//------------------------------// // Chapter 4 // Story: What Doesn't Kill You // by Excy //------------------------------// Tthe next day, Spike was just quiet. When Twilight asked him what was wrong, he just acted like he was fine, and just tired. His eating diet was now one meal. He started to confine himself in his room and rarely come out. He didn't show any sadness. At ALL. Actually, he barely showed emotion and just put on an act for Twilight. He didn't like being home anymore or help Twilight. He was a silent mess. "Spike, I'm leaving. Celestia requested I help her students. I'll be home in a few hours, maybe. Hopefully when I come back we can talk. "Ok Twilight, have fun!" Spike said entusiastically. Maybe, too enthusiatically, becasue Twilight was thrown off guard by it. "Wow Spike, something is def- oh no, gotta go! Bye Spike, when I come home we will talk." Twilight flew out the door and it shut behind her. "We'll see." Spike muttered. He entered the bathroom and loomed in the mirror. Spike couldn't stand his reflection. It made him upset. Angry even. Seeing it reminded him of last night. It made him see how worthless he was, and how ugly he is. Nopony would want to see a dragon, let alone have a romantic relationship with one. He hated himself. Seeing his reflection, he started to let tears fall, but he didn't sob. "What's wrong with me? I'm not mean. Why won't she like me back?" His sadness soon turned to anger. "After all I've done for her, and this is how she repays me? This is fucking ridiculous. I did so much for her, from diamond dogs to gem hunting to being her FUCKING PIN CUSHION, FUCK HER! He yelled. GOD DAMMIT!" Spike punched the mirror as hard as he could as the glass fell to the floor. He looked at it, tempted to do some things. He picked up a shard and looked at it. Blood was coming down his hands. Even tbough he was a dragon, and had protective scales, he didn't have them on his fists and forearms. That left that area vulnerable. He looked at the remains of the shattered. He said to himself: "Why do I still breathe? When will it end? Who fucking cares?" He then put the blade to his wrists. He thought twice about his next move, but his decision was final. "I just want the pain to go away..." **WARNING. THIS NEXT PART IS EXTREMELY GRAPHIC AND DESCRIPTIVE. IF YOU HAVE A WEAK STOMACH, SKIP THIS PART. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.** He cut. He cut a small vertical line from the bottom of his veins. The blood rushed out and dripped to the floor and down his arm. He didn't care. It took his mind of ths problem at hand. It may have hurt him, but he just wanted his mind off of her. He made two small cuts and they were decently deep, making sure not to hit any veins. There was a puddle of blood on the floor below him. His feet was covered in the blood. Spike finally finished with the two cuts, one for pain, one for pleasure. He cleaned the bathroom up, got a new mirror from the basement, threw away the shards of glass, and took a shower. ** YOU CAN CONTINUE READING HERE** The cuts started to sting. The real pain was starting to come in, but he ignored it. After he finished, he got dressed and headed for Rainbow Dashs house to catch up. He made sure he had something long on to cover his "blemishes." When he got there, he made sure he didn't look miserable. Hs knocked on the door. "'Sup Spike. Come in." The rainbow maned mare said. "So, want anything to drink?" Dash said. "No thanks." "Okay. So, what happened last night?" Rainbow Dash knew it wouldn't have gone well. She knew Rarity too well and Rarity didn't want Spike. She wanted a rich colt from Canterlot. "Sbe said no." Spike said angrily. "Oh dude, I'm sorry. I thought it would've worked out beween you guys, since you do so much for her." she said half telling the truth, patting Spike on the back, just to be stopped by him. "Well, me and Soarin are together now. We had alot of fun at dinner and at home." She relalized after that what she said sounded better in her head. Spike giggled immaturely. "Good for you guys. I'm proud of you." "Thanks Spike, but if it wasn't for the bet you made, I never would have." "Really Dash? Thanks." "No, thank you. Actually I was just about tl head to Fluttershys place. You wanna come?" "Ehh, sure." Spike and Rainbow flew down and went to Fluttershys place. (He has wings by the way) When they arrived, Fluttershy was eagerly awaiting their arrival. "Hello Rainbow, Hi Spike, how are you?" "Fine." he said like he didnt care, but Fluttershy didn't really take offense. "Do you guys want anything? Some drinks?" they both nodded no. "So Flutters, you know how I was telling you about how I was gonna go out with Soarin? I did and asked me if he wanted to do it again sometime! It was so cool!" "Awesome Dash. So Spike, I heard you asked Rarity out, how'd it go? "She said no." he said no sounding aggitated from everyone asking. "Oh okay." she got the message of: "I don't want to talk about it next subject." Rainbow continued talking about what happened during her date, but Spike didn't listen. He was so upset about being rejected, he wanted to freak out. All he wanted were answers. Timw passed, and Rainbow left, but Spike didn't. "Fluttershy, can I talk to you?"