I still didn't believe it. I didn't want to believe it. I had never had such a tragic loss in my life. I sometimes wonder how I'll get through. I wonder how any of us will get through. It's been over a month, none of us had seen each other since the funeral. One month in my library, not leaving once. For the first week, all I did was cry, I couldn't leave my bed. There was tissues everywhere, the whole library was a mess. Spike had been doing a lot for me, bringing me food, making sure I felt better, but I just can't get over that Rainbow Dash was dead. I've been thinking to move back to Canterlot, I just couldn't deal with Ponyville anymore, I'll never get over what happened here, ever.
I've heard stories from Spike, he said he saw the girls around town. Applejack was depressed, she couldn't work or eat or sleep, Spike had even said that Big Macintosh had found a noose in her drawer, luckily they threw it away and made sure she was going to be okay, soon after, Applejack left Ponyville, she just was gone one day, I guess she couldn't deal with Ponyville anymore, to this day, no pony knows where she is. The farm hadn't been the same since she left.
As for Rarity, Spike said that she had been making dresses for Rainbow Dash. Spike said that she had made over a hundred since last month, Rarity had been only making dresses for Rainbow Dash and no pony else, she's even lost all her clients and wasn't making any money, but she just goes on, making dresses. She doesn't know what to do with all of them, she keeps saying that she's waiting for Rainbow Dash to pick them up, that she'll show up soon. Rarity was also ignoring Sweetie Belle a lot, everyday Sweetie Belle just begs Rarity to stop with all the dresses, but Rarity just goes on as if she can't hear her. At one point, Sweetie Belle tried to pull her away from her dresses and Rarity smacked her. Sweetie Belle had tears in her eyes and walked out. Rarity could hear her crying silently as she walked away. Rarity then started to cry too after realizing what she had done, she destroyed everything, her dresses, her jewels, her whole boutique. She went after Sweetie Belle and found her crying outside in. She hugged Sweetie Belle tightly, both crying in each other's arms.
"Oh, Sweetie Belle,I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hit you, I didn't know what I was doing. Could you ever forgive me?" Sweetie Belle tried to talk through her crying.
"It's okay Rarity, I-I..." Sweetie Belle just couldn't stop crying. They both couldn't, eventually they both hugged it out and walked back inside and slept in Rarity's bed together. It was the first night in a long time that Rarity slept good.
Fluttershy was the same as me, she wouldn't come out of her cottage. She won't stop crying, she just can't. Soon, all her animal friends started to leave, in the condition she was in, she couldn't take care of any of them anymore. The only one who stayed behind was Angel. After a couple of weeks, he slowly starved and died. Fluttershy then felt worse, she felt horrible. No pony had heard of her since then, she won't come out, some ponies even say she's dead but no pony knows for sure, I'll make sure to go over there as soon as I start to feel better, who knows when that'll be.
And lastly, Pinkie Pie. Out of all of us, she had been the most saddest, the most depressed and the most distraught. She hardly smiles or laughs anymore, when ponies ask why she doesn't, she says,
"What's the point? What is there in life to smile about? I lost my best friend, I'll never see her again, I'll never hear her voice again, all I have are memories, which is just cruel... I don't want to remember her.... Because if I do, it makes me remember she's never going to be here again, I'm never going to hang out with her, I'm never going to pull pranks with her, I'll never do anything with her... I just wish I could have spent more time with her. I wish we could have been more close... I wish I could have told her I loved her..." At this point, Pinkie would shed a tear and walk away back to Sugar Cube Corner. No pony ever sees her that much. None of us for that matter, Applejack is gone, Rarity is a wreck, Fluttershy is locked up, Pinkie Pie is depressed, and me? Well.. I'm all 4. I've been gone for a month, I'm a complete wreck, I've been locked up in my library and I'm depressed, so depressed. I'm thinking of leaving tomorrow, maybe.
Spike then told me he found the 3 young ponies in their clubhouse this morning. They were talking about Applejack, Rarity and Rainbow Dash.