White.
White.
Herthe one
Just smile and nod.
Am I alright am I not who you made me?
Just smile and nod
speaking askingtelling
whoamiamiokaywhatismynameiampale
When it is asked why it is in pain, it is to lie.
I am alright I just did not expect to see youtheonewhohadmechanged here!
She's nodding it workedshe'd never believe me I am scum
Pink she is concerned for the lowest you have hurt her you will go back for that
White just smile i should do what it is told
CALM DOWN
I'm not in that place again. But the walls? No, it's sunlight and curtains.
I'm on a bed?
I scramble off of it. I can't ruin someone else's bed.
No, it's her bed it's ruined she saw me
Why is Pinkie trying to hold me?
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It's the cold again. Familiar friend.
They're all looking at me. Guess I've ruined this outing, too. Guess I saved time making the less scary one hate me. And the scary one.
they're all looking at you like trash
No surprise there. I took one look at truthnotliarcorrect and froze.
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Oh, look. It's night out...
realitylockschainspain why is she looking at i
check on the HUTCH make it scream make it lie make it true
covered in pink and close and...
warmth is only colder when it goes away, scum
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Scared. Social phobia. Not the first time I've heard those words... Are they true?
Only ponies get to have an excuse.
i'm just worthless
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i made her cry
She knew something was wrong
you
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i'm home
they're gone
She lied for me...
why?
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How long has it been? The days blend together
same worthless me doing the same thing
Morning. Wake up. Pinkie's there. No time to think.
Pulled out of bed. Can't stay on my legs...
She's populating my room with all kinds of stuff. I can't pay her back for this...
Speaking of pay, it's almost time for work.
If I don't comb my hair, she's going to stuff cupcakes in it...
And now we impose ourself on the world.
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So it was the orange friend's trees that I woke up by. Applejack. Appropriate name. They're tasty apples, too.
...I'll pay her back for them sometime.
Pinkie insisted that I leave my house today. Something about hardly leaving, which I suppose is true.
see how it's gone before
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Those fillies almost hit me... Isn't the one Applejack's sister? Apple... something?
yeah, that's not offensive at all, assuming they're all apple-based
Oh, they were meeting with friends. Good on me getting in their way.
Oh, wait... The one's not being friendly.
Worthless. Useless.
sounds like she's talking about you
scum garbage lying laughing pink white filthy low pain blood
shaking
She's shaking me. Shaking the snow away...
...why?
idiot. you still can't accept that she's trying to break you. get close to you, teach me to lean on her so when she finally betrays i, we fall even harder. no one wants us to be happy. no one cares. i'm just a plaything for ponies to hurt and laugh at.
don't forget your name
I am Hutch.
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i am hutch
hutch is worthless
hutch is to be hurt
it obeys and is hurt
it disobeys and is hurt
it is worthless
it is hutch
when somepony approaches it, it is to pretend to be happy. it is to remember it is worthless. when somepony shows interest in it, it is to stay distant. it is to remember it is worthless. when somepony tries to make it happy, they are trying to punish it. it is to remember it is worthless. when it fails to keep its distance, it will be hurt.
it will remember it is worthless
Stay away from her. Keep away from her. Smile smiling hurts and nod. i can't get close. it must stay away. it hurts and is hurt. That is what hutch is for.
Goodbye. She is sad. it wasn't distant enough. i hurt her
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it can't care
caring hurts
hurts them
hurt it, it isn't allowed to care
it is what hutch is for
it is what hutch knows
pain is why hutch exists
pain is why hutch exists
say goodbye and push her away
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morning. try not to wake up. Pinkie... don't think.
she's asking me to get out of bed. my legs feel cold...
my room feels cold. she's holding up a stuffed doll.
i need money to not die. i tell her to leave so i can.
i look horrible. this way i'm honest.
and now we impose ourself on the world.
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She is making keeping my distance from her difficult. Doesn't she know that i hurt everyone around me? This is why I avoided being around ponies in the first place. i'm not supposed to inconvenience anyone...
And every day, she's there. Trying not to cry. It's been a week.
failure
yes
worst kind of filth
yes
a fresh group of tormenters, familiar faces
so they are
Her friends. Not surprising. They'd know where to find me, after all one of them is my boss.
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i'm not ignoring her, i'm trying to avoid hurting her. But they wouldn't understand that.
Applejack and my boss are angry
curl up and let it happen
it will pass
all it is is pain
One of them prods me, checking to see if it's awake
the fear of what's about to happen is the best part, after all
the quivering before each blow, the begging and pleading
watch hutch squirm
hear him cry
it's fun
hutch is fun
i look between my hooves, expecting to see a hoof coming for my face. They're just... looking at me.
run before they change their minds
run while i still can
let them think the lowest of me
coward cruel pitiful trash
let them think the truth of me
hutch hutch hutch hutch
maybe She will learn to think the same
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warm
pink
sunrise
shake
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let her learn now that it isn't worth her time
time would be worthless
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