Entry Five.
Sombra came again. The doctors told me. He’d tried to hurt Chrisi. He’d hurt Diddy and Chrisi in the end. I just wish he’d stop—that he’d go away. I wouldn’t hurt anybody, not ever, so I don’t get why anypony else would. I don’t get why I would—why he would—why both of us would.
In the Crystal Empire I’d been so happy. I’d found a new home just as good as the farm I’d grown up on. Sure, it was alien at first, but I’ve always been quite good at fitting in with other ponies. Making friends was a special talent of mine. I was friends with everypony and cow on the farm, and when I moved to the Empire I was friends with a lot of them there. Not at first, mind you. Sombra wasn’t my companion there. He didn’t need to be, not even when we first arrived.
It was a hive of activity. Everypony buzzed around like happy little bees. They were so shiny—the ponies, I mean—that they could’ve blinded you by just looking at them. A few of them nearly did. I squinted as I looked outside the sides of the cart. The large palace was the most memorable part of all. It was made entirely of crystal, just as the other buildings there, but it was far more impressive. As we rode past I could see a Crystal-Pony with the unfortunate job of cleaning the outside walls. They slid quickly, sponge in hoof, down the walls and just managed to catch onto the ledge before crashing down onto the balcony. Nopony noticed it except me, not even Mother. Soon it would become just as normal for me as it was for everypony else. In fact, soon Sheen Clean, the pony who was tasked with cleaning the palace, would become a close friend of mine—somepony I saw every day when visiting the impressive building. But then, I’m skipping ahead a bit. I shouldn’t do that. The doctors want me to do this all in order, to organize it in my mind, so that they and I can understand exactly where my problem came from. Sombra can’t have just come from nowhere. There must be something in the Empire that caused it.
I don’t know what it could be though. There wasn’t anything in the Empire I didn’t love. Even my Mother seemed happier once we’d arrived. A smile spread over her face as she parked the cart in front of our new house. It looked just like all the others around it. Blue crystals made up the outer walls, a red crystal sat on top of the dark blue crystal door, spreading like an awning to protect us from the constant glare of the sun. It was warm and welcoming. I smiled at it, staring in awe at the beautiful gardens and wildlife growing around it. There were all sorts of animals frittering about behind the house; all just as colourful and crystal-y as the rest of the place. I looked at bushes of glowing fruit and licked my lips.
Mr. Ember, our neighbour, came out of his house at this point and saw me sitting there, mouth wide open. He smiled and walked over to me and Mother.
“You should eat one, son. They taste as good as they look,” he said. I looked to my mom and she nodded her head. I beamed and grabbed one of the berries of the bush. It was honestly one of the juiciest, sweetest things I’ve ever had in my life. It tasted like apples and pears and kumquats and cherries and every-other-fruit-you-could-ever-eat all rolled into one delicious package. Mr. Ember saw my grin and copied it.
“They’re good, aren’t they?” he asked. I nodded appreciatively, licking the sweet juice off my lips. Mother watched me but didn’t say anything. Her mind seemed to have wandered and she looked over at the house.
“Just moved here, have you?” Mr. Ember asked. Mother nodded her head and mumbled something. Neither me nor Mr. Ember could hear what she’d said. Mr. Ember decided not to push the conversation any further. It was obvious that all my mother wanted to do was to get inside.
“Well, just call me if you need any help. I might be getting on a bit but me and my wife still have some springs in our steps. I’m Ember, by the way.” He held out his hoof to me. I shook it, cheerfully.
“I’m Silas,” I said. He nodded.
“Well then, Silas, it’s great to meet you both. Enjoy the berries.” He winked and wandered off inside. He was always a fun pony to be around. There was nothing he liked more than having a laugh with a friend—I was his friend through all my time in the Crystal Empire. He cared about me. I know he did. Even if-- No, what he did was right—and it’s out of order anyway. I have to keep to the order it happened. I have to get rid of Sombra.
Anyway—moving on—it didn’t take long to unpack all of our stuff. I can’t give much detail on this. Nothing really happened except for unpacking—and that was just about as memorable as our packing before was. I don’t really remember any of it. Mother was still acting strange—I know that much—but at the time I was so focused on the Empire and our new home that I didn’t even think about it. It seemed strange to think that once upon a time Mother had actually left the Crystal Empire to marry Father. I didn’t know why anypony would ever want to leave a place as beautiful place like this—unless that reason was my Dad. My Dad was worth leaving anywhere. I missed him. I still miss him to this day. It’s hard to forget somepony as great as my Dad.
I wish Mother could’ve forgot him—even if I knew she never could. The memory of him pretty much ruined every happy thing that happened after his death. It tore her apart slowly. If anypony needed help it was my mother, but she never got it. Instead it was given to me. Why do I deserve more help than she got? I’m only as good as she was. And she was good, even if she didn’t always act like it. I forgave everything she did wrong back then and I still do now. She was good—As good as I am. I’m good, right?
Sombra... good? Is Sombra good?
Good Sombra? Sombra deserve crystals? Sombra take crystals? Crystals now? No crystals.
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