//------------------------------// // Of our thoughts // Story: Luna Alone, Remembrance of the past // by bloodwings //------------------------------// Maybe one day I can forgive you for this but today I cannot for the tears flow and pain flows into darkness underneath feeding the nightmare within in me. Jealously is a thorn nagging at my heart and tearing to its core. You who bring the sun, my sister and my best friend I love you but I hate you. I want your power I want the love they give you. As I sit on the moon a foreign yet familiar ground under my hooves I think. I think into the silence my thoughts are the color of blue sky and warm sunlight my sounds are your loving voice with fear, wanting, regret, sadness and thick with pain begging me to stop before you shot me to this foreign yet familiar world. I want to rule Equestria with my night instead of your bright sun my dear sister. I wanted to see people with smiles as they baked cakes, picked apples and hear fillies playfully scream and run around until they roll on the ground full of laughter. Instead of that I have the cold empty night with no baked cakes, no picked apples, no smiles and no laughter. This foreign and familiar world is so dark and cold and silent. There are no smiles and laughter in this place and it makes me shed cold tears upon my cheeks. My dream is gone and the nightmare grows good bye my dear sister good bye my beautiful Equestria. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon To truly feel loneness is a pain that no pony deserves to feel. I was never alone in Equestria. I was never the only pony on a foreign and familiar world. My words that I spoke were never the only the words I heard. My words filled with coldness, revenge and most of all regret. This regret I can never take back. A jealous mind spanning years filled with poisoned thoughts and tongues. Many words never said until too late. My poisoned words broke a kingdom a bond a heart and Equestria. We were of harmony yet all I felt was chaos. My sister’s words were of control, warmth, and loving. She was of harmony. I was of a chaos that I could not control. I was loved by my people and by my sister but I did not feel it. If they loved me why did they sleep? Why did they never do what they did for sister? WHY? I WAS I NOT WORTHY OF THERE TIME ONLY THERE SLEEP ONLY THEIR DREAMS? WOULD THEY PRAISE ME IN THEIR DREAMS I THINK NOT! I WANT MORE! I DESERVED MORE EQUESTRIA! Princess Luna Nightmare Moon • Princess Luna of Equestria • Princess of Harmony • Princess of Night • Princess of Dreams • Luna of Chaos • Luna of Jealously • Luna of Hate • Luna of Not Herself • Luna of Spiteful remarks • Luna Interruptions • Luna the child • Luna the sick of it • Luna of control • Luna of failing • Nightmare Luna • Night Luna • Nightmare Moon These titles tell the story of my short and sad life. The titles that tell of truth I do not want to think about. I earned them by my own hooves I earned them. The chaos begged to be let out. It screamed to me telling me the clam and harmony filled Luna was a lie. I was the chaos and she was me. It was too tempting not to peel away the skin of my lies and be who I really was. I knew the risk and I decided upon I plan I thought would work beautifully. The chaos came out and I let it come. I thought I could control it to be of both chaos and harmony. As I let it out I found no harmony left in my heart. Maybe it was there somewhere but I could not feel. Maybe I did not want to feel it. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon Who I am I? How have I become this? I don’t want this I never wanted this. I wanted smiles and wanted laugher not this. I wanted ponies to love and hate. DID YOU REALLY THINK THEY WOULDNT HATE YOU? WHO CARES ABOUT HATE WHEN YOU HAVE POWER! ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER! NIGHTMARE MOON! No I am not you. OF COURSE YOU ARE ME AND I AM YOU. WE ARE NIGHTMARE MOON! No I will never let be. I won’t let it be so. I know I will wake no I know I will wake up in my bed in Equestria. OH REALLY AND HOW LONG DO YOU THINK IT WILL LAST? HOW LONG DO YOU THINK YOU CAN FOOL YOURSELF? I don’t know all I know is I need to watch the sun. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon The sun is about to raise I can see it clearly from the moon. I can see my sister’s magic around it. The warmth keeps me away the monster I created. The monster I let free. Is she me? I am I really her? I am not sure not anymore. All I know is the sun and my sister keeps me sane until the time has come for my revenge. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon My body felt heavy I started to lose focus and decided to settle down to dream. To “dream” was never the right for it they were nightmares and chaos with the faces and sounds and sights of the life I once had. It was time for the sun rise and as I looked from my bedroom window I saw my sister white wings fluttering raise the sun as I saw her form engulfed by sunlight a bit of chaos slipped out as I used my magic to loudly shut the window behind me. I walked over and plopped myself on my dark blue bed sheets and buried my head in my purple pillow and screamed. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon This song I cannot get out of my head the song that played in my head as a screamed into my pillow. It plays now taunting me as I look out into the vast emptiness. I stamp my hooves and screamed out in frustration and sadness and anger. I tried to run from it but it kept on playing in my head. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon Oh the little princess siting upon the door How time has come for you and you are nevermore Your dreams are gone and never will be so Unless you come my dear and everything thing is always swell Oh princess sitting upon the door How you call me so. Oh how call me so. You know you really need me I am only one Who can guide you to a future that you cannot attain. Oh little princess sitting upon the door Now take my hoof we shall be together forever for evermore You know you really want too I see it in your eyes. Oh little princess sitting upon the door Do you think they love you? Do you think they respect you? Do you really think you think you can do this alone? Oh little princess sitting upon the door Open up This song repeats and repeats in my head over and over again and all I can do is scream into the darkness hoping it will fade away. Princess Luna Nightmare Moon