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// My past 
// Story: Defying Fate 
// by SweetSpark 
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Defying Fate
The crazy pink party pony waved goodbye to Pumpkin Cake as the mare left with her husband Cream Puff in their wagon to deliver a cake order. “Granny” Pinkie Pie was responsible for their Pegasus daughter Cinnamon Swirl. Pinkie was briefly reminded of the times she had to babysit Pumpkin instead. So much had passed since then; Pumpkin became a cutie mark crusader and with the help of Applebloom who ran it every night back then, she got her cutie mark in a snap. More images of Pumpkin and Pound Cake ran through her mind, them being potty trained, finishing school, getting married and the very tragic one of their dearest mother passing away. A tear stained Pinkies coat, followed by many more. Mrs Cake was a second mother to her, she had helped her so much, given her a home, a job and a family. Mr Cake soon followed. Pinkie was heartbroken by then as were the twins. Pinkie recalled the state of depression she fell into, she didn’t even attend his funeral.

Pinkie’s mind then shifted to her best friends. Fluttershy, Applejack and herself were the only ponies in the group to remain in Ponyville. Twilight became a teacher at Princess Celestia’s School for Gifted Unicorns as well as the princess of magic and friendship, Pinkie saw her occasionally but it wasn’t the same. Pinkie no longer bounced or used trampolines or flew in her now broken helicopter. Her bones were so stiff and she was so tired. Pinkie hadn’t made many ponies laugh lately. Rainbow Dash was suffering the same problem, only with her flying. Rainbow Dash was now the Wonderbolt’s trainer, watching determined flyers with youth plastered on their faces in looks of joy, competitiveness and passion. Like how she used to be…

Last time Pinkie had seen Dashie was a year ago. Her formally bright, colourful mane was dulled and her wings were in bandages. Her doctor had told her not to push herself as hard as she was. She was old and slowing down, just like Pinkie. They sat together and talked in the exact spot where the entire group used to have picnics together.  It was there Twilight had gone crazy over a simple friendship report and they were invited to the royal wedding.
Rainbow was nice enough to Pinkie but it was just small talk. Nopony smiled beyond politeness and a laugh was an alien concept. So much had changed, including Rainbow. Pinkie missed the days when Rainbow’s eyes would light up at the mere mention of flight. That day she just bit her lip and turned away, something broken inside. Rainbow Dash had dedicated her whole life to flight, she had no family now. She had achieved her dream yet missed the blissful reality she had left behind, one that was gone forever.

Fluttershy, after her friends had split apart had slowly become more introverted. She once again spent all her time in her cottage with her animal friends, only leaving on urgent matters. Discord has left her, his chaotic being not permanently tamed by her kindness. They had one child together but Discord took Screwball to teach her draqonneqqus magic. Fluttershy hadn’t seen them in years. It was clear she missed them both terribly.
Pinkie saw her once a week. This time had started to be spent silently, each having nothing to say. Fluttershy’s age was catching up to her more rapidly than anyone else could imagine. Pegasi had the shortest life span out of all the pony types but Fluttershy was just so fragile.  Pinkie noticed how frail she looked last visit. She found it hard to understand why this had to happen, why death exists. It wasn’t fair.

Rarity had passed away 2 years ago. She had cancer in her lungs; the battle she had was long and hard but eventually it was time, time to give up. She stopped taking her medicine and on her last night the entire group visited her. It was the last time they were all together, laughing and making jokes like they used to. Rarity had lived a fulfilled life. She had eventually moved to Canterlot and set up a new boutique that turned her into a famous fashion designer. She always designed free costumes for her sister as she toured Equestria as a pop star. Her husband and child miss her dearly.

Pinkie, when she attended the funeral, sat apart from Twilight and Applejack. They were the only three of the group to attend. Princess Twilight Sparkle's eyes were wet but she held her head up, too high actually. She had told Pinkie that it was good Rarity died, to end her suffering. Pinkie never forgave her. Applejack basically said the same thing but in a country colloquial term that only an apple would understand. 

So when she stood up to say her part she spoke of how precious life was and often only a child could understand that or someone who knew how great friends and laughter is. She glared straight at her former friends during the whole time with eyes wet with the kind of tears that could stain a soul like ink stains one of her deceased friend's dresses. She spoke of when she and Rarity showed Fluttershy how to haggle, using the elements, her obsessions with the spa and her fainting couch. Then she sat down in the middle of the room crying and rocking like a child in front of everyone. Twilight and Applejack tried to comfort her.

Twilight with her unaged face, and Applejack with folding bags above her eyes. Pinkie didn't know which was worse. It only made her sob more. Everything was falling apart. 
"Pinkie, it's okay" Twilight soothed
It wasn't okay, Pinkie knew it would never be okay.

Back in the present, Pinkie Pie sat with Cinnamon letting the infant’s youth drag her into her own despair. Pinkie had realised she was afraid of death. She wanted everything to be back the way it was… and she knew how. Actually, she didn't know exactly but she was determined to. She just wanted the wonderful dream of youth and friendship back. She bit at an apple as a rash and rather crazy plan formulated in her mind.