maud, and even if they did there wasn’t anything that she could do to make up for her sins. She felt betrayed by all of her friends, and that left her with absolutely no one, and nothing. Trixie turned around and thankfully everypony was just shocked enough that they didn’t have time to react to her leaving.

“Trixie is done with all of you. We don’t need your forgiveness, your understanding, or your friendship. All Trixie wants now is for it to all be over, but don’t worry, Trixie will do what needs to be done,” Trixie said angrily as she stomped away through the snow. She was sure that even if they still cared enough to stop her, they would be too upset to do anything for a while. This gave Trixie time to write a stupid letter, one that nopony was clearly going to read.

Half an hour later the snow had already started to fall and Trixie’s letter had been written. She laid it down on the table before entering the bathroom. She saw her reflection staring back at her in disgust, it there was one thing she could count on; it would be her self loathing to see her off one last time. The bath water was running and her heart was in more pain than she had ever felt before. She stared in the mirror, the reflection of her holding a kitchen knife in her mouth was difficult to look at.

Her reflection quickly changed appearance slightly and Trixie found herself staring at a duplicate with yellow glowing eyes. One eye had a smaller pupil the other. The mirror Trixie dropped the knife and smiled a sickly grin that held one giant sharp tooth. Trixie quickly checked to make sure that she was still holding the knife and she was. Hallucinations were generally a horrible thing to experience, but right now it felt even worse.

“Hello,” the mirror Trixie said in Babble’s voice, hearing a male voice coming from her own mouth was awkward at best.

Trixie opened her mouth to speak and the knife fell to the floor carelessly. “What are you doing? Can’t you see that I’m busy?”

“Yes, yes, yes, killing yourself and all that melodramatic stuff. Listen I have a much better idea, and if you’re lucky it will still kill you. You interested?” Babble asked.

“I just want the pain to end. I’m sick and tired of trying to be something that I’m not, I don’t even have my magic so that makes my cutie mark, my destiny, completely worthless. Maud was all that I had left, and now she’s gone,” Trixie said.

“Good you are listening. First go into the forest and talk to Red Velvet, she offered to heal your magic right? And the best news is she said that it would probably kill you, so you either you get your magic back and become a magician again, or you die and nopony has to be hurt ever again. How does all that sound,” Babble offered.

“That sounds like a good idea,” Trixie said while picking up the knife with her telekinesis, “Too bad that I’m a bad pony.”

Trixie quickly used her forelegs to shatter the mirror in a single kick. As the glass shattered against her hooves shards went flying out in ever direction, many of them cutting her legs. With Babble now gone she crawled into the tub. The water was nice and warm, something she could relax in. The knife came in floating alongside her and for a moment she examined it. Babble did have a good idea, too bad that she had already started this. If she had been notified of Babble’s plan sooner she might have agreed to it.

The knife slowly hovered over her left foreleg at the fetlock, and she hesitated. I... can I really go through with this?

Her mind went back to earlier that day, an image of Maud crying appeared in her head and knowing that it was her actions that had hurt the strong mare so badly only reassured Trixie that right now she was doing the best possible thing. She pressed the blade against her fur, the bladed edge poked at her skin, but she couldn't force the blade across.

It's not that hard, Trixie. Just do it.

The knife wouldn't budge.

Honestly, what's stopping you? Is it Maud? Because she's gone now, you hurt her and she will never come back to you. Is it your friends? Well take a good look at what they did, they hurt you, they betrayed you, they knew you would do this if they left you... they knew.

Slowly The knife slid across her leg drawing a line of red that quickly oozed out.

There, see... that wasn't so hard. If everypony wanted you out of their life, well... they got their wish.

After dipping the newly wounded leg into the tub Trixie laughed. “With my Blood magic, I could probably be the most powerful unicorn in the whole town right now, and all it took was cutting myself.”

Trixie raised her other leg and brought the knife over it. This time there was no hesitating. Her mind fogged over but she kept concentration as the knife danced along her other leg. She recalled how each and every one of her friends had treated her after discovering that it was indeed her who stole the Heart of Harmony. It was funny how the Heart of Harmony would lead to so much disharmony among her friends. She rested her other leg into the bright red water now.

“It looks like wine,” Trixie said to herself as she stared at the water.

It took a little longer then she thought it would but soon enough the darkness came over her and didn’t fight it. She closed her eyes and drifted off to a place where she could never hurt anypony again. She thought of Maud and all the good times they had shared, it was too bad that those were now over. Her thoughts jumped next to all the friends she now had and how horrible it was to know that they would never be her friends again. Finally she thought of her mother and how destroyed she would be when she learned of Trixie’s demise, again even that was tainted by the fact that eventually somepony would figure out how to fix Orange Peel and Screw Loose would go back to being crazy again.

As her mind slipped away she heard a loud crash and Fluttershy shouting something, it almost sounded like a plea. A few more voices joined in alongside Fluttershy’s and something wrapped itself around her waist and pulled her away from the warm water, the air was cold against her fur, so very cold. It was too late for them for Trixie embraced the darkness