To my mother, Twilight Sparkle

by BlindBlossom


Honesty

Twilight Sparkle gazed out of her window, she saw the young fillies playing around, the adult ponies were following what there cutie marks told them and the oldest of ponies would sit and observe needless to say that Twilight was proud of Ponyville and it's inhabitants.

It always seemed so peaceful and calm, not like the old days where you couldn't have a months peace and yet... she missed that adventure, working together to solve the problem however if there was one thing no, one assistant she missed it was Spike ever since he had grown into an adult dragon he had to leave even though many ponies tried to build him a cave it just wasnt big enough.

She could picture the moment when he and her had to part ways... a knock on the door quickly woke Twilight from her daydream and wearily she shook her head and began to walk towards the front door when she opened the door a mail pony gave her a parcel, she closed the door not noticing that the mail pony wanted a approval signature.

"A parcel? I hardly recieve much these days except paperwork from Celestia" Twilight sighed.

As much as she loved helping Celestia she much preferred a challenge, of course though at first this was hard to wrap her head around but now... not so much.

Twilight then unrapped the parcel and it didn't look like the usual parcel that'd arrive it was purple with a green bow.

"A gift from my subjects?" Twilight wondered.

Twilight now more intrigued opened the parcel whilst preserving the ribbon, it was well made and rather cute after all.

"A book?" Twilight looked at the cover, it was purple but it'd seem that light had made the once strong purple turn into a violet, the corners of the book were torn clearly it was a well read book for some reason it seemed familiar Twilight smiled and opened the book to see there was no content page making her frown, "What kind of book doesn't have a content page?"

She turned the page and gasped "It's a diary"

"Should I read this?" Twilight wondered she bit her lip and turned the page her curiosity stronger than her will.

Dear Diary,
Twilight gave me this blank book, I thought I should write how i'm feeling?
Well I should start with my earliest memories...
I remember Twilight taking me to her house and being very protective. But that could have been because I was a test from Celestia to see if she had compassion and an ability to care for others or just her motherly instincts, mind you she was still young herself so this would have been a challenge for her. There were days when she would leave me at home, whilst she went to the special school but that wasn't too often as Celestia might have noticed that she was tired from looking after me so I lived with Celestia whilst Twilight visited me.

I can remember the one time when I snuck into her classroom and wound up causing havoc and even ending up changing a teachers hair into an afro. Of course I wasn't in Twilight's hooves but even so I can't help but thinking back to that day and shamefully laughing. Of course me and Twilight have had many happy days together like picnics and study sessions together but then we have like any mother and child we've had bad days... I don't want to write them down.

An ink splatter indicated that Spike had finished writing that page.
Twilight wiped away a tear missing her beloved assisstant more than ever, she grabbed a box of tissues and turned the page.

Dear Diary,
I guess I should note down what happened today since I found out from Fluttershy that writing down what happens in the day is fun to look back at. Not sure if i'll ever want to look back but hey who knows right?

Anyway, today I spent the day with Rarity.
There really isn't any pony more beautiful or special to me, except Twilight of course but she isn't nearly as special to me at least not in a
sense. I help her out with anything that she needs I felt like I was her special some pony as I always was helping ease her stress and more often then not she would discuss any issues with fabrics or if she needed a certain gem then I would fetch it for her.

I'm a dragon though and I hate that, I claim that i'm a proud dragon but I feel like such an outcast. We have no books on dragons and I count myself lucky that I havent been seriously ill otherwise who knows what would happen...

But I should note that her mane looked as silky smooth as ever, her eyes glowed like a sapphire gem and of course she has this passion of making the latest trends whatever that means but it's that drive and the way she takes care of herself, I think she needs to learn not to get too stressed but hey at least she can show her emotions freely and well thats what I love most about her... she's is perfect in every way. Me and Twilight had a talk about my love for Rarity, sometimes I think that Twilight is right and it wouldn't work out but I want to try. Just once... but if Rarity does turn me down then I hope we can stay friends.

On the other hand would I be an alright dragon for her? I mean even if she did agree to go out with me it'd only last so long since I grow
to the size of a mountain... guess I would make every moment special with her. Oh Rarity, I really love you.

Twilight sniffled, her tears nearly falling onto the pages she noticed that there were spots on the pages where tear stains were already, she was conscious that Spike suffered with his love for Rarity but she never knew that he was in such pain.

"Spike... Why? If you looked towards me as a mother then why?" Twilight wiped away the tears before closing the book, she couldn't continue reading it any further she needed air so she walked to her door and took off into the skies, hoping to find her old friend. Inspiration seemed to have come over her.

"Ah" Twilight grinned, she gracefully managed to land at the entrance to Sweet apple acres she then upon arriving paid her respects and bowed to the grave towards the back of the house.

"What is y'all doing here?" Applejack said as though she had only seen her friend yesterday.

Twilight turned and hugged her friend, she could feel every wrinkle and creak that her body had.

Applejack however was always amazed that her friend looked exactly the same as to how she used to look with only minor changes such as a few wrinkles under eyes which was likely from exhaustion and her horn had grown much like what the Princesses did, not to mention her wings.

"Come on inside, Sugarcube will grab y'all some apple juice"

As they entered the house, it was clear to Twilight just how time really went by now that she was an alicorn and had been for over forty
years it'd seem that she just hadn't noticed how much things have changed.

Applejack groaned her back was clicking as she sat in what used to be Grannysmiths favorite chair.

Twilight sat next to her friend and was about to ask something but couldn't as Applejack yelled "Sugarcube! come here will ya?"

An adult mare popped her head around a door "Yes mama?"

This mare had a coat that Twilight would associate with the apple family as it was an shade of orange that was very similar to her mothers her eyes were an emerald green and her mane was also just like her mothers, or at least what it used to look like but a darker shade.

"Would ya'll get me n Twilight here a cup of applejuice and none of that market stuff! Fresh apples is what I need" Applejack said loudly, making Twilight jump.

The mare nodded her head and went back into the kitchen rustling could be heard.

Twilight fiddled with her hooves before looking towards her friend.

"So Applejack I need to ask you something" Twilight said.

Applejack turned her head "Yes?"

"Well I recieved a diary from Spike and um..." Twilight thoughts trailed off before the thud from the kitchen snapped her out from her
daydream "Remember when Spike had a crush on Rarity? well-"

"One sec honey, let me check on ol' sugarcube" Applejack began to sit up but Twilight heard her grunt and her bones almost creaked.

"I'll go check on her if you want?" Twilight offered, Applejack sat back into her chair and smiled.

"If you'd please" Applejack quickly fell back onto the chair and relaxed "You know i'd go but mah legs ain't as good as they used to be"

Twilight stood up and went into the kitchen, she didn't see no pony until she heard ouch

"Are you alright?" Twilight asked, when she got to see the mare it became clear that she'd dropped a cup onto the floor.

"I'll be alright" Sugarcube said "After all i've had worse injuries from working on the farm" she chuckled.

Twilight smiled and used her magic to put the glass into the sink, whilst Sugarcube had put a bandage on her hand.

"Is everything okay in there?" Applejack yelled.

"Yes mama!" Sugarcube yelled back.

Sugarcube looked at Twilight and blushed a little, "Sorry I don't like yelling in front of people..."

"It's fine honestly, anyway lets get the apple juice cleaned up"

They both cleaned up the mess and made fresh cups of apple juice.

Twilight put the cups on a table that was next to the chairs that they were both sat on it creaked a little from age, it made Applejack chuckle.

"Haha, sounds like me does that ol' table" Applejack looked at Twilight "Oh honey, it's been so long, where have you been?"

Twilight took a sip from her drink and placed it down "To be honest Applejack, i've been lost in my books and with Spike having to leave so suddenly..." Twilight sighed, "I'm sorry Applejack, i've missed out on so much and..." Twilight began to sob "now your old... and, and-" Twilight began to cry.

Applejack put her hoof onto Twilight leg, "Don't cry sweetie, your here now" Applejack smiled "Make the most of your time with us now"

Sugarcube gave Twilight a handkerchief.

"Thank you" Twilight said wearily, she blowed her nose.

After some time they both talked about what had happened and they shared experiences Twilight noted vaulable pointers down for future books.

"Haha! so hun I recall you asking about Spike" Applejack laughed.

"Ah yes... well your a mother and apparently Spike looked towards me as his mother, I assumed Spike saw Celestia as his mother but
no anyway... did your daughters ever confront you about problems with there crushes?"

Applejack had a serious look on her face, which gave Twilight shivers.

"My daughters?" Applejack looked towards Sugarcube, whom in turn looked rather shameful.

"My daughters thought to deal with these problems alone for some reason, thought they would be okay without my help" Applejack looked at Twilight and saw that she looked uncomfortable.

Applejack sighed "For the longest, they preferred to solve the problem themselves, we've had issues with this but in the end...
i'm a little proud of my Sugarcube, at least she... she had the courage to get help from me" Applejack smiled "So uh... why do you ask this?" Applejack asked.

Twilight drank the last of her juice and said "It was Spike, apprantly he suffered far worse with his love for Rarity"

"Sweetie..." Applejack started "That was a long time ago things have changed, don't beat yourself up on past feelings"

Applejack slowly got out of her chair and stretched "Twilight i'm sorry hun but i'm very tired" Applejack yawned.

Twilight stood up and stretched her legs too "I'll head home then" Twilight smiled.

Applejack smiled back and gave her a hug.

After that Applejack went upstairs and into her room, whilst Sugarcube took Twilight to the door.

"I hope to see you more often, Princess Twilight" Sugarcube smiled.

"Oh, please refer to me as Twilight" Twilight chuckled.

As Sugarcube opened the door, Applebloom was seen talking to Big Macintosh.

"Goodbye" Twilight took of into the sky, whilst waving to the ponies below.

Twilight ride home was a short one and whilst tears were shed, she got home safely.

As she landed at the entrance of her castle, she heard mother ponies yelling for there young ones to come home, Twilight couldn't help but smile and so she shut the door and tidied up the mess she had previously left behind and after a long evening of relaxing she tucked herself away into her bed, she left the diary on the desk in the library, convincing herself that she would read it all as no book shall be left unread whilst Twilight Sparkle was breathing.

Though she couldn't help but wonder what tomorrow would bring.