I sure do hope Twilight is awake at this hour. I don’t want to disturb her if she is asleep, but I don’t know much longer I can go on like this with these nightmares of torturing my little boy. I can feel tears threaten to escape as I approach the library. I close my eyes, take in a deep breath, and deeply exhale as I reach a hoof up to knock on the door lightly.
The door opens to reveal Twilight with her reading glasses on “Oh, hello Rarity. What are you doing here at this time of night and where’s Connor?” She asks with a look of confusion on her face.
“Don’t worry Twilight Connor is perfectly fine. He is sleeping peacefully in bed and I have the doors locked.” I give her a half smile “Also I wanted to come alone, because I need to speak with you about something that has been troubling me, and I didn’t want to talk about it around him. I don’t want to scare my baby boy.” I lower my eyes to the ground.
“Oh Rarity, please come in. I was just doing a little late night reading anyways.” She steps aside to let me trot inside. As I enter the library I trot over and take a seat on the rug in front of the fireplace. Twilight trots over and sits down across from me, giving me a concerned look “Now tell me Rarity, what’s wrong?”
I let out a heavy sigh “Well actually Twilight, it’s a couple of things, and I feel if I don’t stop, then something terrible is going to happen to Connor.” I reach a hoof up to wipe away a strand tear rolling down my cheek “Do you remember that voice I spoke of the night of the Grand Galloping Gala?”
She nodded “Yes I remember. It told how you were making a mistake in taking in Connor and tried to convince you that if you did, it would ruin your career as a fashionista. Don’t tell me that it’s still taunting you.” She looks at me concernedly.
I solemnly nod “Yes it is Twilight, but it gets worse every day. Not only is it the voice that is bothering me, but I’m having these nightmares in which I am doing something awful to Connor.” I turn my head to the side letting out a deep sigh.
Twilight gasped “What do you mean awful Rarity?”
I turn my attention back to her “Well in one dream, I ordered my baby to kneel before me like a lowly servant and give my hooves a nice firm massage. It was like I was there, but wasn’t there, because in the dream I was so cruel and I smiled devilishly as Connor was on his knees.” I let out a little whimper “I said that it was his place as a weak little human to kneel at the hooves of a goddess like I.”
I can see a frown forming on Twilight’s muzzle as I continue “After a few minutes, he kind of hurt my hooves as he rubbed at them and I ordered him to stand up to give my back a massage. He rubbed a little too hard and I yelled at him, causing him to stumble backwards against the wall. Instead of feeling heartbroken at the sight of my son frightened of me, I relished in it Twilight.” My lips quiver as I look her sadly.
She reached out a hoof to hold mine soothingly. She gives me a look of concern as she rubs my hoof gently to let me continue.
I take in a shuddering breath “After I was upset at him for not massaging me right, I told him that it was time for him to say goodbye. I used my magic to levitate him while I trotted up toward my washroom.” I begin to shake as I recall the darkest part of the nightmare “I laughed at the crying and begging he was doing for me to let him go. He begged me to stop and he promised to be a good little boy for me, but I wouldn’t stop. I turned on the water in the tub, but it turned into a whirlpool… and… and…” I shudder harder.
Twilight gets up and trots over to my side, rubbing at my back gently “And then what happened?” She asks with concern.
“I dropped him into it Twilight and watched him get sucked in. He screamed out for me, but all I did was laugh at him. It was like I was a totally different pony whose only enjoyment was to see the little darling suffer.” I allow a few more fresh tears to shed.
“Oh Rarity, I’m so sorry.” Twilight continues to rub over my back soothingly to try and calm me down. She lets out a heavy sigh “What other nightmares have you had besides this one?”
A swallow of nervousness travels down my throat “Well, there has only been one other nightmare, but this one was more terrifying than the first one.” I lower my head and close my eyes as my tears stain the wooden floor.
“It’s okay Rarity, you can tell me. Maybe then we can figure out what we need to do to help you.” Twilight’s words of reassurance put a small smile on my face.
I inhale deeply and exhale as I open my eyes back up and turn to her. “In this nightmare, I was a giant and Connor is a tiny little boy the size of a parasprite. He was adorable I may admit, but I had the poor dear locked inside a glass box and I looked down at him with a sinister grin on my face…”
I sigh heavily “When he looked up at me, he was frightened and shook like a leaf, but that only made me smile wider.” I can feel a few more tears roll down my cheek “After I released him from his glass prison, I… I… I ate him!” I wrap my forelegs around Twilight’s neck and cry into her shoulder “Oh Twilight, what can I do to stop these nightmares? I’m scared if I don’t get them under control, then I’m going to do something terrible to Connor. I couldn’t possibly live with myself if I done something to my baby boy.” I start to shudder with sobs.
Twilight hugs me back soothingly “Shhh… just calm down Rarity.” I feel her rub up and down my back gently as she continues to speaking soft shushing sounds into my ear. After a couple minutes we break the hug and she uses a hoof to wipe away at the remainder of my tears “That’s better. Now, what I think we should do is first contact Princess Celestia and Princess Luna. I believe they might know what to do about your nightmares, and also that troublesome voice.”
I sniffle and nod in agreement “I agree Twilight. The princesses usually do know how to deal with issues such as mine.” I give Twilight a soft, sincere smile.
She gives me a nod and returns the smile “It’s settled then. Rarity, I need you to just go home and try to rest for the night, and I’ll write a letter to send to Princess Celestia asking for her and Luna’s assistance.” She rubs at my shoulder gently “I promise you Rarity, we’ll get this taken care of, and we’ll make sure nothing bad happens to you or Connor, okay?”
I nod “Okay Twilight, I trust you.” I give her one more hug “Just let me know when you hear anything from the princesses, okay?” She gives me a nod and we break the hug. I turn to trot out of the library, but look at her one last time “Thank you again Twilight darling for your help. You and the others are the best friends a pony could ask for.”
She nods softly “Don’t mention it Rarity that is what friends are for. I’ll let you know first thing when I get a reply. Just go home and rest for now.” I nod as I wave at her with a hoof and she returns it. I exit the library and make my way home.
When I return home, I trot upstairs and enter Connor’s room to check on him. A warm smile spreads across my muzzle as I watch him sleeping peacefully under his covers with his small form rising and falling. I quietly trot over to the side of his bed and lean my head down to give him a tender kiss on the forehead.
Oh my sweet baby boy, Mommy’s going to get these nightmares and this insane voice taken care of. I promise my son I won’t ever let any harm come to you.
I reach up and gently stroke at his mane and I gently whisper into his ear “Sweet dreams Connor, Mommy loves you.” I give him one last kiss on the cheek and turn to trot out of his room. I leave the door slightly opened so I can hear if anything bad does happen.
I trot over to my bedroom, climb into my bed, and crawl underneath the covers. I let out a heavy sigh and close my eyes softly.
I sure do hope the princesses can help me with my problems.