II
Drawn on the white blank page of my soul is the only thing that shatters my solemn desire. It was her, and she was visiting once again. Blind and breaking apart, I fought the pain long enough to see her for one more day. I heard the recognizable hoofsteps coming near me. I heard her voice once again.
Hello, ...
The greeting resonated around the four walls of the shared home. It blotted out every other voice within my hearing. I welcomed her with a Good Morning. I could sense that she smiled and began to talk. I heard her questions about my day, about my conditions, and my own feelings. It went on like it usually would. Routine sometimes helps, it kills the day without hesitation. She talked to me about her friends, a special occasion took place a few days ago. Sadly, I can't recall the events of that day, but her friend was crowned a princess. A once in a while matter of celebration that rarely happens to anypony, and I listened in with interest.
I could feel that she was happy about her friend. Sand filled slowly filled the hourglass in my head as we spoke, and the woeful innervation ate away at my heart piece by piece. I finally felt the obligation once and for all, to explain everything to her.
Duration of the conversation grew longer, and I ached a lot more. The hourglass had filled, it was almost time for her to go and leave me alone. I caught her attention when I spoke her my final words before she left. She hinged onto the words I uttered out into her ear. She stood silent, the type of silence that would tug at me for almost an eternity.
I felt a deep submersion, descending beneath the waters of ice cold pending rejection. She hadn't spoke, and I began to wonder if she had disappeared. Then the soothing voice had escaped from her mouth.
I'll come back tomorrow. I'll need some time to think about it, I'm sorry if I disappointed you.
There it was. An uncertainty that brought further pain than anticipated. Closure didn't arrive to rescue me from the pain in my heart. Another day will have to pass until I know for sure.