Fluttershy is in love with me.
I would have to be as big a fool as Rarity was when she thought that rock was a diamond.
Well, in her defense my magic made her think that but that's beside the point.
I have seen the way Fluttershy acts around me. Those baby-blue eyes light up whenever she gazes upon my magnificent form. She'll actually push her mane out of her face in order to see me better. Whenever she is speaking to me, you can hear her talk in a normal tone instead of those barely audible whispers that she usually talks in. She'll even tell that damned rabbit to show me some respect and stop acting like a little bastard whenever I visit her at her little cottage. Fluttershy's affection of me was as obvious to me as was the dragon kid's love for the fashion crazy marshmallow to everyone else.
I thought it was cute.
Like a little puppy, who wags her tail whenever she sees her owner.
I never took her feelings seriously, I thought it was just some schoolfilly's crush on her older teacher or something mundane like that. I am a Spirit of Disharmony and shes a timid, little pegasus who's scared of her own shadow. What in the world could she offer the likes of me?
Her friendship? Well...it was interesting to say the least. Playing the selfish, egotistical villain all the time was starting to get boring and I can't stand being bored.
And I was also getting sick of being stuck as a statue. Being static just does not work for a creature of chaos.
So I accepted her offer of friendship after that whole drama I staged with the beavers and the hick's farm. I tuned down some of my more destructive jokes in order to give the illusion of being reformed. I also kept correspondence with Fluttershy and made regular visits to her cottage. We just mainly talked and drank tea but I could tell that that she was slowly warming up to me. She was coming out of the shell that she had built around herself when it was just us.
As for me, well, like I said, I thought it was cute. I thought about leading her on a bit just to amuse myself, but I do admit that I had grown...fond of Fluttershy...and that seemed a bit too malicous for the new "reformed" me so I just played it cool and stayed distant.
Also I was having too much fun messing with everypony without the fear of Celestia spoiling my fun. Especially Twilight, the way her eye twitches when she gets mad is just so hilarious.
I was having too much fun.
That's when I met Tirek.
I must have been as thick-headed as Rainbow Dash to have been fooled by him. To believe that he wouldn't back-stab me the first chance he got is the height of foolishness. And Twilight Sparkle...it appears I have greatly underestimated her and the idea that "Friendship is Magic". After that whole fiasco, her and her friends were quick to forgive me. Though with plenty of subtle warnings about not letting something like this happen again. Though I use the word subtle loosely in Dash's case. She is as subtle as a freight train.
Then I remebered Fluttershy, and I remembered her affection for me.
Since this time I was truely reformed I thought I should do the right thing and properly apologize to her and gently let her down as well.
I came to her cottage like I used to and when she opened the door, I closed my eyes and sincerely apologized to her. I was about to let her down like I planned but I then realized I hadn't heard anything so I opened my eyes.
I then saw the most beautiful creature I had ever seen.
Fluttershy wasn't wearing any dress, any makeup, she was standing there with the most serene look of love and kindness on her face.And as I looked into her eyes, time seemed to freeze. Because where I thought I saw just a shallow pool of a schoolfilly's crush, was an ocean of forgiveness, kindness, affection, and most of all...love.
Then I saw something horrible within those eyes. Something twisted, cruel, evil, and ugly.
I saw me.
My heart started racing. All that love was meant for me.
I broke out in a cold sweat. She was still in love with me even after my betrayal.
My mouth felt like cotton. She forgave me for my transgression.
My knees started to shake. A beautiful, kind pure creature like her was in love with a pathetic wretch like me.
She started to speak but I quickly teleported myself out from in front of her door to a more secluded spot in the Everfree Forest. I fell to my knees and wept. I sobbed like foal.
For I knew that her love for me does not go unanswered.
For I knew that I have destroyed any chance for us to be happy together.
I went all over Equestria with Tirek in his rampage, helping him drain all the magic from all the ponies. Though I have been forgiven by the princesses and the Elements themselves, my name will forever be mud in their books.
I refuse to to let any dirt, any taint, from me fall on her perfect form.
I have to distance myself from Fluttershy, lest ponies mark her dirty by association. I have to kill the part of my heart that accepts Fluttershy's love.
I have to destroy the part of me that makes me happy.
In that cold spot in the forest, I say, for the first and final time, the one line I can never let anypony here.
The one line that properly conveys how I feel.
The one line that would make Fluttershy so happy as well as invite misery into her life.
"Fluttershy, I..."