I woke up, finding myself laying on the cold hard ground, in the darkened forest, completely naked and trembling in fear. The silence was almost macabre, like someone was watching me from the shadows, waiting for the opportunity to take me down. This is how I felt because of it...because of the deadly silence.
I didn't know why this killing sensation as I remembered nothing from my past. It was completely blank as the unwritten white pages. Those flashbacks I kept having as soon as I awoke, making my head almost explode from pain, were just like little pieces from different movies to me and they weren't too much of a help either.
I couldn't understand why, nor how did I get there, absolutely alone, with nopony around, no one to give me the answers I was looking for.
I started soon to look around me, wandering through the woods to find some help from somewhere, but all I could see were trees, too many of them. The weak light of the moon wasn't too much of a help with all that darkness. I barely could see anything and my body was totally frozen, due to all that night cold weather.
I looked everywhere for a path that could get me out of that silent forest, but it was all in vain. I felt hopeless as I thought nopony was ever going to find me there and help me.
As I was freaking out at the thought that I was going to die there alone, suddenly, a strong light that almost made my eyes water, appeared out of nowhere. I tried to follow that light, to see where it was coming from, but it kept distancing with every step I took forward, like it was trying to avoid me. I was so bothered by the fact that I finally found a source of light in all that darkness and that too was ''running away'' from me.
As I kept running towards that powerful light, my body got tired and I was feeling exhausted. Just about when I was ready to give up, a voice that sounded like a whisper at first, then like a very angelic melody, started to talk to me. At first, I couldn't understand what it was telling and as if it could read my mind, it spoke louder, almost making me scream in pain because my ears weren't able to take all those powerful sounds the voice was making.
The voice was humming a beautiful song, then the song slowly saddened and it became like a death anthem. I suddenly started to decipher the sounds and they finally reached out to me through this message, that made me realize what my fate was and soon I started to remember everything.
''You are doomed to live all of your time as a pony, here, in this cold place, with nothing to wear and no one to rely on, for all of your sins must be payed! Not a pony, not even the saints from Heaven or the guardian angels, know Him as you do and even so, you chose to betray Him. You have chained all the good things in you by refusing completely to accept what you are and to whom you belong! Now you must pay for your debts and then go to where you belong now! Soon you will be with the others! ''
When the voice ended with those harsh words, I was already screaming out of terror. I knew what was expecting me after my time in pony form will come to an end, even if it was for about two terrestrial centuries and the pain at that thought, grew bigger in me.
I remembered clearly what I was and what I had become, just like the others, the ones who told me to join the Legion. I remembered then, the arguement between my brothers, the hatred and the war that started afterwards. The Heaven was crying with blood, screaming in agony for all the lost souls that will come in the future. I still recall all of that as if it happened a few hours ago.
The image of me, being like them, the ones who made the Heaven tremble for all the souls that will be lost because of the hatred, was killing my inner side. But I chose this; I chose to be among the lost ones, a forgotten angel without wings. Soon I began to realize that I will never be able to step into the light again and now I was only suffering for each soul that will be lost because of me, because of my actions, then I thought I will be joining them soon, in that dark and sorrowful place. The gates of the abyss will soon open for me, waiting for me to step in.
I never lost that thought, not even for one second, because I could hear the roars, the curses and the terrible screams and I could feel the anger and the madness that was coming from those living in the depths.
That was when I completely understood that I was, am and will always be one of the fallen...