Pinkie's POV
My friends......they didn't like my parties anymore...?
I was crying my eyes out, I knew that much. Had my whole life been a lie up until now? What did they really think of me?
I felt like my world was spinning and as if I was moving on my own. Whatever was happening, I didn't care.
Nothing has ever been more important to me than making my friends smile, and learning that they never appreciated me in the first place.....I just wanted to curl up and die inside at the mere THOUGHT.
My mind went blank for a bit as I tried to deal with the reality of the situation, but eventually I snapped to awareness when I heard a loud 'SURPRISE!' from my former friends.
I didn't really feel like it was my doing, but I glared at them. What was this, a 'Farewell-To-Pinkie-Pie' party!? Did they think it'd be funny to mock me by making me attend it!?
"I really thought she'd be more excited....." Fluttershy said quietly.
"Why in Equestria would I be EXCITED?"
I agreed with what my mouth I wasn't controlling was saying. There's no reason to be excited at attending my own farewell party!!!
The ponies in my line of vision looked between each other, before looking back at me.
"Because of this surprise party we threw for you!" Twilight said.
Th-....they threw a surprise party?
"Look, I'm sorry I ran from you, but we wanted your birthday party to stay a surprise!"
A....SURPRISE party!? S-So they never abandoned me.....?
I tried to smile and tell them how happy I was that they did this for me, and how bad I felt for ever having doubted them, but nothing happened.
It was like there was a big wall blocking me from doing what I told myself to do!
'H-hey! Why can't I talk to tell them how happy I am!?'
Instead of the happy smile I tried to put on my face, a creepy smile grew.
I couldn't move! Why couldn't I move!? Why was my body doing things I wasn't telling it to do!?
"Pinkie Pie....what's going on? You're freaking me out here....." Rainbow said a bit nervously, the others chiming in their own agreements.
I tried my absolute best to yell, wave, do anything to tell them what was going on, but nothing happened!
"Don't call me that!" My mouth yelled at them, an angry look appearing on my face.
This had to be a bad dream. This happens in dreams sometimes, right?
"Pinkie......" Twilight walked up to me, a concerned look on her face. "If there's something wrong, you know you can tell us!"
"STOP CALLING ME THAT!" Twilight fell backwards in surprise. I almost wanted to cry. I was hurting all my friends' feelings! After this party they threw just for me! This wasn't a bad dream; it was a nightmare!
"I'M NOT PINKIE!"
Silence befell the room before Rainbow flew quickly at me. "What's going on here!? Tell me, NOW!"
'I'm trying to, Dashie, I'm trying!'
Why couldn't I just speak?
'T-Twilight...w-what's going on.....'
Twilight would know, right? She'd figure it out, right? She knew almost everything! She was the smartest pony I knew! And I know a lot of ponies!
"Rainbow, calm down...." Applejack tried to reason, but was quickly shot down.
"NO! Something's going on with Pinkie Pie, and I need to find out what!"
I tried to smile a sad smile instinctively, but that didn't work either. But I still felt a bit happier; she was such a good friend, she knew something was up! They'd figure it out and help me!
Twilight pulled Rainbow away from me. "Maybe so, but that's no way to go about it, Rainbow." She took off her party hat and threw it to the side. "What do you want me to call you then, Pin- um....."
"Pinkamena."
"Pinkamena?"
"Yes."
"I've never heard that name before." Twilight pondered.
"It's my real name."
'Pinkamena? But I haven't used that name since I was a filly! Pinkie is so much better!'
My body growled in response to my thought.
Wait, could whatever was controlling me hear my thoughts too!?
"O-Okay...." Twilight responded to the growl. But I knew it must've been responding to me. Right?
The other four ponies just watched, many feeling awkward.
'I' turned towards them.
"I'm not going to answer anything if they're here."
'But they're my friends, I trust them! I'm scared....why can't I move? Please, somepony help me.....'
Twilight looked at her worried friends, before sighing. "Girls, can you please leave for a moment so I can talk with her in private?"
After a few moments of the others talking amongst themselves, they all left the barn.
Except for Rainbow Dash, who had a mix between a glare and a concerned frown.
"Get out." 'I' growled at her once again, causing me to mentally wince.
"I'm not leaving you alone here, Pinkamena." She said in a mocking tone.
"Rainbow, leave!" Twilight said sternly, scaring me a bit.
".........Fine."
The Pegasus begrudgingly left the barn, glaring at me before the door closed behind her.
That glare hurt me so much.....I was pretty sure she wasn't glaring at ME me, but still.....
Hopefully Twilight could figure out what was wrong.
'I sure HOPE Twilight can figure out what's wrong!'
'I really hope I can get used to ignoring that soon.'
I felt shocked, and was once again unable to display my emotion physically. Whose voice was that? I know it wasn't mine, but it was like I had thought without thinking! Oh no, I wasn't losing control of my thoughts too, was I!?
"So....Pinkamena." Twilight started. "Who are you, exactly?"
"Someone.....'close' to Pinkie Pie."
'C-Close to me? But I am me! And I don't know who this voice is that's controlling me!'
Throughout all this I felt like I was tied down to a bed or something, and wasn't even able to wiggle; except they had tied my eyes too, and my ears, and my everything, and then were using the ropes to move my body for me!
It felt terrible. I'd never felt so trapped before, not even when I was sick and had to stay in bed for days!
Twilight rolled her eyes. "I figured that much. How 'close' are you, exactly?"
"As close as possible."
Twilight chewed her bottom lip as she seemed deep in thought. "Family?"
".........No."
"......Where did you come from?"
"A rock farm."
Twilight blinked. "So did Pinkie."
"She's not from a rock farm."
'Yeah I am! I never said to lie to Twilight, mouth!'
"She told me she did!"
"She lied."
"Why should I believe you over her?"
'I guess I'll just have to hope for the best response here.'
There was that voice again!
"I grew up on a rock farm. PINKIE suddenly took control of me when the 'Sonic Rainboom' happened."
'W-What!?'
That wasn't true, right? It couldn't be true! I had been a sad little filly, saw the Sonic Rainboom, and then got happy and found my special talent!
'.......Right?'
Somehow what my mouth was saying seemed true. I certainly didn't feel like I had actually been there when I recalled memories before the Rainboom.
A wave of new doubts filled my mind after that thought.
"How- a Sonic Rainboom can't do THAT to a pony! You're lying!"
"You wanted to talk, and I'm talking! It's not my fault if you don't want to listen to what I say!"
"I wanted you to speak THE TRUTH!"
"I AM!"
The barn door opened and I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head, and then my vision went black.
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Everything was dark, and I had nothing but my thoughts left. I hated that. I was never one for deep thinking. Things were always better when you just went through life being happy rather than dwelling too hard on things.
But it looked like now I didn't really have a choice, and it was full of nothing but worry.
'Why did I black out? Why couldn't I move myself? Was it all just a dream? Will I be stuck like this forever?'
'You will be if I have anything to say about it.'
'H-Huh? Who's there?' I responded a bit nervously.
'Wow. The jail keeper finally hears me for once. How about that.'
'Jail keeper? What is that voice talking about? I'm not a jail keeper! I'm a baker!'
'Oblivious-ugh! You know perfectly well you locked me away for a decade!'
'Sh-She can hear all my thoughts?'
Another pony appeared in the darkness, glaring at me. She looked a lot like me, except her mane was straight, and her coat was dull.
'Of course I can. You could always hear mine! But you always brushed them off as just negativity that should be ignored. That's right, ignored! And that's what you're going to be from now on! Not noticed, unable to do anything, stuck here while I do what I want, not you!'
'I feel like crying.....'
'Well so did I, but I couldn't do it when I wanted to!'
'Who....who are you? I need to know, I don't understand!'
Pinkamena let out a groan.
'Fine. I'll humour you. I'm the pony that saw the Rainboom, and was suddenly locked away within her own mind by an over enthusiastic party planner with the opposite personality of me!'
'B-But...I was the one to see the Sonic Rainboom, wasn't I?'
'Of course, you WOULD think that....' She shook her head with a sigh. 'I'm not Twilight, and I don't know how those things work, but all I know is that YOU showed up after I saw it, and I haven't been able to do a single thing other than watch ever since!'
'Th-that can't be true!'
'Well it is. I guess you really didn't realize I existed for TEN WHOLE YEARS. You're even stupider than I thought.'
A metaphorical stab of pain went through me at the insult.
'I'm not stupid!'
'Yes you are! You're a stupid, body snatching, sadistic jail keeper!'
Her line of insults along with her glare and smirk made me feel like I might actually cry even though I didn't have the ability to.
'N-no....j-just leave me alone.....'
'Trust me, I would if I could! But we're stuck together like this!'
'N-Not....true....'
The pony who looked like me but wasn't me at all started to fade away as the darkness we were in started to light up.
'Oh, good, I'm waking up from whoever knocked me out. Whoever did that is going to get it!'
In a flash of light, my eyes snapped open.