//------------------------------// // Alone Flash POV // Story: Left in the Darkness // by TheUndiscoveredPony //------------------------------// Breathing in deeply, the stench of the woods fills my nostrils. I am deep in the Everfree forest where you cannot see light, except for small glances through the thick trees. In the darkness, I make my way through the trees. All the branches surrounding me scrape against my flank, leaving red gashes. I wince as I step on a pointy rock that I could not see in the density of the forest. Sighing, my mind keeps wandering to a special filly that had captured my heart and the stupid mistake I had made. That one thing has cost me so much but I had to do it, if not, I would have condemned Twilight and Equestria to doom. It was all because of my curse. ---------------------Flashback--------------------- She kept asking me if I was okay when I didn’t say a word. It was then that she dragged me to our house, no hers. After that day, it would only be hers not ours. “Flash?” She asked me softly as I looked at the setting sun. I just wanted to spend these last moments with her before I left. I was thinking so much that I didn’t even realise that she was pulling my hoof towards her house. “Twilight…” I whispered hoarsely. I sounded weak and sad, my voice wouldn’t harden. I probably didn’t even sound like I was okay. Twilight had such a worried look on her face that it made my heart clench. “Flashy, you're scaring me… What's wrong?” She asked. I heard it in her voice, she was getting worked up over the fact that I wouldn’t talk. She sat in front of me, her beautiful mane slightly touching my neck and her horn resting on my forehead. “I don’t know if I can do this…” I said brokenly. I had prepared for this moment but it didn’t make me feel any better. Tears filled her eyes and I saw how she was struggling to keep them from pouring out. Tears of my own started to form but I just swallowed visibly and sucked in a breath. “Are you-are you breaking-breaking up with-me?” She started to stammer. I looked up at her tear stained face and it took all my willpower to not take her in my arms and say that this was a sick joke. That this was a prank and I wasn’t breaking up with her but I couldn't, so I nodded. I saw her face change to one of total heartbreak and I felt my heart break into millions of pieces. I needed to do this, I had to before IT took over. Just as my thoughts came to a halt, she started crying and gripped my hoof tighter. I just kept a neutral face and tried really hard not to cry. “Flash, you can’t! Are really breaking up with me?” She stammered even more as each minute passed without my answer. I stayed quiet and let myself go numb as every second passed. Every moment that passed her face looked even more broken, so I leaned back and answered her. “I'm sorry, Twily.” I said, getting up. Wincing as she cried more, I left the house not looking back. I tried hard not to turn around and run to her, I just kept thinking left, right, left, right... “I LOVE YOU, FLASH!” She shouted desperately but I didn’t turn back, my heart breaking and tears of my own started to fall. The sound of desperation in her voice was so evident that I wanted to run back, take her in my arms and say that I love her but I couldn’t, no matter what. “FLASH! I love you! Please come back!” She kept shouting and shouting but I didn’t turn back, her voice getting fainter. Suddenly, rain started pouring down on Ponyville and lightning struck, but I just kept walking, leaving the filly I love. Just before I left, I needed one last glance of her. So I turned just as lightning struck and I saw her, broken and crying. It was all my fault. Crying out in anguish, I ran into the Everfree forest trying to escape Ponyville and the heartbreak I felt at that moment. The more I ran, the more the rain penetrated my coat. The density of the forest getting thicker and thicker as I entered the deep part of the forest. Just as I picked up speed, I tripped and fell, successfully hitting my head on some rocks, knocking me out. I had no idea when I woke, maybe a couple of hours or minutes later. I didn’t know. Luckily, I didn’t break anything and everything was intact. Except my heart, I thought sadly. Another set of tears came rushing out as I realised the severity of my actions. I sat down crying. I BROKE her. She was crying because of me and I crushed her heart into a million pieces. It was all my fault. I had to stop thinking about her, I had to, so I thought of the curse and how it affected my life. My family left me when I was a foal because of it. I lost my job as a royal guard when it became worse. I lost the mare I loved because I couldn't tell her my feelings because of the curse. I saw a pattern; it was ALWAYS the curse that destroyed the happy things in my life. Just as the thought passed through my mind, my vision got blurry and black dots started to appear in my line of view. I trotted forward unbalanced and I knew IT had come back. I kept walking until I just fell straight to the ground and let myself go. I stopped thinking and let IT take over. ---------------------End of Flashback--------------------- That was the last thing I remember from that day, the rest is just blacked out. It’s been a week and the feeling of aloneness seemed to be overwhelming me so I just let myself go numb. Everything in my mind went blank and the emotions I have been holding back, are deep in my mind where I cannot feel them. The faint ache of my heart made me realise that I should keep going. Spreading my wings, I jumped into the sky and started to fly towards Foal Mountain, where I would circle around Canterlot and avoid Ponyville. Hours passed and I caught sight of the rocky mountains. Each peak covered in a small cloak of snow and clouded by dense mist. I could hear the faint sound of a waterfall crashing against rocks and I knew I was getting closer to my destination. Tucking my wings into my side, I pressed forward gaining speed as the trees of the Everfree forest zoomed past. It was then that I saw what I was looking for. A cave. A place where I would spend the rest of my life. I landed in the cave and travelled through it, bypassing rocks and cracks so I wouldn’t trip. I found the darkest part of the cave and set myself down to rest. Laying my head on my hooves, I started to drift off into sleep when SHE invaded my dreams. I was having difficulty keeping my emotions in check and started to cry. My heart dying and shattering on the inside again as I think of her. Her smiling face flashes through my eyes but is quickly replaced by her tear stained face. It looked so broken. Her sobs echoing in my ears pierced through the wall I had built around my heart. The pain is so fresh and deep, it makes me feel hollow. The emptiness of not having someone love you is unbearable. Life is what you make it and I made this pain appear and I am paying for it. No matter what, I am never going to forgive myself for this but I had to go through with it. I would rather lose my heart then lose the one that has it. I failed my family, my life and my love. I am a disappointment to the world and it’s all because of my curse. Maybe if I would have done something different it would have turned out to be okay, but I did not and it kills me inside. This curse has destroyed me and I am a danger to all of those who are around me especially the ones that I love. I sigh and send silent messages to Twilight even though I know she will not hear me. I only wish she could hear me, but inside, I know that it is impossible. Twilight, I have failed you. I failed and I cannot ever come back. I left you and now we are alone. I left and I will be alone forever. Alone. Is a word that has so much meaning but has so few letters. It is the only word that describes what I feel right now. No other word can describe it as much as that word does. I feel alone. I am alone.