//------------------------------// // Death Is An Illusion // Story: Life and Future // by AshuraZXexianGlitch //------------------------------// Section 3 Death Is An Illusion "I'm so tired of waiting!" I heard a voice say. It sounded like Twilight, but much darker. I looked at her and Synith. I sure as shit wasn't the only one who heard it. "I'll take care of you myself!" "Ash, that sounds like me. What’s going on?" Twilight asked getting close to me. "Actually, I'm unsure what’s happening, just stay calm and stay close to me. Synith, keep a keen eye." We stood there for a minute or two. I didn't want to provoke what might attack us. "Don't move." "Be careful." Twilight warned me before I ventured into the library. But as soon as I got to the middle of the room I heard a grunt come from Synith and Twilight scream. I quickly turned to see Synith fall to the floor unconscious and bleeding. "Ashura!" "Twilight! Synith!" I yelled about to run to them. "Stop! Or I will kill them." I heard Twilight say, but the voice was much darker. I watched as Twilight was pinned to the ground, revealing who was really behind all this. It was Twilight herself. "Sider." I said with rage coursing through my body. The Sider smiled at me. I looked at Synith, she was breathing, which was a good sign. "How did you manifest?" "Recesserit a re." She said with a smile. She looked at Twilight, I had a bad feeling. Something was missing, I was missing something. "How did you manifest!" I screamed at the Sider. Her smile dropped, but then appeared again. "Recesserit a re." She said again. "Hic tamen revera quomodo? Dic mihi now!" I yelled angry as all hell. "Depression tastes so good." She said forcing Twilight up. She held Twilight's neck and licked her cheek. I stood a step toward them and the Sider frowned. "Take another step and I break her neck." "I swear if you hurt her." "What kill me? You'd kill me either way. Maybe you’re only feeding me. Twilight is holding a secret, oh secrets are bad." She said licking Twilight again. "She's depressed, very depressed. It's so good to taste, it really is Ashura. You use to love the taste yourself, didn't you?" "Shut up, you don't know me!" I yelled angry. "She has been depressed, ever since you came Glitch. Isn't that right Twilight?" She asked Twilight. "That isn't true Ash." She said giving me a hopeless look that told me it was true. Honestly I already knew, I couldn't stop her feelings, how could I. She had to feel what she was feeling and I had to make the best of it. "Shut up you bitch." The Sider said with a smile. "If I was being hunted, if I had someone come into my life protecting me. Yeah, I think I'd be a little depressed about it." I said trying to think of something. If I didn't do something Synith would bleed out? "You’re always being hunted Writer." She was right, I came here trying to escape. All I did was bring a new threat to everyone in Equestria. "I can wait till she bleeds Writer." "Do you really think I won't find you? I'll find you just like I always do Sider, Twilight will be fine, and everything will be fine." I said walking toward them. "You can try if you want Writer, but this time, everything will come to an end. I will take her life, and he will take yours." A cloud of darkness engulfed them. I rushed to Synith's side and looked outside. I saw a brown earth pony and a grey pegasus. "Help! Please, I need help!" "What happened?" The brown pony ran up to me. "She's been hurt, please help me carry her to the hospital." I pleaded, I needed to get Synith help as fast as I could. Then I needed to find that Sider and save Twilight. "Derpy, warn the hospital." The earth pony said to the pegasus. "Yes Doctor." She said before taking off into the sky. "Doc, we need to hurry." I said as we got Synith on our backs. "I agree, why do I feel like I've met you before?" He asked as we made our way to the hospital. "Because you have Doctor, but that's for another time, time you haven't had yet." After I got Synith help I left as quickly as I could. I had to track down this Sider and save Twilight. But I had real no way of tracking them down. The only real chance I had was following them through the cloud, but I had to help Synith. Man this went to shit fast. "It's not like you to lose your cool." I heard an old friend's voice say behind me. "ZXex?" The guy was being dramatic I'll tell you that right now. When I turned around I saw nothing. "Of course, you never did like to actually be here. Just floating in the back of my head." "Should I be insulted?" He asked, I looked at the sun. It was setting, it would be dark soon. "You tell me?" I said with a chuckle. I swear my head was going to explode, I was over thinking this. I just needed to stay calm, but I couldn't. I just couldn't get myself calm. "I remember you telling all of us that a deep breath can go a long way." He said laughing. I was always the helping one, always there to help anyone. I was the shoulder for others to lean on when they had no one else. I mended other's wounds, all of my friends. I took in a deep breath. "Thanks ZXexian." He didn't answer back. I think I knew how to find Twilight, or better yet knew where to look. Feelings suck, they really do suck. I tried to be professional and it blew up in my face. Of course she would be depressed. Things were just getting better, that's why the Sider came. Twilight wasn't feeling depressed, the Sider had to act or she would lose power. As far as I could see, Twilight was saved and dead at the same time. "Don't worry Twi, I'll save you even if it kills me." I headed toward the Everfree forest. I knew the place was supposed to be unnatural and evil. It would be the perfect place for a Sider to go. Dark and creepy, yep home sweet home. I was taking my time, trusting an odd feeling I had. But I found myself lost fairly quickly and easy. It got even better when a Timber wolf decided to attack me. Bet no one knew if they scratched under their chin they turn friendly and helpful. It made finding Twilight much easier, they have a keen sense of smell. "It just had to get better, that Writer just had to make things better!" "Actually it was her friends that really changed her mood." I said rubbing the Timber Wolf on the head. It scurried off afterword. I looked at Sider Twilight, she looked scared. "How did you find me?" She asked concerned for her safety. She was lucky I wouldn't kill her in front of Twilight. "Twilight's perfume was easy to track with the right nose." I said walking up to them. Twilight was tied up laying on the ground. She had a smile on her face. "Rarity made it, it's supposed to smell like sweet raspberry." She said laughing. "Never would have figured it would save my life." "I'll be back, I swear I'll be back. I've stored power and you know it Writer. If it's the last thing I do I will have both of your blood, I will bath in it." She said quickly vanishing in a cloud of smoke. I ran as quickly as I could, but I was too late. Once I reached her nothing was left but the darkness. I was engulfed in the darkness for a little. I felt something come over me, something I hadn't felt in the long time. I shook the disgusting thought out of my head and went over to Twilight. "Are you alright?" She asked me. I was confused as I untied her. "Shouldn't I be asking you that?" I asked when she was free. "I've been yelling at you for an hour. You were just standing there, looking off into the distance." She asked giving me a questionable face. "Are you sure about that?" I asked wanting to make sure I was hearing her right. But she was right, the sun had changed its position in the sky. "Yes, I'm sure about that Ash. What happened?" She asked taking a step toward me. She looked me in the eye. "Something that hasn't happened for a very long time." I said looking away from her feeling ashamed. "What?" She asked trying to look me in the eye again. "Evil, something very evil." Twilight knew I was hiding something from her but she sure as shit wasn't making it easy to tell. When we got back to the library she was calm and collected. She didn't bring up the Sider or what happened. She was just silent, well almost, she said hello to everyone we passed when we got into Ponyville. It was like she was trying to pretend that everything was normal. Can't blame her really, shit was going bad quickly. But she was brave, and strong, she would be able to pull through this. "You are so curious to me." I said to her. She stood there in the middle of the room. She looked around before she looked at me. Her looked was one of mutual feeling. "I feel the same Ash, you’re a mystery to me. I guess we have something in common." She said with a smile. I couldn't help but smile. She started to laugh. Twilight nearly died and she was laughing, she was just amazing. Like no other creature I have ever met. She was brilliant and brave. "Twilight, why do you trust me?" I asked her walking closer to her. I looked her in the eyes, and she held my stare. Something changed in her, something she found again that she had lost. "Because you risked your life for mine, for Synith. I think you'd die before anything would happen to anyone. You'd do anything in your power to keep everyone safe. That's why I trust you, it took me a while to see that, but I get it now." She said with a sigh. To be completely honest, I had something for Twilight. I felt really close to her. I looked away from her and felt a little stupid. "I do what I can Twi. I just want to help as much as I can, make a difference in this world." I said feeling regretful. "That Sider is here because of me. It's my fault you’re in danger, and for that I am sorry." "Shut up, don't say stupid things you dummy." She said before she kissed me. She fricken kissed me, Twilight kissed me. It caught me off guard. She pulled away, and I was sure both of us were feeling little bashful. I knew I was, and the look on her face. We kissed again, that's when I felt an imminence pain go through my whole body. Twilight backed away gasping in fright. I guess anyone would have if they just saw someone in front of them get stabbed through the chest. "Oh Celestia..." Twilight said horrified. I looked down and saw the tip of the blade sticking out of my chest. My whole body was hot. I felt light headed and couldn't stop myself from falling to the ground. "Shit..." I felt myself black out. I may be able to heal fast and can survive some things that others would die from. Well this was a little different. This was worse, this was a blade from my origin. At this very moment I was bound to this world. I was dying. "Didn't expect to see this blade did you?" I heard a familiar voice said. I could barely see, all I saw was a fuzz face. But I knew who it was, it was me. "Atom..." At that moment I had died. To this world I was dead, I sat there in a black void. This was a familiar place, I saw this place before anything started. The place where I was before I was born. The Realm of Broken Reality, the gray of a black and white reality. Twilight: "Ashura!" I yelled as I saw the life fade from his eyes. I went to his side, his stare was fixated straight ahead. He was gone and nothing was bringing him back. I looked at the pony who had killed him. He looked just like Ashura, but with blue instead of red in his mane and his blue eyes were cold. "Why!" "Because I felt like it. Now shut up and die." He said pulling the blade out of Ashura's body. His blood spilled onto the wood floor. I gasped in horror. He walked toward me, I backed away till I hit the wall. He smiled as he crept closer to me. I felt an immense pain as the crimson blade was dug into my body. My whole body felt like it was on fire. I felt myself fall to the ground, after that nothing. I felt cold, I saw only darkness, an eternal darkness. "Hello?" I asked and my voice echoed. I looked around and saw nothing, just black. "What happened?" "You’re dead." I heard someone say. I looked around and there stood not too far away was a pony who looked like Ashura. But this one had green instead of blue or red. "What do you mean by that?" I asked, I was in denial. Although who could blame me, I just died and it didn't register in my mind yet. "I mean exactly as it sound, you’re dead. Your life is up." He said looking away from me. Something didn't register. Why were there three Ashuras? Why were they different colors? Something just didn't make sense. "Who are you? Why do you look exactly like Ashura?" I asked walking closer to him. He took a few steps away from me. "Please just stay where you are, it hurts to even look at you." He said looking away for a second. "I look like him because I want to, let’s leave it at that alright Miss Sparkle. To answer your question, Ashura named me ZXexian I am nothing really. At least I was nothing, but that's not important, what is important is you. You took control Miss Sparkle, and you have to help Ashura." "What is that supposed to mean?" I asked, he looked away again like he was sad to see me. This stallion was confusing me and also irritating. "What brings living beings back to life?" He asked looking up. I looked up as well and saw only black. "Gods?" I asked. "Precisely, and love. You feel it Twi.....Miss Sparkle, so bring him back." After that he vanished and the next thing I knew I was breathing hard looking around. I was in my library, I looked at myself and didn't see any blood and or wounds. I was fine, then I looked at where Ashura was lying dead on the floor. "Ash..." I said feeling myself cry. "What am I supposed to do?" "You were supposed to die." I heard someone say. I looked at him and it was Ashura, but this one was blue instead of green or red. "Why are there three of you?" I asked. "He named me Atom. He told you about me, I'm sure of that." He said walking up to me. I backed up but I only hit the wall behind me. "You were supposed to die with him. But ZXex wouldn't let that happen would he. I hate those two so much, always has a way to get free. Death could never touch them." "What do you want?" I asked trying to be brave. "I want life you stupid girl. I want to live but he won't let me. If he could die then I would live. I just need you to die you god damn fucking bitch!" He yelled punching me. My mind went numb and my vision became blurry. Atom had me pinned to the wall. At first I thought I was going to be killed again. But the next thing that happened caught me off guard. He kissed me, I was shocked. I had no idea what I should have done. When he pulled away, I felt my mind come back. I pushed him away from me. "Forget it girl. He'll come back, but it will be the last time." He said disappearing afterword. I went to Ashura's side. Why did everyone say he'd come back. Now that I even think of it, how did I come back? "Twilight?" I heard him ask. He pushed up a little. He looked at me and his eyes were blue. When he blinked they turned red again. "What happened?" "We...we died." I wasn't sure how to answer honestly. How could I answer, technically we were supposed to be dead. But he was breathing and so was I. "Ash, what happened?" "You said we died right?" He asked sitting up and looking at me. His eyes flashed blue again and then back to red. I wasn't sure what to make of this. "Yeah that's right. ZXex and Atom were very clear on that." I said, the look on his face caught me off guard for a second. "Son of a... Twilight, who rules over death?" He asked worked up. He was scaring me honestly. I looked into his eyes, they flashed blue again and then back. What was going on with his eyes? I wasn't sure what to do, so I just answered him. "Well, technically Luna." I said, every pony should have known that. He was acting strange. "The living can't manage the dead. Twilight, we aren't in Equestria anymore. What did ZXex say to you?" He asked, again with his eyes, but this time they seemed to stay a little bit longer than they did before. "He asked me what can bring the dead back to life, and I answered 'Gods.' Then he told me that love can bring them back too." I asked. His eyes didn't turn back to red this time. He looked around like he was afraid. This wasn't like him, he wasn't acting normal. I pushed him away. "Who are you?" "Twilight? What are you talking about, it's me." He said his eyes remaining blue. He looked positively frantic. This wasn't Ashura, he was calm and collected, even when he was freaking out. "No you’re not you, you are not Ash!" I yelled at him. "Bah! Let me guess, it was the eyes. Never could get them to stay, hides them well that guy. Petty fool if you ask me, tries to hide himself, but when he looks in the mirror he sees his true eyes. Well Twilight Sparkle, this is where I have to go, after all this is just a dream." Ashura: Ugh dead again. Man it hurts dying it really dose, I swear there is no peaceful way to go out. I've been shot, I've been drowned, I've fallen off of a cliff, I've been mash, smashed, crushed, torn apart, mutilated, decapitated, bleed to death, burned alive. I could go on, but I guess I should be more worried about the guy standing near me. "You again." Death said, I looked at my body and then turned to look at him. I started laughing, man the guy look stupid in pony form. "You look ridiculous." I said still laughing. "Shut up, you coming this time or not?" He asked, the guy was always business. Never could do anything but his job. I gave the guy a look that answered his question. "How long you have?" I asked, the guy looked at his watch and looked back at me. His white glowing eyes glared at me, obviously he didn't have a lot of time to deal with me. "A year." He said with irritation. "Wow, you really don't have the time. You sure you don't just want to pop me back into my body, so you can go on with your business. Cause you know I'll win either way." I said giving him a snide smirk. "Ugh, fine. I will get you someday Ashura, and you're going straight to hell." He said before he vanished. "Hell doesn't exist you twit." I said, I felt myself getting tired. I then awoke inside of my body, no wounds or anything. I was lucky to be truthful, if Death wasn't so busy I would have had to fight him. I've only been lucky enough to ward him off, but luck can only take you so far. He is right, someday he will get me, like he gets everyone. I pushed myself off the ground and looked at Twilight. Her eyes were open, but they were missing one important thing. Her eyes were completely white, I slammed my hoof on the ground. "Dammit!" She was trapped now, I failed. She could easily break, I did when it happened to me. Twilight was on her own for this one, all I could do was wait and hope. I got Twilight on my back, her whole body was limp. Wasn't surprised, her body was missing her soul and mind. I took her to her bed and tucked her under the covers. That was the only useful thing I could do at this point. Twilight: Atom disappeared, like just gone. I blinked once or twice to make sure they weren't playing tricks on me. I then found myself in a field, one that I recognized. How could I not know this place, me and my friends had picnics here? This is also where we would come and play with our pets. One question rang through my head. "How did I get here?" "Like I said girl, this is a dream. Well maybe not a dream per-say, basically it's what your mind wants to see before you die." I looked around and saw Atom laying on a branch in a tree, he was laying like Rainbow Dash in her spot. He was laying exactly like her too, she was always in the same position every time I saw her in that tree. "What, I can't be dead. This feels all too real, besides your here aren't you." I asked, Atom looked at me and laughed. He rolled and started to fall. He landed on all four hooves like a cat. "Reality is just a play of the mind girl. Reality is thinner than you think, trust me. I'm only here to see you rot you stupid girl, I'm here to make sure you don't find the way back to your body. So you will die, then my little pet can kill Ash. Once that is done I will be real, and I can control everything!" He said, he was sounding much like a super villain right now. He was very vain, almost deranged. I'll defiantly have to ask Ashura about him once I see him. He seems very different then what I imagined. "How could you control anything, you deranged idiot." Reality, the imagination is powerful. Could it really change reality? I shook the thought out of my head, that's was stupid. Atom was just trying to mess with me. "I'm more powerful then you know girl." He said with a hard voice. I must have hit a nerve. This guy’s ego was huge, it reminded me of Trixie. "I have great power! Ashura is the only wall that is blocking my rightful path, once he is dead, I will be free!" "Who says, if you’re so great, how come Ashura is stopping you?" I asked, the guy looked at me. He got serious, he seemed normal for a bit. "Because he made me." Okay then, I've stepped into loonyville, and now were are strolling down crazy lane. I looked at him and his expression did not change, he seemed different then he did a few minutes ago. "You serious?" I asked, he nodded his head. How was that even possible? This felt real, and Atom was in front of me. This wasn't making a lick of sense. "Why would I kid about that? That doesn't even matter now, cause you will die and I will live." He said going back to his deranged side. I ran toward Ponyville. I had to get back to my body. I figured if I could find my body then I can get back inside. ZXex said I was still alive, maybe my mind and body were separated. If I could just join them, this would stop Atom. But when I entered Ponyville I found myself in the temple of the two pony sisters. I saw Nightmare moon, just like when I first met my friends. "What?" I asked, everything was happening like it did before. My friends had ran into the room. I got up and ran, then I heard myself say, "You think you can stop..." I ran out the door and then found myself at Applejacks barn. I looked around, this was insane, I was moving to different places in my memory. "Yes and no." "What?" I looked around and I saw ZXex walking up to me. His green eyes seemed to glow. "This is a realm Ashura created. You have two parts of you lost here, one has to remain here and play out its role. The other, which is you needs to return to the main realm." "I'm just going mad, please tell me I'm just crazy!" The look on his face held no joking or anything, just seriousness. None if this made sense. "Sorry Miss Sparkle, but this is a reality. In actuality there is an infinite amount of realities, all co-existing as one. They are separate, but together at the same time. Right now you are in one that exists through memory and death. It has two zones, one of memory and the other is death. Right now a part of you is stuck in the death zone." My head was spinning, this was a lot to take it. "I think I'm feeling sick." I said feeling nausea set up house in my stomach. "What does this have to do with my situation now?" "In due time Miss Sparkle, everything makes sense in the end, I swear it will. Now, Atom has trapped you here, keeping you here long enough will drive Ashura to madness. See, you’re not dead, you’re just stuck. Ash has a light mental stability, losing people drives him to anger. Now I. Your condition he is losing you but also not. It will drive him to depression again. If that happens, Atom will have the power to do what he wants." He said, ZXex was wearing Ashura's Fedora. Ashura, Atom, Zxex, I get Atom is Ash's side he banishes. Like he said he's his Sider. But who was ZXex, or should I say ZXexian, which is Ashura's middle name. "I wouldn't worry about who I am." He said, he knew what I was thinking? "How?" I asked. "Just don't worry about it alright." He said with a sigh. "I'm trying to help you, I shouldn't be able too, but rules can bend. Now, like you thought before. If you can find your body, you'll return to Ashura. But you have to come to fact with your worse fear. It is stowed away with the memories you don't want to remember, your regrets, anger, depression, anything bad. To put it bluntly, you have to take on your Sider." "Isn't that dangerous?" I asked, the scene around us changed, we were in the Everfree Forest. "Nah, you’re in your mind you can't get hurt here." He said, wasn't sure if he was being sarcastic or what. "At least, think that and hope it’s true." "Well that makes me feel better." I said looking around. "Wait, I think I remember this. Yeah, this is when I was turned to stone." "Sounds pleasant." ZXex said sarcastically. "I have to find my regrets, fine, let’s go." I said walking into the woods. I then found myself in Magic Kindergarten. "This place brought back great memories." "Little ones." ZXex said sounding really sad. I looked at him, he looked like he was about to cry. "What? Go on, look to see if your here." "Okay then." I felt ZXex's eyes on me, there was something really odd about him. I looked at where I was sitting, I was at my desk drawing in a coloring book. Then the bullies came. "We are close, I think at least." "Try the door." I went to the classroom door and opened it. I found myself in a classroom. One from my teen years. I was sitting at my desk studying. "This don't look so bad." "If we stayed long enough..." I went through another door and found myself in the class hall. Celestia had wanted me to spend a month in a normal school. To make friends and meet other. It didn't go over well. "Get her!" I was being chased through the halls by some bullies. I was the nerd, and was always picked on. Kind of one of the reasons I didn't have any friends. "I think I know where I need to go." I said, I went through another door and found myself in the school's courtyard. I looked away from what I saw. I was yelling at someone. Her named was Sugar Bell. He liked me, and was probably my only friend I ever had besides maybe Spike or my brother. I stormed off, and he stood there with tears in his eyes. "The boy?" ZXex asked. "He was my only friend in school. I was yelling at him because I had a very bad day. He didn't deserve it, I was young and stupid. It's all my fault." I said feeling guilty. I wanted to cry, but I kept following him. He was mocking me, complaining, and making valid points. He had always helped me. I was so cruel to him. "I think I know where this is going." ZXex said sounding quite depressed. He walked into his house, we followed close by. I was feeling regret and anger. Sugar Bell was still complaining and yelling, he was getting madder and madder. Sugar Bell had killed himself that night. His mother had found him, bleed himself dry. I watched helplessly as he cut himself over and over, deeper with ever cut. "I love movies like this." Atom said. I looked at him, and he was smiling. I looked at ZXex, who was watching. Sadness was all over his face. "I got a message, telling me Sugar Bell had committed suicide. I told the princess, she comforted me. We attended his funeral. His mother and father had blamed me. It was my fault, in a way, I murdered my friend." I felt tears lightly forming in my eyes. I looked a ZXex, he looked like a wreck. "I can take this away girl, all this regret can go away. Just walk away." Atom said. I looked at him, it was a tempting offer, but I wasn't a fool. I took in a deep breath and walked toward Sugar Bell. He was dead just yet, his breathing was rapid and his eyes were moving wild. "I'm sorry." I said as I felt his blood pool at my hooves. I felt warmth come over me. I felt tired and couldn't keep myself up. I saw black, and I started to feel extremely cold. Ashura: I felt myself going nuts. Twilight was still in that coma. I was afraid she'd never make it out of there. I was passing in the main entrance, when Synith came crashing through the door. "What the hell? Synith, what are you doing here. You should be resting." She looked at me with anger. "No! I want to kill that bitch, fucking stabbing me from behind! It's pathetic and cowardly!" She was pissed, that was clear as day. Once she looked at my condition her anger vanished. "What happened?" She asked forgetting about Sider Twilight. "I got her back...but not all of her." I said leading her to Twilight's room. Twilight was tossing and turning like she was having a night terror. I closed the door. "I'm not sure she'll make it out." "What do you mean?" Synith asked looking worried. I looked at her with remorse. I felt old, sad, and angry, ugh it was working. Atom was trying to work it, but I'm not stupid, no matter how I feel. He won't be free. "She is stuck in the in-between, death hasn’t taken her yet and she isn't alive. It difficult to explain, her body is well and okay. But her mind is somewhere else. She has a grab on her body, but she could slip at any given moment." I said looking at the door. That happened to me once, the first time I died actually. Death wasn't happy, hasn't been happy since he met me. Life is absolute, it always fights. I fought death and won. But my time will come, everyone's time comes. "Is there anything we can do?" She asked, I looked at her. She was bleeding through her bandages. Obviously she left abruptly in the hospital. Wouldn't doubt if we had people from the hospital dropping by to take her back. "Make sure you don't die for one. You need to be more careful." I said leading her away from Twilight's room. She followed willingly. "Take off the bandage, I'm going to have to replace the stitching." "Alright." She said taking a seat. Synith took of the bandages and I was able to see the cut she had. Ever stitch had been broken. "It hurts." "Probably, you had must have had a lot of adrenaline going through you." I got the first aid kit, got out the cleaning alcohol. "Hold still, this is going to sting." I cleaned the wound with the liquid. Synith clenched her teeth and moaned in pain. I took the thread and needle and carefully stuck into her skin. She was doing a great job at holding still. The stitching didn't take long. "There, now don't move around too much, or you’re going back to the hospital." "Alright." She said calmly, she was probably a little out of it thanks to the pain. I started to wrap the sittings in gauze. Once that was done Synith laid down on the hard wood. "I feel light headed." "That's what happens when you freak out like that. You need to be careful Hun." I said putting the first aid kit away, it wasn't much of a first aid kit, more like a small portable doctor's office. What could I say, I tried to be prepared for anything, well almost anything. "Can I ask you a question?" She asked, I continued to pace like I was before. "You just did." I said with a chuckle. "No I'm serious." She said the life coming back to her. "Of course, shoot." I said still making my rounds. "How come you can heal so fast, and know about all this?" She asked calmly. "That's two questions Hun. I heal fast because I'm suppose to be dead, and I know what's going on because I created it and it happened to me." I said feeling guilt flush over me. "What do you mean dead, and created. Please make some sense Ashura." She said with a little irritating in her voice. I sighed and stopped pacing. I went over to her and sat on the ground just in front of her. "Reality is thin, I'm a writer. I made a story about Siders, and it came true. Now there is reason it came to reality, and that is because it was based on truth. Life, life is absolute. Life will always fight, death cannot stop it all together. He can only hinder it. I died and I fought off Death. I was lucky to have won." I said feeling all the memories flush back to me. "Its punishment, I'm being punished Synith. Because I know who or should I say what I'll become. The day I truly die, it's nothing I'd ever wish on anyone ever." "Who is punishing you?" She asked, I looked in a different direction. Not because I saw something, I was just staring off into space. "I am. I don't understand it myself. I created worlds by accidents, brought things to life. For a split second, I created, I became a god. But I have to live with it, I have to control it. I'm no god, I have powers only to help myself in this battle. But it's a losing battle. How can you make everyone feel happy and good forever? Disasters always happen, everyone feels sad, regret, anger, etc. It opens a door for Siders. They cause it, they are beings of chaos. Chaos within the heart, they can make you feel worse if you’re not strong enough to fight it. Not many are strong to fight it off all the time." I felt tired. "You’re fighting them, you’re fighting off the bad feelings all the time aren't you?" She got it, bingo, jackpot, yazee. "Yeah, it's hard Synith. Usually they keep only to me. But for some reason they have been getting stronger, I fear soon some will take control of their counterparts. For once Synith I'm afraid." Synith didn't say anything after that. I was sure she didn't know what to think. I then found myself running into Twilight's room. She was screaming, like she was in terrible pain. I went to her bedside. Her eyes were open, and her true eyes were back.