//------------------------------// // Should I? // Story: Spike's Suicide // by Dashie Bro //------------------------------// After apologizing for the whole breezies problem, Spike walked home to the library. His thoughts were clouded with guilt and the past neglect he faced. Were the girls forgetting him on purpose? No, of course not! They were just really busy now. Twilight becoming a princess took up more time, and her friends were trying to help her out more. That's why they forgot him. Spike sighed. The best thing Spike had in his life were his friends, and they were slipping away from him. As Spike reached for the doorknob to the library, he heard a voice. A soft spoken, gentle, pleasant voice. He knew that voice all to well. It was Twilight's. Spike turned around to find nothing behind him. His head went light and he stumbled backwards. Catching himself, Spike stabled his stance and turned back to the door. You're going crazy Spike. You need to sleep. He thought to himself. Spike opened the library door and walked up to his room. As he finally made it to his bed, Spike fell fast asleep. "Hey Rarity, you need a model for any dresses or an assistant or something?" Spike asked. The snow white unicorn looked at the purple baby drake. She then turned away in disgust and snorted. "Go away Spike. I would love your help darling, but I'm ever so busy. I haven't the time for you to bother me." She said. That statement was more damaging than it looked. Spike's eyes welled up with tears as he left the boutique. I guess Rarity doesn't want my help. Maybe Applejack need an assistant. Dusting of his broken heart, Spike ran to Sweet Apple Acres. After reaching the orchard, Spike searched for Applejack, but couldn't find her anywhere. A buck was heard in the distance. Spike heard the sound and followed it. As a result, he found the pony he was looking for. Applejack was bucking apples as she usually would on a workday. Spike approached her and asked the question. "Hey Applejack. I was wondering, do you need any help today?" He asked. Remembering everything that happened last time Spike tried to help, she furiously shook her head. "No thank you Spike. I don't need your help at all. Not after what happened last time. Leave me alone!" She said. Spike took the words personal and slowly walked away from the orchard. Spike had hoped his day would start out good, but the string of not being needed continued. After failing with Rarity and Applejack, Spike ran to find Rainbow Dash. If she needed help, it would be worth it. Spike found the rainbow mare laying on the clouds, napping. Spike called out to her. "Hey Rainbow Dash! You got anything you need any help with?!" Spike called. "Go away! I don't need you!" Rainbow Dash called back lazily. Spike was emotionally damaged further. He turned away and ran towards town, almost crying. He couldn't find anypony to help him feel better. "Maybe Pinkie Pie needs help?" Spike questioned himself. He had his answer almost immediately as Pinkie Pie slammed into him. Fluttershy was dragged behind. "Hi Spike! Can't talk I need to get something done, fast!" Pinkie Pie said very hyper. "Need any help?" Spike asked quickly. "Nope, Sorry. Even if I did, I don't think you could. Maybe Fluttershy needs help." Pinkie pie said a bit slower. After her statement, Pinkie Pie zoomed off. Spike turned to Fluttershy. Spike was about tho ask the question, when Fluttershy answered his question as bluntly as possible. "No." She said. Spike's heart was almost shattered into dust. He was beginning to feel he was completely useless. Then remembered his closest friend. He was her number one assistant. Twilight needed Spike's help, she had to have something for Spike to do. Spike sprinted to the library to help Twilight and maybe cheer himself up. After running five blocks, he found his home. The door was opened and Twilight was sitting in the doorway waiting for her assistant. Spike stopped right as Twilight lifted a hoof and pointed down the road. Spike was confused about what Twilight was doing. Two suitcases were at her sides. "W-what's going on Twilight?" Spike asked. "I'm sending you away! I don't need you here anymore. I don't want you anymore! Just leave." Twilight said. Spike's heart was broken at the words. He thought that Twilight was like his sister, yet here she was telling him to leave her life. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" Spike screamed as he awoken. The sensation of the dream left him in a cold sweat. He placed his claw on his forehead and remembered everything that he dreamed. I haven't the time for you to bother me. Rarity's voice echoed. Leave me alone! Applejack's voice echoed. I don't some dragon's help. Dash's voice echoed. Party planning isn't for a baby dragon. Pinkie's voice echoed. Sorry. I don't need you ever. Fluttershy's voice echoed.I don't want you anymore! Just leave. Twilight's voice echoed the loudest of all. Spike's memory of those phrases stuck out the most. Did his friends really feel that way about him? Was he really that useless to them? Was he even worth having around? Spike could not feel any lower in his life than now. He thought that nothing would be worth anything ever again. What else could he do? Suddenly, Spike thought of something that could end his low feelings. And it would be so worth it....in his eyes. Spike stumbled downstairs to the kitchen, rummaged in the draws and pulled out a pocket knife. The sharp, cold, stainless steel blade was placed vertically at Spike's wrist. He was having second thoughts if he should do it? As he pondered, the words echoed in his again. Those words were the trigger to his action. The blade slit across his wrist and blood lowed out. In that instant, Spike fell to the ground, his wrist bleed profusely. The baby drake passed out from blood loss, only hearing the words that caused him to seal his fate.