Everything faded into the background for Fluttershy, she couldn't really focus on anything other then Twilight laying there. She was so still. While it was true that Twilight wasn't really all that active of a pony, she was never truly still. At least that's what Fluttershy thought, she was always thinking, reading, and studying. She felt almost compelled to place a book of some sort near Twilight's head just so it looked like she fell asleep studying again. Except, for the tubes and wires all around.
Fluttershy nuzzled her friend softly hoping and wishing she would be better. An inexplicable thought popped into her head, "Was Twilight suffering?"
Fluttershy hoped not, that'd be just... awful. She never liked watching ponies or animals suffering. She cared for her friends and animal companions dearly. That's why she did her best to take care of them as best she could, "And when you can't you kill them don't you?" her traitorous mind whispered.
Fluttershy gasped out loud and burst into tears and ran off, not hearing the concerned cries of her friends. She couldn't be here anymore, she needed to get away. "Twilight will be okay, she has to be!" Fluttershy softly chanted to herself as she ran off.
She never really liked hospitals, they often made her thoughts even worse then normal. Mostly because she just didn't know enough about how to care for ponies, other then helping with colds and helping with chores. Animals were easier at times; because, they weren't ponies. Sure they had feelings and were alive, but it just wasn't the same. Truthfully because there was a small distance between her and the animals she cared for. It was harder for her mind to picture herself in their predicament. Not that it didn't, honestly that was why she was often afraid and nervous. Because she knew; knew what happened to the creatures large and small in nature... They invariably died.
There she had thought it. She slumped down to the ground, crying softly. "Twilight can't die," she muttered softly.
It was awhile before Rainbow Dash found her and comforted her. The words really didn't register in her mind, she was just numb. She couldn't stop thinking about death, suffering, and what she could do to stop it. But in her heart of hearts she knew, she just couldn't stop it. Sometimes all you could do was end the pain quickly, so they could rest. "Yes, so they could sleep. It was so peaceful when they sleep wasn't it?" Fluttershy didn't really notice the small whisper in her mind as she held Rainbow Dash tight.