Mind of a Princess

by AppleJared


Reality of a Nightmare

I was looking into the sky last night. You might say that there was a bright sunset followed by some clouds as it got darker.

What I saw was totally different.

The sun was becoming bright red as it laid upon the horizon, bathing the sky in a pink hue. On the right and left, the skies were still becoming darker blues by the minute. A single, larger star shown out, bright as can be bridging the pinks and the blues in the sky. But as the sun sank lower and lower, clouds from the other side of the sky came marching toward the light. As they neared the star, its brightness increased until finally the clouds caught up to it. Within minutes, the clouds overtook the star and the color out of the sky, leaving only the blackest thunderstorms in their wake.

If my literary teachers taught me anything, they taught me to recognize symbolism in my life. You take the obvious first and list. The star in the sky is clearly representing me, which the sun and the rays represent Celestia and the good she does for the world. Then comes the clouds and the storms. Cloud in literary works can either represent a break from a blistering sun, or a foreshadowing of stigma. Rain means change, and thunderstorms means change for the worse or can even foreshadow death. You mix all of these together and you get something bad happening to me.

Maybe I’m losing it. Maybe I’m not. I know for a fact that the weather ponies promised hard rain last night right when it got dark, and Celestia promised a beautiful sunset. That all makes sense, but things happen for a reason. Of course, neither the Princess nor the weather ponies are trying to tell me something, but I believe Fate is. Or maybe it is reminding me of something.

After I became a shut-in I quit talking to the few friends I did have. It wasn’t hard really, I just had to believe that this would bring me closer to changing the world. As long as I could believe that, I could easily slit the throat of my social life (or what little of it was left). I had one friend in particular that I was closer to than any other of my friends. Her name was Quarter Note. I met her in my Gifted Ponies class back in the day and we hit it off fairly well. She was such a visionary in music and so talented. Quarter usually hung out with me when I was sick of studying and we would grab something to eat. We would mostly talk about our lives and endeavors. Actually, she would mostly talk about her social life and how I should get one as well. It was comical because we both knew I would never have one.

After I quit seeing ponies at the castle, I would work all hours of the day and night on a new potion or spell and I rarely had anyone interrupt. One very frustrating day of experiments, Quarter demanded the guards to let her in my room. As I was putting a very delicate ending to a project that took all morning to conjure up, she slammed the doors open and caused me to mess then entire thing up. I was so furious that I immediately lost it. It was one of those episodes where I lose control over myself and I become engulfed in violent magical flames. Before even looking to see who it was, I did a spell and threw fire right at the door. When I calmed down and the episode ended, I woke in Celestia’s chambers on the floor. The Princess herself was looking at me very angrily and only said in her calm, terrifying voice, “You’re done with your experiments for a while.”

I was so upset with myself that I didn’t even use my magic, not even teleporting, for a month. I, of course, went to apologize to Quarter almost daily at the hospital but she just ignored me. She looked so bad. I had paralyzed her from the waist down and burned her entire body. Thankfully, she would grow her hair back but the doctor said that her legs and mental state would likely never recover. The last day I visited Quarter, she finally spoke to me and said, “Look at what you have become. Quit visiting me; I don’t know who you are anymore.” I ran out crying. I came back about a month later to see if she had been released yet and they told me she moved away right when she got released.

I still don’t know where she is.