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Sunsday, 10. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
This afternoon I met Fluttershy in the boutique. She was modeling some clothes for my sister. I have never really understood what Rarity means when she calls somepony "fabulous" or how Spike can go all mushy when he talks about my sister.
But I think I got it now.
Fluttershy was wearing the dress Rarity had made for her for the gala last year. I had seen it quite a few times when she worked on it, but I have never seen it on the pony it was made for.
What a view! The little flowers in her mane, the hoofshoes, the dress that emphasizes her great physique! They talked about some alterations to the design but I said that the dress looks fine the way it is. Rarity smiled and said that you can't add to perfection. I guess she is right.
Then Fluttershy modeled some nightwear for us. If I had been uncertain about this before I was completely swayed now. Seeing her in that nightie made me want to snuggle with her, go to bed and wake up together.
Wow! I can't believe I wrote that just now. But reading it again, yes, the butterflies in my belly must be proof, I'm in love with Fluttershy!
I wonder if the butterflies in my stomach are pink too.
We crusaded for flower picking cutie marks. The gardener in Ponyville park was not happy.
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Maresday, 11. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
I got Scootaloo and Apple Bloom to try for cutie mark crusaders chicken rescuers again. The last time was not even close with that cockatrice and all. Thinking about it, we had a sleepover at Fluttershy's and I even got to sing with her. And we wasted it on running around in the forest. I can’t believe how stupid that was.
I wonder if she would sing with me again.
But when we got to the cottage all the chickens were in their coop. Fluttershy promised to call us if one of them got lost again. She is such a nice pony.
We had apples and sandwiches at school, there was no crusading because there were no lost chickens to find.
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Featherday, 12. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
We had terrible weather today. Some storm swept in from the Everfree Forest. I didn't get to see Fluttershy today but I accompanied Rarity to the library. I wonder if I look as lovey-dovey as him around Fluttershy. I hope not.
But I understand him a bit better now, I think. What I wouldn't do to be over at her house now, sitting on her couch, looking out into the rain. I wonder if she is lonely with only the critters to keep her company. Butterflies in my stomach all day.
There was only oatmeal for lunch at school today and no crusading. Stupid storm!
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Earthday, 13. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
I went to the spa with Fluttershy and Rarity! What a day! We had hooficures and massages and I had my horn filed! I couldn't stay long in the sauna for long though. But I got to talk with Fluttershy for a really long time. I told her all about what we did in school today and she told me all about how she spend yesterday. The storm knocked over some trees in the forest next to her cottage! Fluttershy is so brave to live alone out there!
No school meal today because the rain got into the storage, but Applejack brought two barrels of apples over. No crusading again. Scootaloo is getting antsy already.
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Stallionsday, 15. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
I visited Fluttershy yesterday and helped her with things around the cottage. We build a birdhouse and nests. I only ignited one and Fluttershy said it wasn’t badly burned. We talked about this and that and finally I gathered all my courage and asked her if she had ever been in love. She got really quiet but then she told me about a stallion from Cloudsdale she once had a crush on, but it didn’t work out. Then I asked her if she could imagine to love a mare and she looked at me really strange. And said that she was flattered that I would try to get her together with Rarity, but she was only interested in stallions.
I didn’t say anything after that and left when we were done. I went to my room and cried myself to sleep.
In the morning I told my parents that I had a tummyache and stayed in bed all day. I thought a lot about live and love and things. Do I really “swing that way”? Will this change how I look at Apple Bloom and Scootaloo?
Rarity came over in the afternoon and said that Fluttershy had told her about it. After she Pinkie-promised not to gossip to anyone, I told her the truth. She said that maybe it was just a crush (I don’t think so!) and even if I was interested in mares, I was still her sister and she would always love me, whatever way I go.
I think I love Rarity even more now.
As a sister!
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Moonday, 16. Awakening 2002 after Discord
Dear Diary,
I was at the boutique today when Fluttershy visited. I felt a bit sad when I saw her. She told me that some of her chickens had run away and were now loose at Sweet Apple Acres. Then she left to tell Scootaloo too. I asked Rarity if the pain in my heart would ever go away. She said that it’s like with a cutie mark. Once you find it all the times that you didn’t get it will turn into happy memories and that ponies grow with experiences.
I thought about it all the way to Sweet Apple Acres to help Applebloom. I hope Rarity is right.
We didn’t get chicken rescuers cutie marks but Granny Smith made her great apple cake for us. And when we brought the chickens home I didn’t feel so sad anymore because Fluttershy gave each of us a hug and a kiss.
But not that way.