//------------------------------// // Worthless // Story: Color me Rainbow // by Prince Colgate //------------------------------// Rarity shook her head and pushed away the tasty-looking cupcake that Pinkie Pie had offered her. “Terribly sorry Pinkie, but I simply cannot eat another bite.” It was Rarity’s birthday, so Pinkie had thrown a party, of course. Unlike most of her other parties, this one was a little more civilized, with the group mainly sitting at a table eating and chatting. It was very befitting of Rarity's personality. The table was covered in tasty treats. Cupcakes, chocolates, muffins, you name it. All the sweets were decorated in ornate fashions, to simulate a feeling of class. The only pony this really mattered to was Rarity, but it was her party, so it made sense. “Are you sure! They’re really tasty!” Pinkie frowned. “Yes, I really must watch my calories. A lady has to watch her figure.” She turned to Rainbow Dash, who was sitting next to her shovelling cupcakes into her mouth. “I say, Rainbow Dash, how DO you eat so horrendously and yet maintain such a perfect build?” “Hm?” Rainbow stopped and swallowed. “Oh, I’m just so awesome, I never gain weight!” “Well, that metabolism definitely won’t last forever. Hasn’t that ever crossed your mind?” “Nah, I’m too cool for that. I’ll always be exactly the right weight. ‘Cause I’m perfect!” She continued shovelling in the cupcakes. “Ya know” Applejack started from across the table, “Rarity has a point. Ya sure do eat a lot of unhealthy eats. And you sure ain’t always burnin’ it off workin’, ya lazy filly.” “Don’t worry yourself, I know what I’m doing.” Rainbow reassured Applejack. “I work it off in my own ways.” Still not entirely convinced, Applejack decided to let it go for now, and the ponies all returned to their celebration of Rarity’s birthday. After the party, everypony shouted “Happy Birthday” to Rarity and headed off to their respective homes. All except for Fluttershy who followed closely after Rainbow Dash. “Rainbow are... Are you okay?” She asked softly. Rainbow Dash stayed ahead and didn’t look back at the yellow pegasus. “I’m fine.” There was a slightly heavy tone to her voice. “Oh... It’s just I... Worry about you. I mean, I know you’ve had... Issues before, and...” “I’m fine.” The rainbow pegasus cut her off, this time a little more abrasively. Fluttershy was quiet for a few moments, but kept following her. “I just... Please be careful...” “I’m FINE!” Rainbow snapped back at Fluttershy. Fluttershy stopped with a light tremble, then nodded softly, and turned and headed to her cottage, deciding to give Rainbow some space. She was gravely concerned about Rainbow Dash, as she had known her to have some issues in the past. However, she knew the best thing to do right now was to let it go. Rainbow Dash arrived at her home. She stood in her living room, and took a moment to reflect. “I’m perfect.” She said, quietly. “I’m awesome. I’m what everypony wishes they could be!” Her voice seemed to tremble slightly. She turned and stared at a door at the end of a hallway. The door lead to her bathroom. She felt her stomach sink under the weight of all the sweets she’d eaten. She’d made a mistake, and she knew it. Knowing she had to fix her mistakes, she made her way to the the bathroom. There, she stopped and took a long look in the mirror. Anypony else would look at that reflection and see a young, healthy filly (if not a little underweight). Rainbow, however, saw something else. Look at yourself, she thought. You’re disgusting. What were you THINKING tonight!?” Dash looked down at her stomach, which seemed to bulge slightly from being over stuffed. She tried to shut out the nagging voice in the back of her head, but she knew she couldn’t. It was there to stay. Why would the Wonderbolts want somepony like you? You’ll NEVER be on their level, not like this! She closed her eyes, fighting back tears. “I... I can’t...” You’re weak. You’re pathetic.You’ll never amount to anything. Looking in the mirror, all she could see was a mangled husk of her former self. Her face was bulgy and messy, her neck hidden by triple chins, her mane dry and faded. She looked down at her hoof, which rested beside the sink, and braced herself, cringing, for what she felt she had to do. A few seconds later, she pulled her hoof out of her mouth, and a portion of Rarity’s birthday confections came out with it, splattering inside the sink. Her legs trembled as she looked down at the previous contents of her stomach. She coughed lightly, wishing this could be the end of it. A few seconds later her hoof was back in her mouth, bringing up another wave of half-chewed cupcake, which gradually filled the sink, too thick to go down the drain. She turned on the faucet to help clean up, and looked back up at the mirror. Her face had grown pale. Worthless. This time she turns to the bathtub, pulling up another wave of wasted sweets. Her throat begins to hurt from her hoof slamming against the sides, and the stomach acid coming out now with each heave. Useless. She collapsed to her knees, leaning over the edge of the bathtub. Her hoof knocks against the bones at the back of her throat. With a heavy heave, she feels one snap and come out with the next wave of cupcake. Her esophagus ached from the heaving, and she could feel a part of it ripping away, dangling loosely in her throat. Pathetic. Small amounts of stomach contents and blood pour out of her mouth as she tries to stand back up. Her legs are too weak, and she falls back down over the bathtub. She sees the severed bone floating in a small pool of blood and chocolate. Still feeling full, she shoves her hoof back into her mouth, bringing up a desperate finally heave, most of which is a mixture of blood and stomach acid, and saliva, barely any food left in her stomach. The tiny bit of flesh shakes with the heave, growing looser and looser. She lets her head hang over the side, before finally attempting to stand up again. This time she’s successful, but just barely. She stands on wobbly legs, looking at the mess of red and pink all over her bathtub and sink. Breathing and sweating heavily, she turns to exit the bathroom. Lonely. She tenses up suddenly on her way out, and feels another heave come up, and collapses to her knees, launching what little stomach contents remained across the floor. Among this last expulsion lies the bit of flesh, which had finally worked its way free, letting out another batch of fresh blood. Afterwards, she gags and coughs for a few moments, then finally gets herself under control, and curls up on the floor, tears starting down her face. So lonely. A feeling of emptiness washes over her. A steady stream of blood poured from her mouth from her shredded esophagus. She hated this more than anything, but she had no other choice. Her friends wouldn’t look up to her as much if she was fat and ugly. She felt empty, and alone. Though she was surrounded by caring friends everyday, at the end of the day she was alone. And this was how it had to be. Nopony could know her secrets. Nopony could know of her imperfections. She’d set a pretty high standard, and nopony could see her break that. Nopony could know how she really felt. Stumbling out of the bathroom, Rainbow feels a slight tinge of relief as she regains her composure. She heads to the kitchen for a drink, to wash down the blood and any remnants in her throat. Fluttershy’s attempt to help her earlier hurt her now. She couldn’t imagine how Fluttershy would react if she saw her right now.