My studies are growing tiresome. I find my discipline waning. I wander the palace halls more and more frequently with no real place or purpose in mind. It seems I only want to remind myself that there is a world outside of my study.
I do not fall asleep easily. I have too much unspent energy and have not made any noticeable progress in my studies. I go to sleep unfulfilled and with unspent energy. Lay restless in my bed for hours before sleep finds me. Some times I am impatient and do not wait for sleep to find me.
I have been overzealous in my studies I think. After months of doing nothing else I can no longer stomach them. And yet as this thought occurs to me I wander into the kitchen and find myself incapable of even making myself a cup of tea. I cannot stand to be secluded within my study any longer yet there is no use for me anywhere else.
-L