Here we are, the end of my story.
I stared at my dens' ceiling, blanket over Buster and I. "He can't walk. I made sure of it. It wasn't him." I whispered. I think Buster was worried by this point. That's all I had said for three days. I finally stopped and directed my attention to the piece of blood-stained paper next to me. I had messed with it after I killed the filly. I just sat there, covering all the names but Rainbow Dash in blood. "How." I whispered. My eyes flicked to the books I had stolen from Twilights' library. In big, black letters, it said, The Study of Blackmagic.
I gasped slightly. "No...Celestia banned it...But maybe..." I tilted my head. "No! Yes? Impossible! Nothing is impossible, just unlikely...But this is- No...It could be...But..." I collapsed, staring at the wall and arguing with herself. "No! No no no! But maybe?" I whispered, curling into a ball. Buster was already gone, he walked out when I collapsed. I looked at my list. He was supposed to hate me, I broke his horn, I paralyzed him, I killed most of the Elements, and I killed ponies in front of him, but he still...He still forgave me. He forgave me for all of it, and I just kept trying. Why wasn't I feeling sad? Remorse? Why wasn't I feeling anything else but...Anger? Anything but hatred? I tilted my head in confusion, my ears flattening against tangled mane as I stared at the cold cave floor. "What's wrong with me?" I whispered, a hint of sadness in my voice as it wavered, signaling that I was trying not to cry. I knew why, but I didn't want to think about it. But...I knew I had to. What the colt said, about my frontal lobe being damaged. I was broken. I didn't even know if I could be fixed...I bit my lip and put my head down. Why couldn't I cry?
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Rainbow Dash sniffled and slowly walked into the Ponyville Cemetery. Their funerals were today. She had to stand in front of everypony and talk about her friends. She didn't think she could do that, she knew she couldn't, for Celestias' sake, she was barley in the cemetery and she was crying. Fluttershy had tried to calm her, all while falling apart herself, but nothing would work. She wanted to hunt the monster who did this down, watch the light go out in her eyes as- Fluttershy interrupted her thoughts by falling down and sobbing. Dash sighed and sat down next the the yellow Pegasus.
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I picked my head up lazily. Why was I so cold? With shaky hooves, I pushed myself up. "Buster?" I muttered, looking around the cave. It was getting dark, he should have been back by now. The first thing that struck me was not fear that he could be hurt somewhere, nor was it shock. Just anger. Again. I sighed and walked out, my body still shaking as I took a few steps out of my den. The first smell that hit my nose was a metallic smell that made my wings flutter, and my nose twitch. I frowned.
It took a while. I found it though. His body. My poor little dragon...I'd spent everyday of my childhood with him, and most of my teenage days. I still can't cry about it. I still can only sit here and think about how I found him. Someone had set it up, someone had murdered my dragon. I remember thinking something, and before I could think over what I was doing, I was running.
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Rainbow Dash walked in her house, she wanted to make sure she was out of public before she did this. She slid down the door, covering her face. Why? Why?! Her friends, all of them except Flutters! Why would she do this? Rainbow sobbed quietly, hugging herself as she rocked. That's when she opened her eyes and noticed something. A peice of paper, in the middle of the floor. She pushed herself up, wiping her eyes. She cautiously walked towards it. It had her friends names written down on it. Her name was circled for some reason. She frowned deeply, staring at it before she heard something move behind her. She spun around, catching whoever it was off guard.
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I didn't expect her to turn around, which is why I was so shocked. I was so shocked I stood there for a second. Which is what lead to me being bucked in the face. Which, in case you didn't know, hurts. A lot. I hit the wall at a surprisingly fast speed, and groaned, dropping my knife. "You were supposed to stay still and die quickly, but you won't do that, will you?" I tried to get up, but she knocked me down again, hooves now on my neck. I kicked my hind hooves, but she didn't seem to care.
"You....You killed them. For no reason." She sobbed, pressing harder on my neck. Why couldn't they just accept their deaths with dignity? I kicked again, hitting her back legs and knocking her down. On her way down, I bucked her in the jaw. This was going to get messy...I scurried up and went to get my knife, barley reaching it before she grabbed my tail and yanked me back to her. I clawed at the floor, trying to get away from her. She slammed down on my wings, making me scream and push myself up. I knocked her off me again. I tried to scurry away, not making it very far before she grabbed me, flipping me over and hitting me. "Why." She whispered, over and over, putting a hoof on my neck. My vision started darkening after a few minutes, and no doubt, my face wasn't looking to good. I hurt so much that it had gone numb. I reached a hoof out to grab my knife, my eyes going wide as it was placed in my hooves with magic. I grasped my knife, driving it into Rainbows' side. She screamed and let go of me. I pushed myself up. My nose was bleeding, and my entire face was bruised. I was pretty sure some of my teeth were missing...I pinned her, putting the knife against her throat. That was when she burst in. That yellow Pegasus.
"Please don't!" She shouted, shaking in fear. I looked at her. "Please, not her." I stared at Fluttershy for a second before looking back down at Rainbow. I climbed off her and walked out the door, shoving Fluttershy out of the way.
"Fluttershy! Why would you let her get away!" Rainbow hopped up.
"Good question." I muttered, hopping off of Rainbows' cloud.
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I walked into town that night. I didn't care now. I wasn't gonna kill them all. As I walked down the street, I noticed ponies peeking out of their windows. Of course. I stopped in the middle of the street, putting my head down. What was I? A monster? I nodded. That sounded right. I was a monster. But I didn't feel like one. I heard hoofsteps. I looked up, seeing somepony there. He had a grey mane, with a broken horn under a hood. "You can't be walking." I whispered, staring at him. "Unless they used black magic, yea?"
He smiled and nodded, taking the hood down. He stared at me with those lavender eyes.
"Why are you still so loyal? After what I've done?"
He sighed, "You...You saved me, when I was just a little foal. You pulled me out of that lake when Slick dropped me. I can't just start hating you, even if you do turn into...this." He chuckled and leaned forward, kissing my forehead. "And, if you don't mind, I need you to do something." He put his forehead against mine and smiled.
"What is it..." I whimpered. He whispered something I didn't really expect in my ear. I froze when he said it. "What does that even mean..."
"Remember what Hoop told you last Hearts and Hooves Day?"
I thought back.
"It's quite simple, actually! When ponies go into comas, sometimes they create a world in their own imagination, and mix in what's happening outside of their mind, into their own world, they can dream of anything, from sunny skies and beaches to monsters and darkness. I wonder what it would be like to do that!"
"No."
Grey smiled and nodded, "Just wake up. Don't live in this hell anymore."
I stared at him. "I created a hell, in my own mind, instead of fluffy bunnies, I dreamed of being a murderer."
"They're coming for you, Doodle. Hurry. Just wake up."
I think the story has caught up to us.
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Doodle Bug sat up in a bed. She was wearing a hospital gown, and had needles in her arms. She gasped and started shivering. A loud, obnoxious snoring filled the air, along with a quick beeping. She looked to the side and saw a dark grey Pegasus sprawled out across two chairs, his legs over a silver unicorn. "What..." A nurse ran in the room, but skid to a stop as she saw Doodle Bug sitting up. Grey stopped his snoring and looked up, seeing Doodle Bug also. He pushed Hoop down, running over to the bed.
"You're awake. " She stared at him. "What?" He stared at her in return. She put a hoof on his horn and then looked at Hoop.
"All in my head." She whispered.
"What was?" Grey stared at her. She went to get off the bed, but Grey stopped her. "Whoa! You've been in a coma for three weeks! You still have some massive trauma from hitting that stand!" She stared at him.
"What stand?"
"The stand Derpy knocked you into, the doctor said if you would've turned your head just a little to the left, you could have damaged your frontal lobe. And, in case you didn't know, that wouldn't be very good."
She stared at him again and looked at Hoop. "So I didn't really damage it...It was all in my head. Which means..." She grinned, knocking Grey over as she hopped off the bed, ripping the needles out of her arms before she could think about it. She scurried out of the room, and down the hallway. Out of the hospital, and then into the road. She skid into Sugar Cube Corner and stared at Pinkie.
"Hey! You're awake! I need to throw a 'I'm So Happy You're Not Dead' Party!" Pinkie shouted. Doodle Bug scurried over to Pound Cake and Pumpkin Cake, who barley acknowledged her as she picked them up and hugged them. She had so many places to go, so many ponies to apologize to. She had wondered why she could kill the Elements so easily. She knew why now.