//------------------------------// // Stay Close, Don't Go // Story: A Twist In My Story // by Nightshine_Eclipse //------------------------------// Don't leave me tonight, This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies, If you leave me tonight. I just really hope I won't regret listening to Sun-butt... I stayed a few paces behind Sun-butt, trying to convince myself that nothing bad will happen when she sees me. She won't hate me. She won't be scared. Well, at least not any more scared than she probably already is from waking up in a new world. I sighed. Nothing will go wrong. Nothing can go wrong. I shook my head, trying to shake those thoughts away. I needed to see her. She was alive. She was here. She could finally see me. "Discord," a voice just about yelled at me, shaking me out of my thoughts. I looked to see Sun-butt a few inches before me. I growled. "Yes, Sun-butt?" I asked, using the nickname in hopes to anger her. "Dis- Did you call me Sun-butt?" she cut off, glaring at me. "Yeah, yeah. So what? What did you want, Sun-butt?" I asked, smirking. "We are here," was all she said before entering the room. The smirk faded. My feet (well sort of... hooves, maybe? I don't know) were seemingly stuck to the floor; I couldn't move. The what if's were racing through my mind. What if she is scared of me? Or what if she ends up hating me? Or... or.. What if she finds me repulsive or disgusting or... evil... What if she finds me weird and is a bit confused... What if she learns that I had been watching her for the past few years and finds that disturbing or weird? "Discord!" a voice called out. Sun-butt. "Can you please come in here already?" I sighed. I guess it's time to put my fears behind me. I took a deep breath, then opened the door. Wish me luck... Everything became awkward. No one said anything. I kept my gaze on my hands, feeling slightly hurt. I didn't understand why though. It felt like something was missing (and no, it was not because the crazy pink pony called Pinkie Pie had left). What was this that I was feeling? I must have been so lost in thought that I never realized that everyone in the room was looking at me and a new pony had entered the room. "Hello, sister," the lunar pony (Luna?) had said. "Hello, sister, Twilight, Elements," the taller pony of white said, before looking over at me. "Hello, Scarlette. My name is Princess Celestia." "H... Hello," I stuttered slightly, still a bit lost in my thoughts. "I take it that you feel like something is missing, perhaps?" Cel- Princess Celestia said, shocking me. "Uh... um..." I didn't know how to reply. "Trust me, child, when you've been alive as long as I, you tend to pick up on things," the white pony (alicorn?) said in a soothing tone. "Yeah... Why do I feel this way?" I asked quietly, unsure of my own words. The princess looked around the room, "Do you all mind going to the dining hall for dinner now? It is getting late, and I wish to speak with Scarlette here, alone." All the ponies gave murmurs of agreement and made their way out of the room. When all had left, the door closed. Princess Celestia looked at me; a look of wonder and love adorned her face. I was confused and a bit shocked. "Scarlette, I know everything that has happened to you, since you've woken up especially, has been a bit shocking and overwhelming. I do not intend to add onto that shock, but we must speak now. I know of your self-harming, depression, and suicidal thoughts and attempts. I understand your world is different than that of here, but you are here now, and I want to help you become better and-" Princess Celestia went on, but I cut her off. "Who says I need help? What if I don't need help? What if... What if I don't want help..." I cut it, just about crying after I said that. "Scarlette... Please. There is somewhere who is waiting outside who needs you, who loves you. The one who stands outside was the one who saved your life. He had my sister, Luna, bring you here, to save you. He loves you, I promise you that. He needs you," Princess Celestia about cried to me. "H-he l-l-loves me?" I asked shocked. "Yes, Scarlette. He was always watching over you, making sure you were okay. I am unsure of how human nature works and how your kind works, but I now that your kind can love. Now, I am not telling you this to tell you that you have to love him, even if you do or do not, but I am telling you this to let you know that someone has cared for you for years. Please, I understand habits can be hard to break, but I need you to try," Princess Celestia sighed. "I am going to send him in. He is scared, as he isn't one to show his feelings. Soon, I will tell you more about him, unless he does so himself. I also need you to understand that he is worried that you will hate him or be scared of him. I can assure you he is not going to hurt you; he's not very scary. Just talk with him, help assure him that you are alright. He needs that." After she finished speaking, Princess Celestia looked at me, giving a small smile, before walking out of the room. I sat there, completely still, trying to comprehend the princess' words. Did someone actually love me? Someone had been watching over me for the past few years? Someone actually loved me? He is scared that I will hate him? He is scared that I will be afraid of him? Someone actually loved me? I must have been so lost in thought as to have not been listening as the draconequus had already slipped into the room and was watching me with interest. Suddenly, I realized that the feeling I had earlier, that something was missing, was now gone. Was it him that I felt was missing? I shook my head. I heard him clear his throat; I looked up at him and gasped, silently. The creature before me looked so very familiar, like I had seen him before. I felt my heart skip a beat. "H... Hello," he said, smiling slightly. "H-hello," I replied, still trying to figure out my feelings. "If you haven't been told already, my name is Discord," he said almost silently. "Discord? As in 'lack of harmony' or 'chaos'?" I asked, mostly to myself. "Why is your name Discord?" "My little Rose, I am the spirit of chaos," he told me, flinching slightly. Did he really think that I would hate him or be afraid of him because he was the spirit of chaos? "My name is Scarlette September, but I think you already knew that," I smiled. I giggled slightly when I noticed he had blushed from my comment. "I did know, my little rose, I did," he whispered. "Why do you call me 'my little rose'?" I asked in wonder. "Um... because you're like a little rose. Beautiful and innocent, new and bright," Discord spoke, looking straight into my eyes. This time, it was my turn to blush. My cheeks started to burn as the blood rushed to my cheeks. I had never heard someone call me beautiful before. I was always called ugly, fat, disgusting, worthless... I must have made it obvious to what I was thinking because I'm snapped out of my thoughts by Discord grabbing my hand in his... paw?... and whispering my name while he stared into my eyes. "Scarlette, please stop thinking about them. I don't want you to keep hurting yourself. Those girls were mean and jealous of you, that is why they hurt you. Don't listen to their words; listen to mine. I will tell you the truth. You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. You're perfect. You're not fat, or ugly, or disgusting, and you are definitely not worthless. My little rose, you are perfect. Please, forget everything they said; listen to me," Discord pleaded, holding my hands and staring into my eyes. "Why do you care so much about me?" I asked, my voice cracking. "Because you are an amazing girl that I have loved for so many years. Ever since I saw you way back when you were still in Elementary school, playing by yourself on the swing set. I knew there was something special about you; I knew I loved you. I've watched over you ever since then. I've seen you every time you ran home crying, wanting to just end everything. I watched as you picked up the blade for the first time, to the first time you purged, to when you skipped a meal. And every time I saw you do something to yourself, my heart broke. I wanted to be able to hold you, to tell you everything would be alright, but I wasn't allowed to. I had to watch you go through all that pain. Please believe me when I tell you that you are perfect and that I do truly, undeniably love you," Discord spoke, tears leaking from his eyes. "You can't love me, Discord. I am nothing. Please, please, please understand! I can't be loved! Everyone hates me! Don't lie to me!" I screamed, sobbing. I ran from the bed to the other door I noticed in the room. The door led to a bathroom, thankfully. I locked the door and sunk to the floor. I was sobbing. When I ran, I had grabbed something off of the table. In my hand, I held a blade. I cried, yelling at myself. "Stupid, stupid, stupid! Just die already, please. No one needs me, no one loves me. Nobody cares. Everyone was lying. Princess Celestia, Discord, even Twilight and all of her friends. They don't care! I'm just a stupid, fat, ugly, worthless human that has no meaning in any world," I sighed, sobbing harder. "I'm sorry... Goodbye..." I took the blade and dug it deep into my wrist. I did it again and again, watching my wrist turn from a pale white, to a pink-ish color of white stained with crimson. My mind was racing, whirling with fear. I could faintly hear Discord yelling for Princess Celestia to come back in the background, but I didn't care. She didn't care about me; no one did. My vision started becoming blurry, my hearing became fuzzy. Before the world became black, I saw a tall pony figure and another of a creature of many before me. One looked at me with absolute fear and a heart broken expression. The other looked slightly disappoint and hurt. Scarlette, you do need help... Then I blacked out.