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// Dividend 
// Story: Sentimentality: The Poems of Equestria 
// by GhostWriter17 
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Dividend

A poem by GhostWriter17

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Can this really be the one I sought?
Can it?
Can it be that I was truly wrong in my endeavors?
All this time I've tried to be kind.
I've attempted this emotion they call love.
But why can I feel no such thing?
I may be a creature of Equestria,
But I feel all alone.
All I do is sit and wait for my lover to come home.
When will he ever come?
This is the question I ponder.
I did it all for him.
My heart lingers on this notion of love.
I embrace love, so why is there no feeling?
I siphon the love from those I want, so why?
Why can't they appreciate my work!?
I know I can be cruel.
I can be a malicious evil,
Dangerous and corrupting am I.
I inflict harm every time I try to be good.
Is it my nature, or something more?
A psychological problem?
What, brain?
What, soul?
What, heart!?
What is my failing!?
Please, answer, I implore!
Can I never find the light, always being shadow?
Must I forever hide behind the guise of another?
Must my original skin be clouded by a second skeleton?
She says my true nature must never show...
But why?
I look around at smiling faces and wonder if things can ever change.
I am a creature born of change.
Therefore, can I not evoke a positive change in it all?
Can change not be for evil?
Surely, this must be!
The throbbing thrashing pain I have had had to endure must end!
Endings must come!
This, I am truly sure of, it must be so, mustn't it?
I know that changes can be positive, so why can I not carve my own path?
This must be my destiny: to change!
I can't wallow... Right?
If I can wear a lie, I should live a truth!
Hiding is cowardice! Hide no longer!
Today my independence must be declared! My voice, so it must be heard! How it will ring in jubilation! How I shall scream, "I am myself! I am of flesh, and of bone and of love, and I will live!"
No more living between the Dividing Line.
Divide and ye shall never overcome.
That is my truth. That...
Is I.
I can only hope things will turn out right.
I can only pray alll will be fine.
All wounds heal with time, they say.
So shall I.
It may be hard, but I'll go forth! Out of darkness, I march!
I am the one to evoke change! Change in perceptions! Change in life! A change of heart!
A change in me.