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// Chapter 5 - Nagging At The Back of A Mind 
// Story: My Life, Recreated 
// by Ephraim Blue 
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Chapter 5 - Nagging At The Back of A Mind


When something is bothering you and you can't remember what it is, usually it means that you can't remember something that you thought was important. Some people call that the thing that is nagging at their mind.

Normally, that isn't all to bad. There are some things in this world we wish we could forget. But there are things we wish to never forget.

What is something that you've probably forgotten about that you wished to remember forever? That faint memory is nagging at the back of your mind, isn't it? If you still remember it, that's probably good enough.

What about something you wish to never remember? Yeah, those are hard to forget, aren't they? You always end up remembering that horrible memory when you stop thinking about everything else. You wish to forget it, but you always remember it.

That's nagging at the back of your mind too, isn't it?

There are many things I wish I could forget. So much stuff that I should have never experienced, or hated for a long time. So much in my life.

There are a few good memories in there. Not too many, to be honest. But there are still some there. But I've most likely forgotten most of them.

That's probably one of the reasons I became a brony. Not really for the show, or the fandom. (That second one is probably a lie) but for the way that this had made me feel.

See, I always hated my life. So much pain from my family, and from school. My Little Pony has taken all those pains for me and filled me with such happiness that I believe I could never forget. It helps me feel better, all the music I listen too, the animations that make me laugh and smile, and the fan fictions like the one your reading at this very moment.

All of those have helped me feel happier when I couldn't remember the memories that originally kept me happy. That's why I'm a brony.

Why are you a brony/pegasister? What memories have kept you happy? Can you still remember them...

...or are they nagging at the back of your head, nearly forgotten?

Canterlot Castle's Halls Unknown Date

"'Blue' huh? That's an unusual name for a pony," she said.

"Yeah, I guess it is," I replied. It was a strange name for a pony to have. Even I didn't know anypony with just a color for a name.

But it was the only thing I had, even thought it was only half of it. I would have told her my name was 'Ephraim Blue', but 'Ephraim' was an actual human name, and I didn't want to have her know I was a human.

Besides, who comes up with a name like that for a child? That even seems stupid to me. I probably would have gone with a name such as 'Pitch Black', or something.

...

If anyone gets that reference of mine, say so in the comments below. That's pretty funny, if you get that reference.

But no, Blue was what I said to her my name was, and that was a truth, in a way. It was a name I came up with when coming up for a username for an online website called Gaia Online. My older brother and sister were on the site, and you would probably want on it too if you saw all the fun stuff it had to offer.

Anyway, I had come up with the name based off a character from a GameBoy Advance game called Fire Emblem - The Sacred Stones. One of the main characters was called Ephraim. I came to like that name, and wanted to us it as my username for the website. Unfortunately, that was already being used. So I decided to add my favorite color, at the time, to the name: Blue.

And that's when I had come up with the name. I've kept it with me ever since that day; since I was eight. I used it for just about everything I wanted to have a username for. I didn't really care if people recognized me from the many sites I joined under that name, for I was the same person for every single one of them.

"Did your parents come up with it for you?" she asked.

"Nah," I replied. "They didn't come up with it. I did."

"Well, what's your real name then?"

I tilted my head to the ground. "I'd rather not tell you. At least... not yet."

"Oh, okay."

"What about you," I began. "How'd you get your cutie mark?"

"This thing?" she asked, looking at the red/yellow sun on her flank. "Don't know," she said. "I don't remember when it appeared, so I can't really say that I know when or how I got it."

"Oh. Well, what about your old house? Surely you lived somewhere before becoming Celestia's personal student."

She smiled. "Yeah, I did. I used to live in Manehattan before getting accepted as the princess's personal protege. It was the year the Summer Sun Celebration was held in Manehattan that I was inspired to come for the school of Gifted and Talented Unicorns. You already know the rest of the story of what happened there."

"I guess I do."

We took a turn down the right side of the hallway. To be honest, I had no clue where I was going. "Where did you live?" she asked.

"Me?" I asked, turning my head to her. I turned it back and continued. "Well, I kinda lived in the country, without all the loud noises you would normally hear in the city."

"Really?" I nodded. "Wow. I always wondered what it was like, living in the country."

"Meh. It's not to different from normal life. It's just quieter and has more room to run freely."

"Meh?"

"Huh? Oh, that. Heh. It's just something I like to say occasionally. Pay it no mind."

"Um, okay..."

We took several more turns down the long hallway. "Where are we going?" I finally asked.

"Hmm? Oh, I have no idea," she replied.

There was a silence. That's all that needs saying. "...You don't know? You were the one who wanted to come inside here, and you don't know where we're going?"

"Nope!" she replied with a happy tone. "I just didn't want to stay outside with that creepy statue anymore!"

I stared at her as we continued walking the hallways. I couldn't help but chuckle slightly.

The halls remained silent for us. I eventually noticed another break in the hallway. I looked through...

And saw the biggest library you could ever believe.

I stopped walking as soon as my eyes laid sight upon it. I liked to read, which is one reason I had joined FimFiction, but only certain stories that had some adventure and/or interesting story-line.

Sunset Shimmer noticed that I was no longer following her and came back to see what I was looking at. She smiled at me and said: "Like it?"

I turned back to her. "I- I guess," I said. I had been in plenty of libraries, but this one was by far the biggest. But I probably should have expected that. this was Canterlot after all.

"Come on!" she said, walking into the library. "Lets go in!"

"Are you sure we're allowed? It doesn't look like any librarians are here."

"Oh, don't be such a worry-wart Blue! We're always allowed inside the library at any time! We just cant take out any books without permission."

I cautiously followed behind her. Worry-wart? I thought. Don't think I've been called that recently.

Taking a walk inside the library just showed how much bigger than other libraries it really was. Books lines every shelf from left to right.

How many shelves there were... NOBODY KNEW!

497

ANYWAY!

I turned my head down one of the seemingly endless bookshelves. Have you ever noticed how that when you look at an object from it's side, it looks longer, or taller than they really were? Now do that with something really long or tall.

Having fun yet?

As I could see, (not you) the bookshelf seemed even longer than it really was. I knew that, so I decided to move away from it and actually walk down the corridor between the two bookshelves.

It was still pretty long, compared to the other libraries I'd been in. All the books were ordered by Author's last name, just like back home. I reached a hoof and placed it on the top of one of the books close to my height. I got a small grip, having my hoof in the spine of the book like that. I pulled my hoof back, making the book fall to the ground.

Success! The book was still closed, but now that it wasn't blocked by other books to it's side, I could open it. The spine of the book had some words on it, lined in silver, but I didn't pay much attention to them. The front cover of the book was a plain green cover. I used my right hoof and brought up the cover of the book.

Only to be even more disappointed than before.

The entire book was in Equestrian, much like the scroll from the other day. Every single word was unreadable to me.

"Now I've never wished for a better time that I could read," I mumbled to myself. Reading was one of the things that I did occasionally to pass the time when I was bored. If everything was unreadable, it is just something worse for me.

Sunset Shimmer found me in the small bookshelf-made hallway, staring down at the book. She came up to my side. "Find something you like?" she asked.

"No," I replied flatly. "I can't read a single word on the page."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean: I can't read Equestrian. All of it is unreadable to me. That translation spell from yesterday didn't allow me to read Equestrian."

"Oh. Well... I'm sorry to hear that."

"It's okay," I replied, to spare her feelings. She was the one to cast the spell, so she might have taken the blame for it all. "It's not your fault that spell didn't do anything. I'll just go without reading for a while."

She smiled back at me. "Alright." I got up and walked away from the spot I was sitting. "Wait," she called. I turned back to her. "Aren't you going to put the book back?"

I took a glance back at the book, the back to her. "I don't have any way of putting it back," I replied with a slightly obvious tone. "I don't know how to hold stuff with these hooves, and I don't know how to use magic."

"That's got to be annoying," she commented. It is, thank you for making my day. "If you want, I could teach you how to use magic."

My ears perked up. "Really?" Could I really learn to use magic?

"Really," she answered. She picked up the book in her magic and placed it back on the shelf. "But not here, okay? This is a library."

"Heh, yeah... I understand why."

We proceeded to walk outside the library, but not before my something caught my eye. Off to the side of the library walls, there was a small, unmarked door. I found that strange, because all doors had labels on them, telling others that it was either a certain section, or a staff room.

I averted from the path we were taking and went strait to the door. I turned to Sunset Shimmer. "What's back here?" I asked.

She turned to look at me and gave a slightly confused face. "Back where?" she asked back.

"This door," I said, pointing my hoof to it. "There's an unmarked door right there, and I wish to know where it leads."

She walked up behind me and looked to where I was pointing my hoof. "Blue, there's nothing there. It's just a bookshelf."

I turned back to the door and looked at it myself. I still saw the door. "No, there's a door there. I can clearly see it."

"Stop messing around, it's not funny." I looked back at her and saw her look of disappointment.

"But I'm not messing around!"

"I've had enough of this," she said, turning back to the entrance to the library. "You can stay here and imagine doors all you want Blue, but I'm heading back."

I opened my mouth to speak, but opted against it. Fine, I thought to myself. If you don't believe me seeing a door here, then I will explore it myself. I'm fifteen, I don't need your help.

I turned back to the door, that I know is there, and reached my hoof out to it. Without any trouble, I tapped the door twice with my hoof.

*Knock, knock*

I knew that was a door. The sound confirmed it. It also confirmed that there was something on the other side of the door. And I was set on finding out what it was.

The doorknob was luckily within my reach. Going to regret this... Again... I grabbed the doorknob in my mouth, and attempted to turn it. I had more luck with this door than the room I was staying in. I actually got it on my first try!

The door came open without any difficulty. The hinges weren't worn out, and the door looked like it was relatively new.

The inside of the room was void of any source of light, save it be for the light coming from the open archway of the door. I cautiously walked into the pitch black room. Almost immediately, the door slammed shut behind me.

I ran to the space the light had faded. Although, I could not see the space where I thought it faded, so I ran into the wall.

"Ow..." I rubbed my head again. "Okay, I've got to stop doing this." I put my hoof in front of me and felt my way around the wall. But what I found had surprised me.

The door was nowhere to be felt. I made my way around the wall, which I was certain had the door on it somewhere, but felt nothing that gave a clue to where the door was. There were no cracks, or indentations in the wall to indicate where it had been. I had also lost track of the doorknob.

There are many things we believe we are afraid of. Height, darkness, closed spaces, ect. But all those fears are usually something that we just imagine happening. If you are afraid of heights, why? Do you just imagine yourself falling, and that's whet you're afraid of? When you're in the dark, do you imagine stuff appearing out of nowhere and you're afraid of them? In closed spaces, you imagine the walls closing in, and you are afraid because of that.

So the real thing you're afraid of is your own imagination.

I looked at the darkness around me. It wasn't hard, considering it was the only thing there. My thoughts turned to all those times I made my way to my bed in the dark. I had always imagined some giant spider coming out of nowhere and getting to me. And to tell the truth, I was slightly afraid of that.

I curled down to the ground and feared for what would never come. I then remembered that in recent years, I had realized that it was only my imagination that I was afraid of. "I am not afraid..." I whispered. "I am not afraid!" I shouted into the darkness.

In an instant, I felt more confident for what I believed. I believed that my fears were only my imagination, and the room seemed to brighten from around me. I could see into the darkness that was no longer there.

"What is this?" I asked myself. "Where'd this light come from?" I looked all around, but found no place where the light seemed to come from. No spotlight, so light bulb, no nothing.

I was still up against the wall, which I could see because the light that seemed to come from me, illuminated it as well. I stepped away from it, and the light followed me as well. I moved suddenly to the side, and the light followed me with no delay.

"Is this light... coming from me?" I looked at myself, but saw no way that the light could be coming from anywhere. It just followed me no where I went.

I walked a bit further and cast my sights to the edge of the light. I made sure that no matter where I was going, I could see it.

I don't know for how long I walked, but I found a small pedestal about my height with a single book placed upon it. This book was strange, to say in the least. It was black and small, had nearly no spine whatsoever, and just had pictures of several stars on it's front.

"What's this book?" I wondered out-loud. Out of curiosity, I carefully flipped the cover to the first page.

And I could read every word there.

All the words were in plain English. Every. Single. Word. Not in that scribble-scratch Equestrian I was looking at earlier.

I stepped back a bit. "W- What's going on here?" I wondered. "First, I see a door that apparently, only I can see. Then, I go into the door and into a pitch black room. Then, I find a light that comes from who knows where! Then there's a single pedestal with an unmarked book on it, and I can read it! What is going on here?!"

I usually talked to myself to calm down from loads of stress that I was going through. Whether it was because of my parents, or my family, I did it to help calm myself down. Now that I got all that out of my head, I walked back up to the book and began to read out loud.

"I still remember the days that we struggled to survive," I read. "The days that times were tough and food was scarce. The days that were foretold to us so long ago. We never listened to the prophecy that foretold that these days would come."

"Interesting..." I commented. "Beginning by telling us of a wrong you did."

"We were told that the days would become colder and colder. That we would be forced to find a new land to live unless we found peace and harmony between the three tribes."

"Three tribes?" I wondered.

"We never listened. We should have, for those days did come. The days that became colder. If we had listened and found peace between the tribes, this would have never happened. My tribe was forced to find a new land, and so Princess Platinum and I went out to find a new land for our tribe."

"Princess Platinum? That was the name of the Princess of the Unicorns in that Hearth's Warming Eve episode. So then..." I put my hoof on my chin. "Does that mean that this is Clover the Clever talking?"

"We eventually came across the land that we would call out home. But what the princess and I didn't know at the time, wsa that the two other tribes had the exact same idea we did. The leader of the earth ponies, Chancellor Puddinghead, and the leader of the pegasai, Commander Hurricane, had also decided to find a new land away from the snow."

"So... this is Clover the Clever's view of how Equestria was founded, so far."

"We began arguing like we always did back in our original home. But, unexpectedly to us at the time, the snow had followed us, and we were forced to share a shelter in the only cave for miles. But the arguing didn't stop, and the entrance to the cave became covered in ice within minutes of us entering the cave."

"And the arguing still continued. Within time, the hearts of our leaders were so corrupted with hate and anger, the ice in their hearts had frozen them solid. The three of us that were left soon found out the cause of the snow. Us. We were the cause. The Windigos were the ones that caused the snow to fall, and it to become colder, but they fed off hatred, and we were the real cause of it all."

"We huddled together in the center of the cave as best as we could. Where the cold would take the longest to reach. We all conversed for about a minute as the ice began to freeze us just like our leaders had. We talked about what we really were like and how we truly didn't hate each other."

"And in the end, that is what saved us."

"Right before we were completely covered in ice, my horn glowed with the power of friendship that was formed at that time. It glowed brighter and hotter as the Windigos tried to finish us off. And then, as if they were never there, they had vanished from this world."

"The three of us, one pegasus, one unicorn, and one earth pony had ended the endless winter. The cave was still closed for some time, as well as our leaders frozen, but we had managed. And in time, the fire of friendship had reached our leaders, as well as the entrance to the cave."

"We all were glad to be out of misery. The leaders talked between themselves, and they all agreed upon sharing so that we never faced that problem that we just faced ever again. And that is how our wonderful land of Equestria was founded."

I chuckled. "Almost just like the episode."

"But our struggles were not over."

"Oh! What happened next!"

"Princess Platinum was severely sick when she thawed from the ice. She was to weak to travel back to our original home to inform our tribe of what had been decided, so she asked me to go in her place. I obeyed and found the castle that held all our tribe within. I told them about what we had decided and asked for them to follow me back to our new homeland."

"Well, I can say that I never expected this..."

"But when I returned to Equestria, Princess Platinum had perished from ill treatment, and the cold that lingered inside her. We were left leaderless, for she had been the one chosen to lead all of Equestria beside Commander Hurricane and Chancellor Puddinghead."

"The rule of Equestria was to great for just two to handle, so in time, they perished without choosing successors. Without anyone to lead us, all of Equestria fell into Chaos, and ruin. The Sun Council had lost many of it's members, and they were beginning to fall. If they did, we would be forced to live without a sun, and without that, the world as we knew it could have frozen."

"Let it gooooo...." I sung. "Let it gooooooo! Can't hold it back anymore!"

"But our times were saved by three newcomers that traveled the land. There were two fillies and a unicorn that traveled. The unicorn came up to me specifically and told me of the problem he had. He told me that the two fillies parents had been lost and he was taking care of them, traveling around to get them away from the dangers that the fillies were in."

"Out of the kindness in my heart, I helped them. I took them in and gave them a place to stay. What I found strange with the fillies, was that the both had a horn and wings on their back. One was as black as the night, while the other was as white as the clouds in the sky."

"That's Princess Celestia and Luna," I said. "They're the only alicorns I know, besides Cadence and Twilight."

"I went to the unicorn. I asked him about the two fillies, and he told me a shocking truth. He said that those two fillies were destined to rule Equestria one day. I asked him how he knew that, but he never gave a clear answer. He just said that he knew, and that I should trust him."

"I asked him why they were destined to rule Equestria, but he never told me that either. I then decided to get a little more out of him by introducing myself. But before I had a chance to properly introduce myself, he said my name."

"Kinda like what I did with Celestia."

"It wasn't a guess. He perfectly said my name like he knew who I was before I even met him. I was too shocked to say anything else. I also never got the chance. A member of The Sun Council came in and collapsed on the floor. We both ran over to the stallion that fell onto the floor."

"He told us that The Sun Council was failing to raise the sun. I panicked, but the newcomer just smiled. He suggested a new method to raise the sun. He pointed to the white filly playing with her sister on the floor. The councilman objected, but he told him to give her a chance. Seeing no other option, he eventually agreed."

"He brought the filly to the spot where the council usually rose the sun. He leaned down to her ear and whispered something too quiet to hear. One he raised his head, the filly took several steps back. He then spoke these very words aloud:"

"'Do not be afraid, Celestia. You can do it if you believe you can.'"

"Huh. Those sound like the words that Celestia told Sunset Shimmer."

"After saying that, the filly, Celestia, gave a confident smile and ran in front of the council. Her horn glowed with a brilliant golden light. In nearly an instant, the sun flew strait into the sky. I was amazed by the power that this filly had. Once the sun was in the air, she ran back to the stallion that brought her here."

"'Did you see what I did, Uncle?' she called as she ran back to him. The stallion smiled and picked her up in his magic. 'Yes, you did wonderful Celestia! Now go and play with your sister again,' he said. I turned to him and asked him how he knew she could do that. He only replied by saying:"

"'It's her destiny.' That was it. Nothing else. 'I'm afraid i cannot take care of them much longer,' he told me. 'Can I trust them in your care?'"

"I was shocked, to say the least. How could this stallion just leave them in the care of another? I refused, for I believed that he was just finding a way to get them off his shoulders. He sighed and replied: 'That's fine. I'll have to find some way to take care of them now.'"

"I felt slightly bad for what I had just forced on him. 'Wait," I had called to him. I then said that I could take care of them. He smiled and thanked me for what he had done. He also said: 'You're welcome.' I was about to ask him what he meant by that, but he had quickly left the room. I followed him, but he had suddenly vanished from the halls. I searched for him, but found no trace."

"The only thing he left were the two fillies. The two fillies, one with enough power to raise the sun. I never noticed until now, but the white one had gotten her cutie mark. I was certain that it wasn't there before she rose the sun earlier."

"Cutie marks can be like that..."

"I talked to the fillies about their 'Uncle', but they didn't know too much about him. He just took them in when they were being chased down. They started calling him 'Uncle' when he didn't tell them his name. When I told them that I was going to be taking care of them in his place, they were slightly sad. I cheered them up in time, but I could tell they were still sad for the loss of somepony that took care of them."

"I'd feel sad if that happened too."

"I later learned why that stallion said 'You're welcome' to me. The young fillies were taught how to control their magic, and the younger one turned out to be able to raise the moon just as her sister was able to raise the sun. The younger one's name was 'Luna', sounding like 'Lunar' meaning 'Moon'. I had also noticed that 'Celestia', sounding like 'Celestial', meant 'Sun'."

"Strange coincidence, if any."

"The two fillies eventually did become rulers of Equestria, like the stallion had said. They had made life for everypony everywhere easier. That's why he had said 'You're welcome'."

"I write this in the ending days of my life. I still remember the days we struggled. The days that the stallion came to help us all. And it is all thanks to that stallion who saved us in the days we struggled. I wish to thank him."

"Aww, that's sweet!"

"I've had many adventures to many different places, thanks to him. I had learned the identity of our savior one day, but I leave that a secret that he wished kept. To him, I give a final prophecy. I care not if he gets it before I die, but he will get it in time. I have foreseen that."

"Ooh, mystic future insight!"

"I say unto him, that there will be ten days of change. Ten days that he will experience in which lives have changed. This is not the prophecy I wish to give, but I will give him that in time."

I flipped the page, only to find the next side completely blank. "Hey, what gives?" It was the final page, no mistake. But it had no writing. "Now I'm going to be anxious about what she was talking about."

I closed the book and began to walk in a specific direction. No clue where I was going, but I had to find some way out.

But something stopped me. I don't know what, but something told me to turn back around. I did just that and found the book open to that final page.

Who turned it to that? I walked up to it and began to read the last page.

"The ten days will reveal secrets throughout Equestria. Secrets that I have hidden for him. I shall write down the first day that will happen, in case this book ever falls into his possession. The rest, along with pieces of the prophecy I wish to give him, will be hidden in the secret locations. Only he will be able to find them, for only he is unlike the rest around him."

"This definitely wasn't here earlier..."


"Day 1 ~ The Day of 6 Destinies"


"I do not know what the days mean, but I hope that he will find out for me. This is my final wish to that stallion..."

"Good luck, thank you, and goodbye."

I closed the book once again. "Seems like a sad ending... What does it mean, 'Day of 6 Destinies'? Meh. Either I'll find out, or the stallion in the story will."

Another thought had entered my head. How was Clover the Clever able to write in English? That language is written by humans, not ponies. The book and scroll I looked at proved it.

I pushed my thoughts from my head and walked in the direction I believed I had walked to get to the pedestal. I had to get out. After a bit of walking, I had found the wall that I had come in... I think...

Was this the correct wall? I felt along the wall, but still found no crack or cranny of where the door was. I remembered how I opened the door earlier. It opened outward, so I would have had to push it from me to open it from in here.

I started to push against the wall in various places. "Come on... Open!" Without warning, the wall came open, and I fell back into the Canterlot Castle's Library. I looked behind me at the door, and saw it slam behind me, as if were never opened in the first place.

I turned forward and saw Princess Celestia, along with Sunset Shimmer and the guard from earlier staring at me.

"Is something wrong?" I asked.