I've watched her all my life, I devoted my life to her and in hopes die for her. It is an honor to be her personal guard, because if she needs anything I'll do anything. The day of today I stand here in front of her quarters defending like I usually did. I imagine me being with her, but I doubt that will happen.
Sigh* I look over at the door of her quarters, I wonder to myself if I could just bust right in and spread my feelings. But I might get dungeon time for me, probably forever. I sigh again, I used to wonder why she spent all her time in her room. She never goes out or anything like that, I don't walk in because it's invasion of privacy.
I feel like I've been here for hours, I see all the people passing by these hallways zoom past the hall and I'm the only one slow. I look down and close my eyes, when will I ever just give out my feelings and be done with it. I sigh one last time, then a whisper calls from down the hall but seems like only a memory.
"Devoted and willing to sacrifice." The voice is from the Sargent from Ten years ago when I first joined the force, that same Sargent that died in my arms in battle Four years ago. He gave condolence to the Princess on my work and she made me her personal guard, her name is Luna. The battle was between us and the changelings, the unknown enemy attacked us more back in the years and was sent back to where they belonged.
But then they came back, it was a Three year battle. I spent my time in a camp, with very little food and water. I didn't eat anyway, the only energy that I had was love. The war was ending and they were at the clutches of our swords, begging for their life. I was ordered by the commander to kill, I did it for the Sargent. We ended Queen Chrysalis and King Metamorphosis of there evil ways, before the Sargent died he gave a letter to Princess Luna on what I did. He was a good friend of mine, do you know how hard it is to let go.
It took me weeks, to get over his death. I still remember him and what he did for me, he never gave up on me he sticked to my side and he kept me going even at the roughest times. Now look at me, I'm standing in front of the Princess that I have loved since I was first recruited. Standing, doing nothing. My friend and Sargent would never allow me to just sit here with my hoof up my ass, he would say do something about it. The voice passed by again, same as the memory.
"Never give up, you give up now you lose the chances of actually doing something about it."
He knew about my love for the Princess, he would always say to think of her and you will get passed anything. I won the war just by thinking of her, the anger of the death on my best friend. They all took over me and it gained me passage to my body and it just allowed me to do all these things that I never actually done before. Just anger took over me and made me into a monster, I killed and killed but at least I didn't kill anypony else that were on my team. I became someone I wasn't.
I will never forget the Sargent's last words, "You can do it! You know what I'm talking about! Trust me, you'll be fine! Goodbye friend..." and just like that he died in my arms. Like I said he knew about my love for Luna, and he wanted me to express my feelings. I'll do it right now, right here and now.
I walk over to her door, and give it a slight knock. Then the door automatically open by itself, I'm guessing she used her magic to open the door. As I walked in I heard the sound of tears hitting the ground from the silence of the room, and soft cries that could be heard by little. "Princess?" I uttered, "Are you okay?" I asked. As she looked up she wiped the tears of off her muzzle and then wiped her eyes.
"I'm fine personal guard, now what is it that you need?" She asked with her sweet voice, but I was more worried about her then what I was going to say.
"Wait, hang on what happened?" I asked back more concerned.
"It's nothing, can we move on?" She said more worried, I didn't let that slip.
"Princess..." I walk over and sit next to her on her bed. "I'm your personal guard, personal in meaning of you can tell me anything. Tell me what happened?" I asked.
She took a deep breath, "No one likes me." That right there brought me up.
"Don't say that." I said.
"But it's true, they all think I'm evil because I was Nightmare Moon." She started to tear.
"You WERE Nightmare Moon, it doesn't mean anything anymore. The people who still think that are people who are idiots and never describe a person on their looks or back story." I grab her hoof. "If it helps, I like you."
She looked over at me and stared into my eyes.
"In fact, I came in here to tell you that. But it's way different, It's because I'm in love with you."
Her eyes widen and she just stares at me, I lean forward a bit. I needed to know, I lean more and she uses her magic to pull me into a kiss. Her lips felt like a blueberry; soft and sweet. I never thought of this before, I never knew it would be real and actually happen. I then realized that what if Celestia walked in, but right now I didn't care I wanted her for all my life and it was actually happening. I didn't care about anything else right now, kissing her and sitting on her bed.
I push in more and she leans down with her back against the bed and me on top of her, I felt her tongue rub up against my lips and I open my mouth and I let her tongue explore my mouth and I explored hers as well. I still couldn't believe it, kissing her was just great. I felt more then love when kissing her, I felt like I was in a different world. It was a while before I finally pulled back, both of us were breathing heavily.
"You're not like the others." She started saying between breaths, "You so sweet, but it's just my sister. I'm afraid..." I shh her and put my hoof on her chin.
"Don't worry about her, it'll be okay." I reach down and kiss her neck, I can feel her giggling each kiss.
"Oh, why haven't you told me your feelings before?" She asked giggling.
"I was also afraid, that I might spend the rest of my life in a dungeon cell. But I didn't care anymore, I wanted to tell you my feelings." I leaned back into her lips as she wrapped her hooves around my neck.
We kissed for a long time, it felt like ages have passed. She pulled away from the kiss, "Would you like to stay and lay with me?" She asked. I leaned down and kissed her nose, she took it as a yes. I move to the left and lay down next to her, I wrapped one hoof around her. Then sleep took my body to a whole new world, I was with her. She joined into my sleep and we both imagined ourselves in fields and holding hands. Going on adventures and kissing near a tree. It was the best dream I have ever had.
When I was staring into her eyes, I was being lifted in the air and pulled away from her. What the... I get up from the dream to be surrounded by a white cloud, I look around and I see Celestia using her magic and having an angry expression on her face. "Princess Celestia, It's not what it looks like." I had fear in my eyes, but you know what. I didn't actually fear, I felt something else. Acceptance.
"Tia! Let him go!" I heard Luna shout, "Please don't I swear I let him in my quarters, please let him go!" after she shouted. I was sent flying out the door and the door slammed behind me, I hit the wall in the hallway and fell onto the floor. Boy did that hurt, I push myself up and rub the back of my neck to see if I didn't break my circulation. I'm good, I get up and head to the door to listen in. All I hear is mumbling voices, they sound like anger and confusion.
"Shit this is my fault." I pull back my hoof and hit the wall. "BUCK!" What was happening in there? I can't seem to hear any of what they are saying, but I know I'm going to be sent to the dungeon. I check my pockets and I feel a rough object and pull it out. "I did it, but I thought you said it would be fine." It was a necklace I pulled out that had the Sargent's picture. "Damn it, she is being yelled at because of me. This is my fault, I can hear her crying.
Hearing her cry was making me feel more guilty, I just wanted her cries to stop. I stared at the ground with my eyes wide open, please stop crying. I couldn't take it anymore, I pushed on the door and the door was forced shut. I pushed harder and it opened just a little. "STOP, IT'S MY FAULT NO HER'S. IT'S ALL MY FAULT PUNISH ME NOT HER!" I managed to shout before the door was pushed harder. But then the door was lifted, I let go of the door. The door slowly went open and Celestia looked at me, I couldn't imagine how angry she was.
"Would you like to prove that?" Celestia asked.
"I'm the one who knocked on her door and she let me in. I'm the one you should be angry at, you shouldn't be angry at her. It's my fault." I said and looked down waiting for the punishment to commence. But nothing happened, I looked up at Celestia and she looked head to toe.
"Why were you in bed with her?" Celestia asked.
"We kissed." I said flatly, Celestia then looked surprised.
"You what?" She asked.
I took a deep breath, "We kissed." I said again.
She looked at me again, giving me that same look. She then looks over at Luna and she nodded her head. "You have guts, I'll give you that. Sacrificing yourself for her, I'm sorry."
"It's alright, you didn't know." I look down. "I guess I couldn't help it."
"Help what?" Celestia turned her head.
"I couldn't help not kissing her, she even looks like a goddess." I look over at Luna and smile as I see her face turn red.
"I see that you have grown attached." Celestia looked at Luna. She turned even more red.
"I guess I have." Luna looks back at me, and we just sat there looking into each others eyes.
Celestia giggled and she left us, shutting the door on the way out. I walk up to her and I get close to her face, mouths just inches away from each other. "What are you waiting for?" She asked.
"I don't know." I said, I loved the warmness of her breath reaching the ends of my nose. "Oh my Luna... I can't believe this is happening."
"Well believe it," She leaned forward and pressed her lips against mine, I fell in love with The Mare of The Moon. I just have to say 'It's good to love' feeling her mouth with my tongue, slipping it onto hers. Tasting the sweet taste of her tongue, she moaned and laughed into my mouth.
Pulling my mouth out of hers and the breaths of exhaustion, "Luna...I love you." She giggles upon the word 'love'
"I love you too my personal guard." Luna giggles.
"Please, call me Thunder."
"Okay then, Thunder. You sure have struck my love." She giggles at her joke. I join her, but then when she closed her eyes. I pulled her chin up and gave her a peck on the nose.
"Now, you have love. When ever you feel sad, call me. I'll make you feel like a Princess." I lean forward and gave a peck on her lips, and headed towards the door.
"Thunder?" She calls when I put my hoof on the door.
"Yes?" I look back.
"Do you think you can stay?" She asked.
"Of course." I let go of the door and head onto the bed, wrapping my hooves over her. "Goodnight Luna."
"Goodnight Thunder."
Bliss, is the only word coming out of my mouth. I dreamed of this, this time it's actually come true. Life with the Princess I loved, Luna is The Mare of The Moon. The moon of my eyes.