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// My words  
// Story: Am I just an outsider 
// by fluttercord4ever 
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These are my words as fluttercord4ever not Sweetheart, not a made up story but my own words. 


When I was being bulled I felt so lost.My bullies made fun of my voice and that I wear hearing aids. Yes I wear hearing aids which is why I am troubles spelling and reading. On took of that I was bullying myself. Saying mad things to me.It was so bad I wanted to cut myself or even commit suicide. 

Most of it was because I depress because I am a twin less twin.
My Twin died 10 days after we were born.So I never got to meet her.
Her name was Sadie.
How she died was that she got very sick and she died.I almost died the day after she died, but here I am talking to you.

I am not going to say what I said to myself. It's too much for me to handle saying in words.The bullying lasted 2 years in middle school, but I was bullied in grade school too.Well it wasn't really bullying it just the kids didn't understand that i wear hearing aids.They thought that I heard them but I really didn't.I was sent to the office a lot because I couldn't control my angry. But how could I, it just went on and on. I didn't know what to do. I didn't understand anything. I got my hearing aids when I was 5. So that's 5 years without hearing anything.
I was the only kid in the school from grade school-middle school. It wasn't until high school when there are kids that where hearing aids.
For all my live I felt like I was nothing
an outsider
an outcast
but now I felt free. No more running away from things, No more hiding.

I am going to help Ponies/People with their problems.
If it wasn't for what I went though that I found out who I am and want to do in life.
God had a preface in my life and he does for you too.
I don't care if you believe in God or not, just listen to me
Let my words be the light at the end of your tunnel
Let my words be the spark of your world
Let my words heal your cuts and scars.
Let my words help you find her any though your darkness hour. 

Now i am going to said something to you.
What are you going to do?
What is your preface in life?
What are you doing to do to change the world?
I am not saying to clean up the world or help the poor. 
Even though they are good things to do.
But
What are you going to do that will make people see what you see. 
Like what i am doing now.
That feeling in your heart that makes you make to do something more in your life.
That feeling in your soul crying out to you to make a difference in the world.
What are you going to say?
What are your words?  

I am fluttercord4ever and I am a victim of bullying 
I have a preface in my life and that is to help people find their light from their tunnel and to have them see a new world.
I want them to make a difference in the world, just like what I am going with my words. 

Thank you for listening/reading.