Dear Mental Diary,
This is going to be my last entry, I mean it this time. I know how to get out of this day. Taking my life wasn't working, I poisoned myself, I fell, I went into the forest a dozen times. I keep waking up. Maybe, I have to do something unthinkable, horrible. I can't wait any longer, I have to get out, I'm going crazy. I feel headaches a lot, I can't think straight, most days I can't get out of bed at all and my friends come by at the same time every day, knock knock knocking on my door. Knock knock knock. Knock knock knock. KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK.
I answered a few times to their gasping faces. Everytime it's Twilight first, then all of them come later to see me. "Oh, Fluttershy, what's wrong, you look terrible." they say, "I'm trapped in Tartarus." is all I say. Then I leave them at the door. Dash breaks down the door, they enter and try to talk to me. "It's okay, what's wrong, talk to us, we're here for you." We're here for you. We're here for you.
They're always here for me but none of them know what this is like. I think it's been a year now, I stopped counting the moons a while ago. I haven't fed my friends in ages, for them it's always first thing today. They're barely hungry I learned, same for me. I wake up every day and my body is the same, only my mind carries over.
Fluttershy sobbed as she turned over and covered herself in her blanket, Angel hopping on her asking for breakfast, again.
Twilight knocked on the door, she had to check on Fluttershy since she didn't show up to the library party, "I bet she's feeding her animals and lost track of time."
Fluttershy opened the door to see Twilights smile fade, "Come in," she said flatly and turned around, walking into the room.
Entering and closing the door behind her Twilight followed her friend, "Fluttershy, are you okay? You look, down."
Fluttershy leaned on her forelegs and bucked with all her might. Animals chirped and fluttered, squeaked and scurried for a place to hide as Twilight shouted in pain and fell back, the kick had landed at the base of her horn, cracking it inside her head.
Paralyzed and racked with pain she looked at Fluttershy who was crying, "I'm so sorry Twilight Sparkle, the pain. The pain I feel every day has to end. Only you can help me now, by your death I will be free of today. Tomorrow will happen and all the others will live again."
Twilights face turned to fear and her eyes opened wide, "Fl-Fl-Flutter- I-I-I d-d-."
"I know, you don't understand, you never can, I'm so sorry Twilight. You've always been there to help me, now you're going to set me free." Rearing up Fluttershy landed with all her might on Twilights head again and again. Hearing a sickening 'crack' the third time Twilight began to convulse and shake.
"Oh Celestia, I'm so sorry Twilight, I'm SO sorry," Fluttershy cried as she closed her eyes and landed one last time.
Twilight's body stiffened and she let out one last noise, then went limp.
"Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia, Oh, Celestia," Fluttershy cried as she laid on her friends chest, "We can both be free now."
"Sheesh, why me, I wanted to fly over to my old house and see Scoots, but now I have to check on Twi and Fluttershy, what a day so far. I can't wait to actually celebrate something," Rainbow Dash said as flew to the cottage.
Landing she walked to the door and was about to knock and heard Fluttershy crying heavily, too heavily to be something common.
Pounding on the door she yelled for Fluttershy to open the door to no response. She hovered back a few feet then flew into the door knocking it open then stopped as she saw Twilight, dead on the floor with horrible injuries and Fluttershy crying over her, blood on her hooves.
"Oh, Celestia, Fluttershy, what did you do?" Rainbow Dash said as she felt the cupcakes rising in her stomach.
Fluttershy couldn't stop crying heavily and said nothing.
Rainbow Dash flew outside as fast as she could creating a sonic rainboom as she fled the scene to the library.
Breaking through the door she vomited and screamed in terror scaring the others beyond anything they had known before.
"Oh Dash, what's wrong?" Pinkie asked as she sped to Rainbow Dash, holding her as she trembled and cried, tears running down her face her nose running and her body shaking.
"Twi-Twi-Twilight... Fluttershy-" She began crying more heavily.
The others looked at each other in surprise then left for the cottage, Applejack carrying Dash.
Fluttershy was sitting in the royal jail in Canterlot with four guards at her cell door as she laid on the floor beside the bed still crying. The first murder in Ponyville history was on her head and it was of a princess. She would be executed without a doubt now, but she knew she would see tomorrow.
As night fell she stopped crying, her body to dehydrated to make tears and her throat was too hoarse to make noise.
Taking a seated position she watched the sky light as the moon fell through her small cell window. "I'm going to be free now."
Closing her eyes she breathed deeply and smiled weakly.