Sarah had a quill in claw as she was writing on a scroll. As she was writing each of these journal entries she thought about everything she had been doing, she thought all the lies she had told and everything that she hidden. She knew Sombra's dark magic flowed though her veins. It kept her alive but would her being alive mean that others had to fall under Sombra's control. She sighed as she put her quill down.
She started to pace the room. "This bad...maybe I am bad. Maybe I should just leave..." She shook her head. "No I must not. If I did Sombra would crush my heart turning it to dust and I would be gone. If I left would that mean Apple Bloom, Sweetie Belle and Scootaloo be in even in more trouble? I can't let anything happen to them. They are the only ones who trust me.." She shed a few tears from her eyes.
Sarah went over to the scrolls that she had been writing her journal in. She looked at the first entry that she wrote and read it aloud to make sure it sounded write. "Dear Journal, Today I woke up to seeing Sombra my master. He said I was needed for a plan. I didn't want to help him so he took my heart and now his evil magic is flowing through my veins. I now start my travels to find a place known as Ponyville and to find a dragon known as Spike. I look at the colors of my scales and wondered if just sort of looking like this dragon will make him believe that I am his family. I wonder if I have any family.. I guess that it for now. I must begin my travels from Sarah."
Sarah set that entry down. She looked at the last sentences and said one of them to herself. "I wonder if I have any family.." She thought about Spike and how he wondered if he had a family. "I really do know how you feel..." She said just as quietly. She sat on the floor till her black crystal glowed. Sombra's words echoed in her mind. Sarah you are needed please report to the throne room immediately.
Sarah nodded. "I'm coming Master." She stood up as her crystal stopped glowing. She headed to the throne room. As she walked through the castle she looked around. It was a beautiful castle with amazing design, she wished she didn't have to see the Cutie Mark Crusaders clean it. After a few minutes Sarah arrived in the throne room. Sombra sat on the crystal throne that he turned black. Sarah bowed. "You called me here Master.."
Sombra nodded. "I would like to ask you something."
She nodded. "Yes sir, what is it?"
"What do you think of those fillies that we have imprisoned in the tour?" Sombra asked her.
Sarah looked at him. "They are nice..good workers when you have them under your excellent power. Why are you asking me?"
Sombra gave an evil smile. "I am sorry to say but I would like to get rid of them. I feel as if I have no use for them. Kill them at once."
Sarah looked shocked. "What? I will do no such thing! " She didn't want to hurt the only ones who trusted her. She also knew that since she stood up against her master's orders that he might crush her heart.
Sombra put his hooves together. "Even with out a heart you care about those ponies."
"You don't need a heart to feel Sir." Sarah replied. "I beg you don't hurt them."
Sombra thought for a moment. "Fine I will reconsider it but don't expect to be free at this time. You may leave, that is all."
Sarah nodded. She knew she would never be free but she could only hope. She had to hope that maybe Spike and his friends would come and help if they didn't want to get revenge on her first. She knew she lied to them but maybe they would forgive her one day. She headed to her room not noticing a baby dragon like shadow following her.
When she got to her room she grabbed a random scroll and was going to start writing a journey entry but when she looked at it, she saw that she had already already have written on this one. As she glanced over the scroll she found it was one that she wrote about the time she was traveling. She read it softly aloud to herself. "Dear Journal, I have been traveling for days from the Frozen North to this place called Ponyville. Along my journey I have been mostly alone with just my thoughts. I have spent I don't know how many hours just practicing what I'm going to say. It seems like it is going to be tough to lie but I might be able to do it when the time is right. It is almost nightfall and I munch on an garnet gem. I hope that I don't have any weird dreams tonight, it seems like since I was hatched I have had these dreams where I keep seeing a frozen pool and a frozen land. I think it might be the Frozen North but I am not sure. In these dreams the words snow and unborn keep bouncing around in my head. This makes me think was I never meant to be born. I guess I'll sleep on it. From Sarah." She set scroll down.
When Sarah thought about it she still kept dreaming about those words while she slept. She never told anypony not even her master. She just kept it to herself and hoped that maybe those dreams would stop. She took her quill and start writing on a clean scroll. She wrote more recent events involving the treatment of the Cutie Mark Crusaders and how she made sure to bring them food and stuff. As she was writing she started wondering what Spike was doing and how the others were. Then there was a sudden knock to the door.