//------------------------------// // Chapter 2 // Story: Pointless Pursuits // by JC //------------------------------// It had been a couple days since Pinkie’s visit, and in the intervening time Fluttershy had had ample opportunity to mull over the conversation that had transpired between the two of them. Thanks to the loss of her characteristic self-restraint (not to mention her consideration of others’ feelings) after internalizing Iron Will’s lessons, the matter of Fluttershy’s life occupation versus those of her friends—an issue particularly sensitive to her—had made its way out into the open, and in the worst way possible. She had hoped against hope that her little outburst would somehow escape comment or inquiry, but Pinkie Pie’s simple determination to know the truth had speedily disposed of that futile aspiration. Still, it had been all for the best. They had reconciled with each other, and Fluttershy no longer felt burdened by hidden feelings of ill will toward a friend. The one thing that surprised her was that it had been Pinkie who approached her, not Rarity. As if in answer to her thoughts, there was once again a knock at Fluttershy’s door. “Who is it?” she called out, shaking her head to clear it of her musings. “Rarity. Do you have a moment?” Considering what Fluttershy had just been thinking about, Rarity’s unexpected arrival seemed far too convenient to be normal. Even so, she did her best to put aside any misgivings. “Coming,” she said as she made her way to the door and opened it. “Hello, Rarity. What brings you here?” Fluttershy tried to sound pleasant, but she couldn’t help but notice that Rarity looked decidedly less than cheery herself. Her eyelids, accentuated by her long lashes, were lowered, and the expression on her face was not overly grim, but serious nonetheless. “If you’ve got the time to spare, I was actually hoping to have a little chat with you.” Fluttershy’s heart nearly stopped. Pinkie Pie had shown up just days ago wanting to “chat,” and the next thing she knew they were having a raw, emotionally charged confrontation in her living room. The coincidences were becoming difficult to ignore, but she decided to invite her in anyway. If her hunch was correct, it would be better to go ahead and get this over with. “I’d be happy to, Rarity, please come in! I’ll go get us the floor cushions so we can be comfortable.” Fluttershy headed upstairs and went to where the cushions were, beside her bed. She took two of them in her mouth and dragged them back downstairs where Rarity stood in the main room, looking somewhat out of place surrounded by all the mouse holes, birdcages and bags of feed. “Here you go, Rarity,” Fluttershy deposited one of the cushions in front of her. “Thank you,” Rarity said as she settled herself onto it. Fluttershy got onto her cushion as well, and for a few seconds there was an awkward silence as they simply stared at each other. “So…” Fluttershy began, feeling like she already knew the answer to the question she was about to ask. “Is there something in particular you wanted to talk about?” “There is,” Rarity answered tersely. “I want to speak with you about the behavior you displayed after you were influenced by the teachings of that Iron Will.” Fluttershy could contain herself no longer. “Oh, really? It’s very funny that you should say that. Pinkie Pie paid me a visit only two days ago asking about the exact same thing. Quite a coincidence, huh?” “Oh darling, that’s no coincidence. I suggested the idea to her some time ago.” Rarity’s admission to conspiring with Pinkie was so smooth and readily given that it caused Fluttershy to blink in surprise. “She and I were highly relieved when you apologized to us and decided to stop acting so ghastly to everypony, and the reaffirmation of our friendship was genuine, make no mistake about that. However, we realized not long afterward that there was something still bothering us.” Fluttershy closed her eyes and let out a little sigh, bracing herself before speaking. “You mean what I said about you two wasting your time on pointless pursuits, right?” “Yes.” Rarity’s eyes narrowed a little at the memory. “We felt that remark was of a different caliber than anything else you said or did during that time, a cut above the rest, if you will, and we wanted to know just what was it that inspired you to say such a thing?” Fluttershy regarded Rarity with a furrowed brow before responding. “I’d be happy to explain, but why didn’t you just come over at the same time as Pinkie and ask me then?” “We had already decided that a one-on-one conversation would be more productive.” “I see. And have you spoken with Pinkie since she came here?” “Oh no! I’ve been very occupied by business at the Boutique for quite some time now. Engaged with something of little value, according to you.” Rarity’s tone was noticeably bitter, and Fluttershy could see she would have her hooves full mollifying her. Rarity may have represented the Spirit of Generosity, but she could definitely hold a grudge when she wanted to, as opposed to Pinkie, who was much more likely to forgive and forget. Then again, Rarity was justified in feeling wounded; she had insulted her life’s work and passion, after all. “Listen, Rarity…” Fluttershy didn’t feel much more comfortable discussing the subject now than when it had been Pinkie staring at her expectantly, but at least this time she was prepared to explain herself without becoming too emotional. “When I said that your pursuit of fashion was pointless, that was definitely something I’ve thought before, but—” “Oh ho, is that so? And here I was ready to be charitable assuming you merely got swept up in the moment ‘asserting yourself!’” Fluttershy only had time to reflect that she really needed to take lessons from Pinkie on how to talk faster before Rarity kept on going. “So that’s what you think of me, is it? You’re a fine one to talk, Miss Live-out-in-the-woods-like-a-hermit-surrounded-by-animals! What gives you the right to make judgments on ponies such as myself who actually work for a living? What gives you the right to take something I love dearly and treat it as so much dirt? What gives you the right to—” “Nothing!” Rarity was so caught off guard by this interjection that her mouth hung slightly open from being cut off mid-sentence, her hooves frozen in the midst of wildly gesticulating. “Rarity,” Fluttershy said quietly but firmly. “I was wrong to ever think that your career is meaningless. I only did it because I’ve often been insecure about my own life choices.” Rarity’s eyebrows went up a little as the anger in her face slowly gave way to curiosity. “Taking care of the animals that I keep around here is a huge part of my life. It’s what I love to do, but sometimes other ponies look down on me for not having a ‘proper job.’ Now and then I feel so bad about it that I comfort myself by thinking that at least what I do helps other living creatures. The clothes at a boutique like yours are nice, but nopony really needs them. That’s what I’ve told myself before, anyway.” Rarity took all this in with a pensive expression, her head tilting to the side. “But I know I’m not better than you because of what I do, and I never have been. I just feel so unsure of myself at times that I’ve let myself think that way. Those thoughts are wrong, and I only hope you’ll forgive me for having them, Rarity.” When Fluttershy had finished, Rarity looked as if she were weighing her words carefully. At length, she spoke. “It’s a bit strange, really. I make it my life’s work to design and sew fashionable clothing in a town where almost nopony bothers to wear clothes at all, much less anything stylish. And yet, I keep going because I earnestly believe with the right clothes you can almost make a new pony out of someone, really do something for them.” Rarity paused, a wry smile overtaking her face before she continued. “There are, of course, more practical considerations: a roof to keep over my head, bills to pay, and my own mouth to feed, just to name a few.” At this Fluttershy involuntarily twitched, but Rarity did not notice. “Enough about me, though. I can understand what you’ve been through, and under the circumstances it makes perfect sense that the pressure from others might cause you to feel resentment. Rest assured, though, you can always count on your friends to love and support you regardless of what you do. And, when need be, forgive you,” Rarity added with a smile. “Thank you so much, Rarity,” Fluttershy offered a timid smile in return. “I am curious, though. You said you don’t have a ‘proper job.’ If that’s the case, what is the source of your income? I know for a fact you can afford to buy things at the market, but where do you get the money?” This innocent question immediately wiped the smile off Fluttershy’s face. Just when she thought she was in the clear, too! “Umm… I get by.” Rarity pointedly raised an eyebrow. “Honestly, Fluttershy. If that non-answer was supposed to satisfy my curiosity and keep me from asking further questions, I have to say that it achieved precisely the opposite. Now I really need to know! Are you still doing model work for Photo Finish on the sly, by any chance?” “Absolutely not!” Fluttershy shook her head emphatically. “I told you I hated being a model, and I meant it. You couldn’t get me to do that job again for all the bits in Equestria! Or even all the bunnies!” “All right, I hear you. Besides, I suppose if you did something as public as that, you wouldn't likely ever be accused of not having a ‘proper job.’ Well then, do you treat other ponies’ animals when they’re sick or have broken limbs or things like that?” “Actually, I do make a little bit of money that way. Our local veterinarian is very capable, but there are some ailments even she doesn't know how to treat. Ponies will come to me when they have nowhere else to turn.” “Even so, that doesn’t sound like enough to live off of.” Rarity put a hoof to her chin, deep in thought. “I’ve got it! You make a living by waiting until everypony’s at work, sneaking into their homes and then burglarizing them!” Fluttershy let out a squeak at this vile calumny. “T-That’s ridiculous! I can’t believe you have such a low opinion of me, Rarity!” “Oh please, darling, that last one was just a joke,” Rarity said in between giggles. “Okay, you can stop guessing now. I’ll tell you.” Fluttershy’s voice had a note of resignation to it. “My parents still live in Cloudsdale and they’re pretty well off, so they’re able to comfortably send me a certain number of bits each month. That’s where most of my money comes from.” Rarity’s eyes widened at this unexpected revelation. “So you mean to tell me,” Rarity spoke slowly, “that your primary income is a monthly stipend you receive from your wealthy parents?” “Yes.” With her shoulders slumped forward and her head bowed, Fluttershy looked strangely forlorn. “Well… I certainly didn’t see that one coming. It’s quite a surprise, to be sure, but I don’t understand why you would feel the need to conceal it from me.” Fluttershy lifted her head, her expression pained. “If I had mentioned it before, I would have looked even worse for mocking you and Pinkie’s career choices. ‘Fluttershy, the daughter of rich parents, snout turned up at the little ponies who have to work with their hooves or horn for a living!’ My putting you two down sounds bad enough when I’m just somepony who has no job, but when it turns out I’m rich with no job and thinking those things…” Fluttershy broke off, unable to continue. Rarity gazed at Fluttershy thoughtfully, then spoke. “As I said before, I can see why you felt anxious. Bringing it up now could have undoubtedly suggested unfortunate implications. However, I must confess I’m disappointed that you haven’t trusted us enough to share these kinds of things any other time before this. I’m glad that you’ve done so now, but still.” Fluttershy gave a sad nod at this assessment. “You’re right, Rarity. That’s why I decided to tell you just now. I thought about it as we’ve been talking, and I realized that I’ve gotten myself into two different, unpleasant conversations in just three days that I could have avoided if I had only been more honest and open with you girls. I want to do better, though. I want to actually communicate without hurting others at the same time!” Fluttershy's voice was suddenly full of determination and her eyes blazed with newfound resolve. Rarity eyed her approvingly. “Well, Fluttershy, it's a difficult balance to strike, but you know we'll be happy to help you along the way. I can promise you also that however much you’re willing to open up to us, we’ll embrace you that much more in love and acceptance.” Fluttershy rubbed her eyes a bit with her hoof and smiled softly. “Thanks, Rarity. I'm really looking forward to it.” “As am I, dear. I’m very glad we had this talk.” Fluttershy’s smile grew. “I’m glad I had this talk too, Rarity. Both of them.”