Depths of Despair

by CEverw00d


Emeraude's Diary

Diary Entry: Final

Dear Diary,
I know it has been some time since I last wrote to you, but I have been trying to keep you a secret from my caretaker. I have not revealed to him where I am truly from, or what I am, and I'm not certain as to if I ever shall. I feel awful for deceiving such a kind pony, but he simply cannot know. It would bring all kinds of attention, attention like that which I have so tried to escape.

It is warm here, both to my body and my heart. It already seems as though it has been so long since I was last in that shimmering city. I do miss it sometimes. It was my home, though it is a home I cannot return to. I caught news that the city had vanished, though I know not how. I have no choice but to stay here, and it is nothing to complain about. I think...maybe I love him? He is so very kind, and charming. Even in the Crystal Empire, I never met a stallion so gentle. He even declared that once I give birth, he would take care of the child as well, if needed. I know he would be a wonderful father, if it were possible. I must confront him, I must know his feelings for me. It makes me so nervous, thinking like that, but it is something I must do.

This shall be my last entry for as long as I stay here. This diary represents all the memories of the days passed in my life as a crystal pony. I am no longer that, and shall begin my life anew. I am sorry we shall part this way, but do not worry, I am confident in the future of myself and my child. Wish us luck.
~Emeraude