//------------------------------// // XIX: That fateful day // Story: The Flutterheart Diaries // by lilinuyasha //------------------------------// 7-25-12 Of course, as expected, guilt’s started to flood my mind. The feeling of not caring has slowly gone away the longer this goes on. I keep asking myself if it’s love or lust...sounds familiar, doesn’t it? I know that it’s love because, well...I love her. And we’re married. And we’ve both overcome our past to show each other our love. Only thing is, doing it still seems so...bad. I know it’s not a sin or anything, but it’s just...bleh. I don’t know. Otherwise, not much has changed. We’re still a happily married couple (Though it’s only been about a month or so) that loves each other very much. I hope and pray that never changes. Hoping things never change, Trey 8-12-12 Glad to say our marriage is working out nicely. Everything is still happy. You know, I know things haven’t really changed much from us dating to us being married, but it’s honestly not a bad thing. Just cuddling up with Flutterheart night after night (Amongst various other activities, of course) and telling her how much I love her...simply looking into those deep, blue eyes...stroking her face and mane...and then, of course, kissing her with all the passion I can muster, means everything. I know it sounds like it’ll get repetitive, but when you’re in love, it really doesn’t. She’s just so damn beautiful. Everything I’ve ever written about, really. She’ll always be that way. The more things change...the more they stay the same. Trey 8-27-12 Things are still going well. Flutterheart’s been acting a little...off recently, but nothing too drastic. She’s had a few times she just snaps. If an animal doesn’t properly behave, she’ll tend to stare at it (Which works, for some reason) or tell it, in less than her normally nice tone, to straighten up. She hasn’t really acted like that to me, though. However, I’m preparing myself for when she does. I wonder why she’s acting so strange? Curious of the strange, Trey 9-2-12 Well...I found out why Flutterheart’s been acting strange. Basically, Flutterheart and I went to see Nurse Redheart for a heart-to-heart (See what I did there?) talk. I’ve never been happier in my life. I’m going to be a father. Yes...Flutterheart’s pregnant. We don’t know if it’ll be a colt or a filly yet, but...I’m too excited. Flutterheart couldn’t contain her excitement and we basically collapsed on the floor once we got back to the cottage, laughing and smiling. Today was just a perfect day. Now I’m starting to debate whether I can really handle all of this or not. I’ve always wanted to be a dad, but I hope I don’t mess up the child...I managed not to mess Flutterheart up, so I think I’ll be fine, but a foal is a completely different matter. Like...oh dear...can I really handle this? Will I be a good father? I know that the measure of a stallion is not brains or brawn, but whether his son wants to grow up to be the kind of stallion he is. I just...I’m so happy, yet so...I don’t know what this emotion would be. Worried? All I know is that I got what I’ve wanted all along and it almost scares me. AGH! Flutterheart has good maternal instincts from working with the animals all day, so I’m sure if I horribly fail, she’ll be there to help me right along. I hope so, anyway. I’d better head off to bed and sleep on the matter. Though I have a feeling I won’t be able to sleep much at all tonight. Happily, Trey 9-24-12 Flutterheart and I are still buzzing about the baby. Still sort of afterglow about it, so to speak. She went and told all of our friends, and Pinkie Pie seemed the most excited about it. She really looks forward to playing with the baby. I’m not sure how I feel about that, though. She’s really bouncy. And hyper. But I’m sure she could handle responsibility if it was given to her. Twilight seemed to be the next most excited, asking everything such as what its name would be. We had to tell her several times it was too early to tell. And, of course, she told us that when we needed books on parenting, she’d be sure to have one. I might actually take her up on that offer, though. Just to make sure I don’t do too much wrong. Of course, Rarity offered to make some outfits for the kid, and Applejack and RD said they’d help out with whatever they could, since they don’t really have any specific talents. I’m just happy that we have such great friends to rely on. Relying heavily, Trey 11-12-12 The longer time goes on, the larger Flutterheart’s stomach gets. The bigger it gets, the more I’m reminded of my upcoming responsibilities and my growing happiness. Almost symbolic in a way... Next month will be the one year anniversary of our engagement. I can clearly remember that day I proposed to her. Everything was perfect that day. Everything. Hopefully this Hearth’s warming will be even better. But what to get the mare who says she already has everything she wants? I’m everything she wants, but I can’t just give her myself. She needs as much as I can give her. Seriously. What can I give her? Something more expensive than chocolate. Maybe some more jewelry...idk. I have over a month to think about it. Thinking about it, Trey 12-1-12 The first day of December. 24 more days until I give her my engagement anniversary present! Supposing I have one by that time, that is. Still fretting about it. Maybe a bunny? Or would that be too soon? She already has a lot of them...perhaps that wouldn’t be the greatest idea. I have no clue. My mind’s all over the place with this right now. All over the place, Trey 12-12-12 12-12-12. I just had to write an entry today. Nothing much to report, really. I think I’m going to settle for getting Flutterheart some jewelery. Something nice. That sparkles. And shines. I think I might be able to buy some gems from Rarity for a fairly good price. Or I could get her something else. Hearth’s Warming is a difficult time of year. Difficult, Trey 12-25-12 Hearth’s Warming is all said and done. Happy one year to our engagement!!! I wound up getting Flutterheart a multi-gemmed necklace, with diamonds, sapphire, ruby, red diamonds, turquoise, and other assorted gems. She got me an interesting gift, to say the least. Somehow, she managed to find a music collection of all of the songs I managed to compose prior to arriving in Ponyville. She said she’d be more than happy to listen to them with me, which I’m happy. Only problem is...I don’t remember ever receiving notifications or permission for the making of this collection. Perhaps she had it custom made? It doesn’t really matter. It’s the thought that counts. And simply having her is what counts as well. So, needless to say, this Hearth’s Warming was more than spectacular. Spectacularly, Trey 2-3-13 Happy new year! Been too long since I wrote. Flutterheart’s stomach has gotten a lot bigger the longer her pregnancy has gone on. Starting to get nervous the longer this goes on. We’re scheduled to go in for another appointment next month. By then, we should be able to have a detailed view of what sex the baby’s bound to be. I really hope it’s a colt. That would make me tremendously happy. Of course, I’ll be tremendously happy if it’s a filly as well, but I’m slightly leaning for a colt. Male bloodline thing. If it is, then the slight problem will be what to name him. Do I give him my real name or something else? Bleh. I’ll think about that when the time comes. Thinking about it later, Trey 3-5-13 IT’S A COLT!!! Flutterheart’s pregnant with a colt! I’m so excited...I just want to bounce off of the walls like Pinkie Pie does on a regular basis...Oh, Sweet Celestia, I’m so happy. Flutterheart’s pretty excited, too. Now the only thing left is to buy new furniture and decide on a name. A mane name. Give him my name...or a new one? Regardless, it’s going to be music related, but still. IT’S A COLT!!! YES YES YES YES YES!!! I’m going to be ecstatic elsewhere, with my darling Flutterheart. Trey 5-10-13 Just about one more month... Flutterheart’s stomach is huge now. That baby’s going to be a whopper, I can tell. Still trying to decide on a name...Flutterheart’s given me full permission with the naming. If we ever have a daughter, she gets full ride on that name. We’re both excited. Hopefully she doesn’t start the stereotypical “YOU DID THIS TO ME” when one month comes around. Impatient for once, Trey 6-3-13 Flutterheart was rushed to the hospital today. It’s time. We’re expecting the baby within the next few hours possibly. Bring it on. Trey