//------------------------------// // (38) Thoughts: 2 // Story: The nature of the beast. // by Kintra //------------------------------// -------Vinyl Scratch----------- I was still crying. I knew that I would have to tell him. He most likely thought my tears were for him... In a way they were, but they were mostly for myself. I didn’t want to hurt him but I couldn’t take it. I was restless. I needed to go. I needed…I needed excitement... I needed everything he couldn’t give… This stupid mutant... I loved him so much that I wanted to be with him, even at the cost of my sanity. Not like that meant much. Half the time we just hugged and insulted each other. He hadn’t even made a move yet. Was he scared? Or did he think I wasn’t ready? I don’t know. Just one more thing I can’t understand. I need the bass. That’s the only thing I understand for sure. I need my turntables, I need my music. I need crowds screaming my name. Just one “I love you” No matter how sincere…Doesn’t add up to the love you feel when pleasing thousands. “Eclipse?” I said between sniffles. Better get it out of the way now. “Where are you going?” He sounded…Sad. Not angry like I thought. But how did he know? “I was thinking...Manehattan is a big city… Not posh like Canterlot. I can make a name there.” How was he so calm? “Alright… You think 50 gold bits would be good? To get you set up I mean. I can send you more once you have a place settled. But you know I can’t follow you right?” It’s like…he knew this would happen. The more I understand about my favorite mutant the more he confuses me… “Yea… I know. And eclipse… I do love you.” He nodded... I like it when he kisses my horn. It’s a funny feeling. “Yea… I love you too vinyl. And I’m sorry I can’t give you what you need.” I know that voice…he’s beating himself up for something he feels may have been a stupid decision… --------Eclipse--------- How fucking stupid could I have been. I just happen to choose the pony that’s used to thousands screaming her name. There is no WAY I could compete with that. We have been together for what? Two days of conscious time? Two fucking days. Two god damn days to realize that I could never make her happy. Not unless I followed her to Manehattan. But would I? Fuck no. The world may be populated with ponies but one thing I don’t do is big cities. Canterlot at least felt more like a town then a city. “What are you beating yourself up over?” See? This shits too easy for her. “I… I’m pissed at myself for not being able to follow you and love you the way I should. We are so much alike and yet we are so very different. I love you to death vinyl. I do. But I will never live in a city if I can help it. I enjoy the sky far too much. I really am sorry… If we wouldn’t have gotten together then this wouldn’t even be a problem. We would have hugged, id have thrown you some bits and all I would make you promise is that you come visit every now and again. But since we went and entered into a relationship now everything’s taken a whole other meaning.” I wanted to go jump off my balcony to see if the pain could make me feel better. The pain I was already feeling wasn’t physical. And I knew she wouldn’t want me to wait. But really. You ever forget your first anything? “Eclipse… I’m sorry.” Sorry for what? “For? Being yourself? Never be ashamed of that. You are you, and I will always love you, I want you to go. Ponyville just isn’t for you and trying to settle here is just going to hurt you more in the long run.” She started crying harder. Fucking great. “Take the money, take the opportunity. I’ll try and get you any help you need. Shit, maybe in a few days I can get brew working on a teleport pad. No doubts she won’t be as quick as Celestia due the whole ‘no god-tier’ magic. But still. And…I know, you don’t want me to wait for you. But I have to ask. Are you sure?” I just held her until she slowly nodded. That was all I needed. She doesn’t want me to wait…*Sigh* Wonder If I could get rainbow again? Wow. I’m fucking heartless. Wait. No, that’s just me fearing myself if I’m alone. Natural. “Alright...I’m gonna leave you here okay? I’ve got work and stuff to catch up on. Come visit me in town when you have the chance. Ill most likely be at the mayor’s office. Or the spa; may be girly but that steam bath is really relaxing.” I felt her laugh. It made me smile, at least for a moment. ------Brew------- “Shit… shitnononoono!” *Thud* “That’s fifteen times you’ve fallen in just as many minutes. I’m strangely impressed.” The charcoal filly sat on the bed watching as Light repeatedly stood and fell; his legs worked fine but he was used to a human body. Whole different system to work off of. At first she had come in just to use the teleport pad, but seeing light fall was way too much fun. “You know… It wouldn’t be so hard if you ponies could walk on two legs!” She laughed and hopped off the bed then picked herself up until she was. “Takes years of practice, and your way too heavy to do it.” She started strutting around. “I’m a human look at me, so superior on my two legs blah blah.” She was being condescending. But if there is one thing she’s learned about people like light and Eclipse, You want to teach them? You have to show them how much BETTER you are. There is a fine line though. You cross that line and you can make them hate you. Then they will never learn. “Your evil. Okay, Attempt sixteen…” She dropped back to all fours and made Light Lighter with telekinesis. “Okay…Um... Let’s see this leg here. That okay...” He took a deep breath and nodded. She dropped the TK and he looked like he was scared from standing. “OH my GOD why is this so frightening!” She sighed. It was going to be a long day. -------Applejack---------- “So we….” Bulls-eye just nodded. “Ah mean, ah… with yall?” Again.. “Oh man…this is gunna be a doozy to `splain tah granny smith…” Be just laughed. “She doesn’t have to know you know. It can be our…Little….Secret.” Her words were laced in seductive tones. And Applejack loved it. She could have sworn she was straight…But now it makes sense why she had never dated. Be started to nibble on her ear. “Ah sweet Celestia…” No one needed to know…It could be their little secret. -------Big Macintosh------ He was restless last night. They were going to finalize the repairs and fix his jaw today. He didn’t blame eclipse. After he heard what happened with the poison joke it was all okay in his book. One thing he couldn’t get out of his system is that his sister was doing something horrible. And if he knew AJ at all, she was. -------Light-------- Having finally stabilized himself on the twenty fourth try he was wobbling around the room like a pro. If pros wobbled. It was all a bit weebley, the wobbling. He just had to make sure he didn’t fall down. “There you go. See your getting it.” He was getting it, and brew was an amazing teacher. He was sorry to hear that she wasn’t accepted as one. But that’s why she came in here, was to visit the princesses and hopefully get some sort of “Hire her or die” letter. Which to be honest he’s almost certain Celestia would sign off on that. Brew was a genius. Great with kids since she sorta was one herself. And the only pony he had ever met with as much practical magic as her was twilight. And twilight still had Dozens of other spells across all sorts of fields. Oh… Speaking of twilight. “Hey brew, you met twilight yeewooo...” He almost lost his balance. But managed to regain it. “No, I haven’t met twilight, though the way I hear it her and I should get along famously.” Famously? Not likely. You’re a little mean. “Yes! I think she would like you. You’re both super smart and awesome at magic.” “Maybe. Well I’m off; you seem to have yourself under control, doors open! Good luck on the stairs.” With that she jumped onto the pad and did her normal teleport phases. Stairs…. “OH fuck ME!” his legs buckled and he fell to the ground with a thud. “Stairs…” ((this is the last of the "Thoughts" chapters Ill be following Eclipse around again. These were just here as a general "Here now you know some background" Hope you enjoyed them!))