I don’t know how long I was out, but when I come to, the room is dark. I couldn’t help but notice the pain in my head had lessened. I notice why I must have woken up, when get the sudden urge to find the bathroom. As I’m about to jump out of the bed, I stop. I look to my left and see that the bed was only three and a half feet off the ground, but I felt as if at that height, you could fall a certain way and get hurt really bad. That can kill. I look down, and get a weird feeling in my gut. I feel the height overtake me. I would have gone back to sleep right then and there, if it hadn’t been for the urge to pee. I slowly make my way to throw my back legs over, and slowly, I ease myself to the floor. It only took a second to notice that I was still alive. Then I release a breath that I didn’t know I held.
I looked up to the bed I was just on and sighed to myself. It was only three in a half feet off the ground, and I just treated it as if it were a million feet high. Then I remember what I got up for and run for the bathroom. When I was done, I walked back to the bed and got back on, not really afraid of the height anymore, but still cautious of what a bad angled fall could do.
I couldn’t get back to sleep. Not after what happened earlier. Now that I could think more clearly, I assumed that my name is Rainbow Dash, Because the doctor didn’t say otherwise. I had to make sure the next time I saw him. Ask him who I really am.
I lay there for awhile thinking about other things, like ‘How did I get here,’ and ‘Where do I go from here.’
From what I can remember about places like these, it’s that they only keep you here until you are fixed up, and then send you home, but where is my home? Do I have a home?
Through my constant pondering, I had somehow fallen asleep, because the next thing I know, I’m being woken up by a bright light in my face. I slowly open one eye to investigate the sudden intrusion of light. I had noticed the doctor first. then I notice the window. I hadn’t seen it the night before because it was dark and closed. But now I see it, a giant tower with a clock in it. Looking at it, I felt a sudden cold fear grip me. I barely stammer my question to the doctor, but manage to get it out.
“H--h-how h-high a-are we?”
He looks at me confused, then just shakes his head and answers calmly.
“The third floor, about 50 feet high, why?” He asks, from what I heard in his voice, wonder in this type of question. But by the way his eyes got wide in understanding told me he could see the fear I had. I must have been white, and I clearly was shaking. All sound was gone to me. All I can do is look out the window into the pretty scene, that hid death on it’s doorstep. I didn’t even hear the doctor yelling my name in front of me. Or what I guess my name was since he was calling me it.
I look over to him. And slowly, his voice starts to come through.
“....Dash. Miss Dash. You’re okay. Don’t worry about the height, okay? You will be on the ground floor soon. Don’t worry, you are about to be discharged and will be able to go home”. I look at him stupidly. Home? I don’t have one, do I? i ask myself this before the doctor answers the questions in my head.
“Don’t worry Miss Dash. Because of your condition, there will be somepony that has known you for quite some time with you until you get your memories back.” He said the last part as if he didn’t believe it himself. I just shake my head slowly. He let’s me get up on my own and helps guide me from the room. I felt grateful somepony was there to help me. I don't think I was able to move at all by myself.
I listen to his instructions and allow him, with much persuading, to get me into the elevator. But I soon regret it, because the second the doors closed, I felt a drop, and I felt my stomach in my mouth. Quickly glancing around to see if I was really falling, I noticed that it was the room that was falling. I closed my eyes, tried to tell myself I wasn’t there, that I was in the room with the machines, still asleep, not in this nightmare.
Eventually the falling stopped, I heard a faint noise. opening my eyes and releasing a breath I didn't know I held, I realized I was in the fetal position in the corner of the room. I felt a wetness around my eyes, and I reached a hoof up to wipe away whatever it was. When I pulled my hoof down, I noticed they were tears, that I was crying. When did I get into the corner and start to cry? I don’t remember this. That is when I realised that the noise from earlier was the doctor saying my name and was rubbing my back.
“Miss Dash. Miss Dash, are you okay?”
I just looked up to him blankly. I just shake my head and allow him to help me up and I follow him once more.
We make it to a room that had many chairs and ponies walking around in it. I then noticed a counter with a few ponies wearing something similar to what the doctor was wearing. They were all wearing white coats. The ones who weren’t, probably were the ones here for help. some looked sick or injured. That’s when I began to wonder why I was here. Befor I could ask the doctor, I saw the alicorn from before.
She simply looked at me for a second, and smiled. Then she walked over to us and greeted the doctor first.
“Hello Doctor Gauze. She all clear to go?”
Who is she. I could only guess it was me, and I guessed correct, because the doctor patted me on the back and offered a smile.
“As long as you know that you are to have at least one of the names, given to you earlier, keeping an eye on her. But yes, she is okay to go. Her job has been told of her medical related absence. so no worry on bills and all of that. You can be on your way. The bill’s will be sent in a couple of days. We give a grace period before we charge for certain cases such as this one.”
I immediately looked up at the doctor in complete and utter confusion. My job? I had a job? Then I just realized that I was leaving this place, with this person I don’t know. Not like I knew the doctor, but my brain said to trust him. I had no knowledge for this mare in front of me, other than knowing she was a princess. This because, I remember that only alicorns were royalty, and just that. Nothing else.
When he walked off, I couldn’t help but feel vulnerable. look to the mare in front of me to see if I could trust her. I didn’t like being alone, it just felt weird. She just smiled and motioned me forward with a hoof. I slowly, but eventually, made it to her. I kept my head low, and my ears back. I felt like I was in trouble or gunna be yelled at. I don’t think I would like that.
She just started to trot off when I finally made it to her, I kept pace, not wanting to be left alone. I Shadowed her to the outside of the hospital and followed her for a bit. We happened to pass the tower I had seen through my window. I looked up at it and shuddered. I couldn’t imagine going to the height of its peak. The fear of being that high and falling just made me sick.
We were in a town, I don’t know why it took until I noticed the tower for me to realize this, but it did. That’s when I noticed all the ponies around me. What if they thought I was weird? I begin to think about ways not to be attention grabbing. and through my self consciousness, I didn’t hear the alicorn ask me something. I just shake my head and in a barely audible tone ask her to repeat herself.
“C-could you possibly, s-say that again.”
She stopped for a second and looked at me. Her eyebrows raised in interest. She then asks me to repeat myself. I find myself asking the same question again, this time my voice retreated even further down my throat as I finished the sentence, barely audible just like last time. But she happened to hear, and sighed.
“I said that, do you want to go to your home, or come to the library?”
I was confused. Apparently I had a home. feeling curious about figuring anything out about my past, I decided to go there.
“C-can we go t-to my home, i-if it’s okay with you?”
She gave me the same look as earlier again, and sighed. She then began to walk out of the town as I shadowed her, daring not be left behind.
We eventually made it to a clearing and stopped. She turned to me and smiled, she pointed up and my eyes followed her hoof. I followed it up and all I could see was a big cloud. I looked back at her in confusion. What was it that she wanted me to see? She then just smiled and spread her wings and with a quick thrust of them, launched into the air and over the side of the cloud.
I couldn’t believe it. She just left me here by myself in the middle of nowhere. I actually felt hurt. I felt discarded. I simply turned around, my head hung as low as possible, a tear forming in my eye. As I was about to walk off, somepony yelled.
“Hey! What’s taking so long, I thought you were following me.”
I turned around fast, and with a yelp, I noticed there was nopony there. But I just heard a voice. Was I hearing things?
“Up here, silly filly.”
I looked up and saw the mare who deserted me leaning over the cloud. She beckoned me up. I simply stood there in disbelief. She wanted me to go up there? To go up there. Of the safe ground. I started to shake in the thought of being so far off the ground. Why should I go up there? There is no reason why, was there? No wait, it couldn’t be. It couldn’t. There was no way I would. How could I have done it. Then to answer my suspicions, she called down again.
“What? I thought you wanted to come to your home. Well here it is. What did you forget to fly? Or are your wings hurt too? They aren’t bandaged like your head.” said the mare with a slight chuckle, indicating it was a joke, but it still felt insulting.
My head? I reached a hoof up to my head. It was true, because I felt a fabric around the top of my head. How come I didn’t notice this? Then I remember that I did see it on me in the mirror, I was just preoccupied by my other features. Then I feel a hoof on my back that frightens the hay out of me. I jump and yelp at this.
It was her again. I look at her and she could probably see the terror in my eyes or something because she changed the tone in her voice.
“Are you okay? I didn’t mean to frighten you. I am so sorry. It’s just that I saw you were looking lost and all. Your house is up there on the cloud. If you can’t fly, I could levitate you up if you wa-,”
“NO!” I shout almost instantly when hearing about her possibly taking me to that dangerous height. What if she loses her grip or something and I fall to my death? I look back at her and I see the shock in her face. I immediately apologize, hiding my face by looking away into the other direction, so she didn’t have to see me.
“I’m sorry. i-i-it’s just that i d-don’t l-like heights.”
The second I finished the sentence, and looked at her, she blinked and her eyes widened. She opened her mouth to speak several times, but no sound came out. It looked like a goldfish opening its mouth. I just looked at her, feeling as if I did something wrong, then all of a sudden, she reached out and pulled me in for a hug. Although I didn’t think I was supposed to hear it, I heard her nonetheless.
“Oh Rainbow, we’ll fix you somehow.”
It was under her breath and all, but I still heard it. I felt hurt. What was wrong with me that needed fixing? Before I could ask her anything, she began to speak up to me and i just swallowed what i was gunna ask.
“Come on, we’ll go to the library. that way you could be comfortable.” She said this with a fake smile, I could tell, but I didn’t let her know. Her tone was also very solemn.
By the time we had gotten to the library,it had started to get dark. I started to look at the shadows and started to think about the dangers that could hide in them. then I started to think of things that could happen in the dark. The second Twilight opened the door, I bolted in, trying to hide from the dangers of night.
Twilight just sighed and walked up to a podium with a book on it. She used her magic to pick up a quill and scribble something down into the book and walked back to me. I wanted to ask her what was wrong, then decided on asking how I got to the hospital in the first place. It took me a second to muster up the strength to ask, but I finally did.
“Hey, umm, miss. I-I was wondering how I-I got t-to the hospital.”
She turned to me and cocked her head to the side, then she made a face that said ‘ooh’ in understanding.
“Well, my name is Twilight. We are good friends, being the bearers of an Element of Harmony,” Element of what? “ You see, you were in the air just practicing like normal, when out of nowhere we heard a strange noise. you stopped mid practice and immediately bolted into the Everfree. We tried to follow, but by the time we caught up, we saw you out cold with a lot of injuries and a filly shaking your body trying to get your attention, to get you to wake up. She was crying, and said something about you fighting off some sort of monster or creature and that it ran off, but not without throwing you into a tree, knocking you out entirely. We got you to the hospital immediately and you know what happened from there.”
I thought about how this story may explain a little bit of what happened, I couldn’t help but still feel lost. I also felt like I was blamed for this in the way she said it too. Although she didn’t say it, I could feel it. It was my fault, and it will be my fault forever. Even though I don’t even know what I did. I just simply replied.
“Oh.” My head hurt. apparently I rescued somepony. But how could I of have done that? I can’t now, how could I ever? I then yawned and rubbed my eyes. Twilight immediately started to walk off to a pair of stairs. She motioned me forward, but I stopped at the stairs. What if I fell down them and got really hurt? Twilight looked back and saw me. She sighed in a annoyed manner and levitated a mattress with a pillow and blanket down and put them near the stairs. What did I do to this mare to disappoint her? I was just listening to her and followed her all day, but I couldn’t help but feel her annoyance of my condition. Like it was my fault I forgot everything. I layed down and it went dark. I pulled the blanket over my head to hide from the creatures of the dark. I don’t know when, but I silently started to feel tears form and flow as I silently sobbed. I was lost and not physically, but emotionally and mentally so. I don’t know anything and others were annoyed because of this. I was a burden to somepony because of my condition. I continued to cry for no particular reason, other than for being afraid and lost. I eventually fell asleep to my own tears.