Don't take this is an insult but sometimes I wish that nopony was in my life, it sounds cruel but it's true. I also sometimes wish that I didn't wish everypony away, thinking my life was meaningless and I didn't need anypony. I feel like a self-conflicting pony, always at war with myself and never thinking about how my actions can affect others and I. My very existence is dull and all I want is to go home, but I know for a fact it's too late for that; I ran knowing the consequences but never cared, always thinking that it wouldn't affect me. I now know to never run from my problems again; all it does is create more problems and makes me depressed. For me life is as dull as my existence; nopony likes my music or the way I act around others, whenever I offer to be nice to somepony they look down on me and tell me I'm pathetic and need more 'class'. Now I know why I should have never run away.
As a young filly I would often wish for a life so much simpler than this, I wished for constant happiness and to never worry about what other ponies would do behind my back. When you live in a place where you're constantly watching your back you start to develop a sixth sense, you could feel when somepony was sneaking up behind you and hear them breathe from five metres away. They would crumple the dirt beneath their hoof's and you would casually pretend that nothing was happening; then when they pounced you would swerve and make them fall to their hooves. No pony should have to live a life like that, it's why I came to Ponyville; but unfortunatelly everypony here was just as bad, if not worse, than everypony at home. I remember one day that my best friend, or so I thought, left me to die in the street with no help and I had to fend for myself. It was horrible times back then, I honestly thought that was the day I was going to die; with no imprint on history and with nopony to recongize my achievements. Fortunately a lovely pegasus took me in and nursed me back to health, and I was well on my way to my new home...or so I thought.
Today I still live an ordinary life, I have a friend who I think I can trust. She can be a bit ditsy but that's just her; we've known each other since we were but wee fillies. She brings a little bit of excitement into my life, her and I work in the same line of work; I give her letters and packages and she delivers them to the designated address. She has a greyish sort of coat, with a light yellow mane and tail; she tends to crash and tumble, many ponies don't like her because of the damage she causes. You would know her but I'll say her name just to jog your memory, her name is...Derpy Hooves.
Derpy is a somewhat extraordinary pony, she usually spends her days delivering mail and crashing and tumbling. Even though most ponies undervalue her she still keeps a smile on her face, believe it or not I find it quite amusing that one pony could tumble and crash so many times in one day. She'll always get back up and just continue with her day, no matter how banged up she gets she'll always do her best; I guess that's why I find her quite interesting, cause she always keeps me in a positive mood.
The day I met her I found her lying in a ditch, absolutely riddled with mud; I asked what happened and she said:
"I was trying to create a tornado like Rainbow Dash, but I got all ditzy and I bumped into a pole and fell in this mud heap," said Derpy.
I held my hoof out and said, "here, take my hoof," the smile on her muzzle couldn't get anymore bigger.
That's the day I met Derpy Hooves; since then we've been inseparable, going everywhere and doing everything together. If we weren't working we were out getting treatments at the spa and singing at Sugarcube Corner; mind you, Pinkie thinks we sound brilliant. Derpy has another friend besides me, her name is Dinky; she looks relatively like Derpy but is in fact not related to her, I'd assume Dinky is actually Amethyst Star's younger sister since I did see them at a pie-eating sister event.
Tomorrow should be a fairly decent day; so long as nopony shows up acting like a complete horse raddish, than it should be good. Unfortunately a lot of unusual things have been happening lately; especially since Twilight Sparkle rocked up, but thats life and I'll get over it. Still, I have this unusual feeling that something is prone to happen...