Entry #84
Oh sweet Celestia I am so confused right now. I just… I don’t even… I am in no condition to write this now. I’ll come back to this later.
Entry #85
I… am still in no condition to write this.
Entry #86
As you can see, I haven’t killed myself. I… I was at the top of the library, going to jump. I did jump. Only I didn’t land. Right as I was about to hit the ground, a hole opened up beneath me. Remember what happens in Portal? Speedy thing goes in, speedy thing comes out. I went through the skin-colored magic gate and shot out into… well, Canterlot. Vertical motion became horizontal in a split second, and I was cannoned across a polished marble floor, sliding on my face and chest up to a quartet of royal blue hooves. By the time I recovered from the shock of being… not dead, I realized tears were landing on the marble next to my head. I rolled over and looked up into the sobbing face of Princess Luna. Her expression read one thing: “Why?” I had just picked myself up off the floor to try and explain myself when she tackled me, into an incredibly tight hug. Again, I felt that incredibly soft coat. The force of her tackling me knocked me back, though, onto something almost as soft and welcoming as Luna herself – her bed. Between emotions, apologies, and magic, one thing led to another, and… well. That happened. I’ll spare the details, but it was simply mind blowing. Afterward, I had questioned her about her magic, which used to be royal blue, like a night sky. It was now the color of my skin. She explained that Alicorns, despite being immortal, fall in love only once in their lifetime. She said she’d fallen for me – for one not of this world, one like herself. Being removed from society for so long had made her a legend, an outcast, an outsider, just like me. She said that after she got back, even after that Nightmare Night, she’d never truly felt at home here – just like me. I had to agree. No matter how much I’ve tried to convince myself, I don’t belong and I know it. She knows I love her, she’s seen it in my magic, in my thoughts and dreams (which she admitted to influencing to some extent). She wants to help me, to be a bridge back to pony society with her, as she makes her way back herself.
She wants me to marry her.
Entry #87
It’s worth noting that I didn’t jump holding my improvised diary/notebook. I had to go back to Ponyville to get that, to find this, seeing as my bumbling about in Equestria is clearly far from over. When I arrived, I found a distraught Twilight dictating a letter to Spike about my apparent attempted suicide. That took some time to clear up, and also to explain what had happened between Luna and myself. Twilight took that in an… interesting manner. She looked like she couldn’t decide whether to be happy for me, disgusted with me, or just plain shocked that I was even alive.
Entry #88
I’ve been talking with Luna more, about maybe getting married. She says I could be a sort of emissary between Canterlot and Ponyville, to get a different perspective on it than Celestia gets from her weekly letters from Twilight. I see no reason why we shouldn’t get married, either – we’re both very much in love (our magic auras are proof of that), and Celestia thinks it’s a fine idea. Something about the concept scares me, though. Maybe it’s kind of like in Lord of the Rings… Luna is an immortal. I’m not. At some point I’m going to grow old and die, and Luna is going to have to keep living on without me. I know she’s going to live without me at some time or another, because either I say no and we aren’t together or I grow old and die. I want to marry her, I really do…
So why shouldn’t I? I really cannot think of a legitimate reason not to, and neither can Twilight or either princess. It would be damn near the final step in solidifying Equestria as my home. But the concept of marriage… Maybe it’s because I’m only 17, and Luna is… more than 50 times my age, but… I don’t know. I need a little time to think.
Entry #89
I’m going to do it. I will.
Entry #90
I went to Carousel Boutique again today. I asked Rarity to make me a tuxedo. I’m going to need one. Rarity was confused at first, seeing as I haven’t told her yet – only myself, the Princesses, and Twilight know (and possibly Spike), but a bag full of bits answered any questions she may have had.
Entry #91
I met a pony named Roseluck today. She runs the jewelry store. Red mane with light red highlights, tan-ish yellow fur. I put all of my bits on the table and asked her how much it would buy.
Judging by her shocked expression, I have… well, had… kind of a lot of cash. AJ paid me fairly and regularly, and gave me a hefty bonus for saving her little sister. My spending amounted to sweets now and then, since AJ fed me and gave me a place to say and Rarity had clothed me.
I ended up purchasing a tiara. A simple, yet elegant gold headpiece with a setting for a gem. I need to go back to Rarity’s.
Entry #92
With her help, I picked out a large, but not gaudy, blue diamond and brought it back for Miss Roseluck to set. Rarity said she could do it herself with magic, but I would feel better if some of the other ponies had a hand in this, besides just the ones I know directly. Miss Roseluck thought it was a beautiful diamond, and agreed to set to work on it. She probably took more bits from me than the job cost, considering the simplicity of the tiara itself and the commonness of diamonds, but considering I was both not buying much and about to marry into the royal family, I thought nothing of it.
Entry #93
That Pinkie Pie, any excuse for a party… Luna wanted to see where I’d been living for the past months, and when we walked into the barn… SURPRISE! Luna damn near had a heart attack, but I’ve grown used to it. It was a brilliant party, just like any other Pinkie Pie Party, only a bit more spruced up by Twilight and Rarity, creating a whole “magic” theme and all. I also formally proposed to Luna today (I had to explain several times the human tradition of the man proposing and all, it appeared to be a much more mutual thing in Equestria), to which she gladly accepted, donning the golden tiara with the brilliant blue diamond and teleporting her original jewelry back to Canterlot. Canterlot… that’s going to be my home from now on. I’ll have an actual bed (and the most beautiful pony to share it with) as opposed to hay bales and dirt, a wardrobe (though I’ll likely keep to the shirt and shorts Rarity made me)… it will definitely be a more complicated lifestyle, but I’ll be glad I’m sharing it with somepony.
Entry #94
Well the cat is out of the bag now – once Pinkie Pie knew what was going on, everypony knew what was going on. Everywhere I walk I get messages and greetings of congratulations, ponies complimenting my fiancée and me. It’s going to be a massive ordeal – then again, the wedding of the princess of the night would be a huge deal. Celestia, I feel like Pinkie Pie. So much excitement and anticipation coursing through me, and plenty of nerves, too. The ceremony is set to be a week from today. Rarity has finished my tux, but is refusing to let me into the shop – I’m guessing she’s working on Luna’s wedding gown as well. I look forward to seeing it.
Entry #95
Luna… she’s almost all I can think about, partially because she’s all I have to think about – Luna took over teaching me magic after that day she saved me. Something changed when we were together, my ability to use magic went way up. She’s been teaching me transfiguration and creation magic (like turning rocks into clothing or generating said rocks from nothing), and she said she might teach me teleportation if I get the handle of magic well enough. She also said she might teach my how to raise the moon and stars one day. That would be pretty awesome.
Luna’s been showing concern over me wanting to spend my life with someone who tried to create eternal night. I’ve explained several times that I wouldn’t have minded that, but still… she’s concerned that Nightmare Moon might surface again, but I don’t think she will. My confidence seemed to boost hers, so that’s good.
Entry #96
Today’s the day. Woke up this morning, surrounded by Twilight and her friends. I may be the first groom in history without a group of his best guy friends with him the day of his marriage. All their smiling faces, absolutely giddy with excitement. I’m still sleeping in AJ’s barn, I decided that the night of the wedding should be the first official night Luna and I spend together, plus there’s the whole “don’t see the bride until the ceremony” thing. I also decided to take the train to Canterlot, seeing as you can only teleport to places you can picture perfectly, and the only time I’ve ever been to Canterlot was in Luna’s personal chambers, and teleporting directly there would be suboptimal today. It’s a relaxing ride, probably the only relaxation I’ll get all day. Rarity’s tuxedo fits like a glove, but like the other clothing she made for me, it doesn’t really feel like I’m wearing something so close fitting.
Entry #97
Canterlot Castle’s main hall. It's a grand facility – massive stained glass windows (many of which depicting Twilight’s stories of success over Discord and Nightmare Moon), huge marble columns, an enormous golden statue of an Alicorn. It really is beautiful place. I certainly won’t mind spending time here. The ceremony is scheduled to take place in about an hour.
Entry #98
I’ve just been told that Celestia herself is going to be marrying us. Presiding over the marriage of your sister must be kind of weird, but it also makes some sort of sense.
Entry #99
Show time.