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// Reunion - Chapter 24 
// Story: Diary of the Night 
// by CalebH 
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Sister’s lack of trust is… understandable. Even I cannot impose such ignorance on myself as to believe otherwise. It is not just her I have betrayed but the whole of Equestria. As a sister she has pardoned me for my crimes but as a ruler even she cannot offer forgiveness so flippantly. She speaks for the whole of Equestria, thousands of ponies that remember me only for the day the sun did not rise.

The position of princess is one of immense trust between me and the ponies I would rule. How can they trust me when all they know is stories of, among other atrocities, cannibalism to scare foals? How can I ask them to trust me when I know that these stories only mask a darker truth?

I turned Equestria against itself. Tribe against tribe, city against city, and even brother against brother. There was a stallion, I do not even remember his name, I made him kill his brother in front of me to “prove his loyalty.” He knew that his life would end painfully if he did not. He was a single pony amidst a war, his loyalty was of no consequence. He killed his brother, not for justice or loyalty but for fear and in my madness I made him do it for nothing more than a momentary diversion after a lost battle.

How many lives did I destroy? How many ponies have I worked unspeakable cruelty on without even remembering their names? A thousand thousands years’ imprisonment would not be enough to atone for my crime. I must be a petty sight indeed as I wallow in self-pity. I demand trust yet I have earned less than nothing.
-L