Hello again. This morning I woke a little early. There is this little flower near the base of my trunk and when I woke up it was still closed. I spent the next few hours just watching it. It was amazing. Since I became a tree, I don’t have anything I have to do anymore so I was finally able to watch a flower bloom. It took the longest time but I watched and urged it on. Then, when it finally bloomed, it was this beautiful pink flower.
I couldn’t help it, I just kept watching and saw it drink the morning dew on its leaves and petals and then we both just started taking in the sun. There is something so invigorating about the sun. I know plants need it to live but I had no idea that it was sooooo relaxing. It was a good morning.
Angelbunny came to visit again. He has been coming by every few days since he figured out I became a tree. But lately, he has been coming by almost every day, working tirelessly by my roots. It all started happening since those ponies started showing up at my old cottage. Twilight has been coming by with Applejack to look after my animals every day and night since…but this past week, Twilight has been bringing these other ponies I haven’t seen before to my cottage. Since then, Angelbunny keeps coming by every day and digging.
I think he is building a burrow. Oh how nice that would be! Every day I wake up to the flowers blooming, the birds singing, and now Angelbunny nestled with my roots. But why would Angelbunny be making a new home under me? I mean, I guess he has the cottage now so why this new home? Maybe it’s just a vacation home for when he is feeling lonely. That’s sweet.
Well, I guess I should stop putting it off. I did not really want to talk about that night from a month ago when Twilight came back to my cottage with my friends but I guess I can now. It just sometimes feels like I’ve become an even larger burden now that I am a tree.
***
That night, when Twilight came back with my other friends, they were panicked. Right away I knew something was wrong, but I didn’t know what. First they all went into my cottage and I wasn’t sure what they were doing but it looked like they were in every room. I saw each one of my old cottage’s light turn on. At least it looked like Applejack took care of my animals when she was looking around the yard.
Thinking back, I guess I should’ve realized they were looking for me. It’s just that I didn’t yet know I was lost because I was right here. But I guess it makes sense that they would think I’m lost because no one besides Angelbunny knew I was a tree.
I only realized that they were looking for me after Angelbunny led them out of the cottage. I was wondering what my friends were doing in my cottage when all of a sudden, the front door flew open and they all came running out with Angelbunny in the lead. Angelbunny was leading them to me.
When they got to me, Angelbunny started to furiously point at me. I still wasn’t sure what was going on at that moment but I knew something was wrong. They all look so worried and even Pinkie Pie, who was always so bouncy and cheerful, was hanging her head and trying to choke back tears.
Twilight stepped forward and looked around on either side of me. It was what she said next that broke my heart…
“Why are we here, Angelbunny? We’re wasting time, we’re supposed to be looking for Fluttershy! Dear Celestia, please let her be alright…Come on girls, we need to find our friend. We don’t have time for games.”
With that, they ran off. Angelbunny hopped up and down angrily for a few seconds, never turning his paw away from me, but it was no use. He eventually gave up and let his ears droop in defeat. I barely noticed that though because of what Twilight just said. Her words finally made me realize what was going on.
My friends didn’t know I was a tree. They were worried. They were crying. It was all my fault…
How could I have been so stupid and selfish? Here I was, enjoying my days, acting like nothing was wrong but I didn’t think about what it would mean to everyone else if I became a tree! First the animals had no one to care for them, now my friends thought I was missing! What else? What other wrongs have I done by only thinking of myself? I should’ve been the element of dumbo-ness. All I am is a big dumbo.
But then I felt something at the base of my trunk. Angelbunny was hugging me. Despite everything, Angelbunny still supported and loved me. I was so touched at that moment, it made me forget my sadness for a while. But it wasn’t completely gone. It isn’t easy to forget about all the lives you ruin.
I watched in silence and sadness as my friends continued their search. Angelbunny sat next to me watching and shaking his head. It truly was gut-wrenching for me to see them. They were running around, yelling my name, wondering where I could be. As the night dragged on, they became more worried and frenzied. They all gathered outside of the Everfree forest.
At that point, my (heart?) raced. I didn’t want them to go in there. It was much too dangerous. I longed to call out to them, to tell them I was here, that I was okay but I couldn’t make a sound.
Pleaseeee, I begged, Don’t let them go in there.
Maybe something heard me, at least I’d like to think so, because they didn’t go in. At first it looked like they were. Twilight started to, but Applejack held her back and pulled her away. Instead, Rainbow Dash flew up and went over the trees, yelling my name.
At some point, they finally left.
***
That night I wept. I’m not even sure if I ever went to sleep, I just had too much on my mind. When I became a tree, I was only thinking of myself. I should have been thinking of everyone else. I was the element of kindness, but what I was doing to my friends was anything but. Maybe I could turn back into a pony? Maybe, in the morning, they’d come by again and find me asleep on my couch, snuggled close to Angelbunny. Celestia knows they probably wished that would be the case. Then they would joke around and be a little angry but really just be relieved I was safe. I’d apologize and everything could go back the way they were. I would forget all this tree business and be happy with my life.
But that wasn’t the case. As much as I willed, I couldn’t turn back. Was this some kind of joke? Being a tree was supposed to be a miracle, all I have ever wished for. Instead, it was this. I had only been a tree for a short while and there was the joy and beauty but there was so much more pain and sadness than I have ever felt before. In such a small time period too! Was being a tree always going to be like this?
I continued to ponder and weep. Angelbunny had already gone back to the cottage at this point. The tears made time pass by so quickly. Before I knew it, it was morning again.
Fate is cruel. Just as I was finally calming down, my friends returned. Of course one of them would have to come back to care for the animals but more than one came. All my friends were there, and with them...it looked like half the town at least.