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// November 
// Story: The Life of A God 
// by Eventide Indigo 
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November 22nd

Hey diary,

The plan didn't work. I mean, it would've if I hadn't killed that mare. Everything was going fine until Chryssi sneezed and the mare looked up to see us hiding in the bushes. I didn't know what to do! I just... froze in place. She came over and at first seemed pretty nice, like she was gonna help us. 

But then...

Well then, she saw us. She jumped back and was shouting at us. And you know what she called us?

She called us monsters. That's why I thought maybe... well, in my last entry. i thought maybe she was right. 

"Get away from me, you little monsters" she had said. Sombra gritted his teeth and jumped at her, hoping to keep up with the plan and get the cart by whatever means possible. I honestly think that if I hadn't done it first, he would've killed her. She was screaming bloody murder and managed to wrestle off Sombra. She threw him to the ground and he started... crying.

I'd never seen him cry before. I was already getting pretty angry. 

But then Chryssi flew over to help him up...

And the mare stabbed her. 

Everything seemed to be in slow motion then, diary. I was so scared.  The mare had taken a loose branch and snapped it off, widdling it down with her magic. Before I could stop it... she had sent it right into Chryssi's side.

I just lost it. 

There was a blinding flash, and everything seemed all dreamy-like. It was a though I was watching from far away. I watched myself kill the mare with my own two hands. I just... 

I didn't strangle her or anything... I didn't even touch her. 

She just died. She just lay there all lifeless. There was blood trickling from her mouth and tears in her eyes and I... laughed. Why did I laugh? Was it fun to kill her? No... The fun thing was losing control. The fun thing was letting myself lose it and not care if everypony around me lives or dies.

I loved the... disharmony. The chaos. 

And in the back of my head, the voices whispered to me that they were proud of me. they sound like mommy, but I know it isn't. Mommy would be ashamed. These voices told me it was okay. They told me it was good that she had died and that we didn't need her anyway. 

Chryssi was bleeding a lot.  I always thought changeling blood was green or something like that, but it was red. Red like mine. Red like the blood coming from the mare's body. Sombra and I did all we could, and she's patched up now. She's lost a lot of blood though, and needs to sleep. She's sleeping next to me, and I think the rustling is waking her up, so I better go!

~ Discord  

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November 26th

It's getting colder here. I'm worried that it'll snow soon, so i think we need to get a move on. We were hoping the flower cart would take us to safety, but after how well that went... We're just going to head into Ponyville and keep as low of a profile as three misfits can. 

We cross the border from this forest into Ponyville tomorrow. Wish us luck!
~ Discord

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November 27th

We arrived in Ponyville.

I had forgotten how great being in a town can be. It was so busy and filled with kind ponies. Hardly anypony even cared that we looked different. 

But... there's some bad news.

We arrived at the wrong time, diary. There was a terrible fire that broke out into the library, I hear. Anyways, the queen came down here with Lulu and... you guessed it, Tia. We've managed not to get seen by them, but I'm not sure how long we can stay in the alley. 

I don't know how we'll mange, but we have so far! Maybe things won't be so bad! Hey, maybe i can try talking with Lulu. maybe she'll help us out.

~ Discord