Chaos and Order

by Damien Helvian


The First Goodbye, and The Final Farewell

It was a time, Celestia and I would never forget. But, that is not a good thing. Quite the opposite in fact...it was the beginning of the end of both of us, in a sense.

It started with a day, like any other. We had been going out for 3 years now, and had been sleeping together for one. I was growing accustomed to coming out during the day, to see her in all her glory as Princess of the Sun.

But, that is why that day came to be. I snuck into the castle, like I'd done many times before, to watch her on the throne. So beautiful, and elegant. Yet, strong, and willful. I was enamored by her, so much, that I was unaware that I'd finally been caught.

One of the guards spotted me hiding away, he let out a powerful shout to all nearby, "We have an intruder...some thing has invaded the castle. All guards on duty, come protect the princess!" She tried to call out to stop them, but her words fell on deaf ears.

In a matter of moments I was surrounded, but that didn't really mean anything. In a flash, I was gone, but in my haste, I forgot to choose a location, landing in the middle of Canterlot itself. My arrival was greeted by shrieks and screams, ponies scrambled to get away. 'Monster, Monster!' they cried. It was clear that they were afraid.

This is what I dreaded. The fear, the hatred...all because of how I appeared. Celestia never believed me when I told her this would happen. I was right all along...but, I didn't want to be at that moment. I wanted it to be a lie, a horrible, horrible lie.

That was not the case. The city guards came to investigate, and surrounded me like the Royal guards did. I tried to flash again, but couldn't focus. The screaming, the name calling, the emotions in the air. It was so thick, I felt like I was suffocating. I felt, like I, an immortal being, was about to just die.

The guards launched an attack, throwing their weapons with magic, to little effect. My chaos protected me from harm, turning the armaments into dust. When that failed, they attacked directly with magic, imprisoning me in a bubble.

That didn't work either. With a burst of energy, I split the bubble open and broke free. My retaliation came at a cost, I lost control of my chaos. The atmosphere darkened, the skies clouded over with a dreadful storm. It began to rain, so cold that it froze the body to the core in pain.

Lightning struck all around Canterlot, and part of me could hear her, all the way at the castle. Screaming, calling to me to stop. She could feel it, feel me falling apart. She tried to save me with her beautiful voice, but it was too late.

I was not myself anymore, I was chaos. It took over, took control of me, and I went on a rampage. They say it was like some demon had broke out from the darkest pits of hell, and ravaged the land. Tearing it open with quakes, burning it down with a hail of fire.

There are two sides of chaos. The one that the real me prefers, the essence of fun and randomness. Then there's the one that took over that day....Pure destruction. The kind that starts wars and destroys planets with meteors.

Luckily, no meteors came that day...but the land probably would've been better off. It was far worse. I enslaved the people with controlling magic, and imprisoned anyone who broke free. And the worst of it all came, when she approached me.

She was in tears, standing beside her sister, trying to coax my mind back to normal. But, I could not hear her, I was a prisoner myself, in my own body. One small thing broke free of that prison, a single word, "Goodbye...." A word filled with pain and despair. It was the last thing she heard from me, before I cast her and her sister away, far across the world, stripped of their magic.

That was the beginning of my rule. Canterlot, and all of Equestria was mine. But, if I'd actually had a say in it all, I'd give it all up just to be with her again. I'd taken up house in the Castle, turned the stone into basalt, and the throne into rubies. Some stories say that the throne sat upon a mountain of skulls...but that is just a lie. Even in that state, I wouldn't have done that.

The land was warped by chaos, buildings in the sky, day and night confused. The rivers changed from one fluid to the next all the time. The weather was out of control, and you'd never know exactly what would come raining down on your head. I was dreadfully happy during it all, but inside, I was not.

A year went by quickly...one could never keep track of the days after all. And on the anniversary of my rule, she came back. Both of them had found their way home, and along the way, discovered the one thing that could defeat me.

A magic opposite to my own. Some call it Harmony, but its real name was Order. Six elements had bound themselves to the sisters. You know them well. Kindness, Honesty, Loyalty, Laughter, Generosity, and Magic.

The magic was powerful, but so was my own. We engaged in a duel to determine the final fate of the world. One, I didn't want to win..and maybe, that's why I didn't. It felt like the real me, had interfered, broken the dark magic long enough for them to win.

I had lost, and I was happy. Even as I felt my body turning to stone. That happiness was gone when I looked at her face. While her sister had collapsed in exhaustion, Celestia stood there, looking at me. Her face stained with tears, of pain and sadness.

She did what she had to do, and I will never hate her for that. And I will never forget those words, never. "Farewell, my love...I will miss you always." The last thing I saw before the spell has completely encased me was her running away, while the world went back to normal.

Over a thousand years later, when I was free again, after the events with the six friends, and my reimprisonment. When I broke free for the last time, and turned to the side of good...I approached Luna, and asked her what happened afterwards, so many years ago.

She told me that Celestia had vanished for a week. Nopony knew where she went. They finally found her in the middle of Canterlot maze, under the tree. Her face so stained, it was almost hard to tell it was her. She had cried so long, that there was nothing left.

Nopony dared to ask her why. Starswirl told Luna the truth, about how Celestia and I were together. She was the only pony in all the land left alive, that knew our secret. And for a thousand years, she herself was gone, imprisoned on the moon, never to reveal an ancient secret.

Recently, I found a book, buried deep in the archives, written by none other than Sir Starswirl himself. 'The Real History of Equestria'. And in it, the truth about what happened there. The truth I told Luna, and she had told me. Lost amongst the rest of history.

Celestia wanted to forget, so did I. But we both knew, it would be in our memories, for the rest of time. Not just the sad part, but all the happiness that came before it. A tragic love story, unlike any other you'll ever read. Maybe one day, this book will find its way out in the open, so everyone can learn what really happened, so long ago.

Until then, you only have my memories...