My Dearest Dash,
It’s been two months now, two slow, lonely and painful months. I woke up this morning and I, for some odd reason, expected you to be here. I reached out for you but you weren’t there. I’m unsure of what I expected, but when my hoof touched nothing I was unable to breathe.I often act like it doesn’t hurt, like I don’t miss you, but our friends can see right through my shaky facade. Sometimes I feel weak, like I should be able to tough this out, but the loneliness is just overwhelming.
I’m actually writing this letter on the train, heading back to Ponyville. I decided that I’ve spent enough time away from home so I packed up and began the journey back. Rarity and Pinkie Pie are here with me, they stayed with me and helped me make it through these past two months. Applejack and Fluttershy had to go home early to attend to their duties. It’s been three months since I’ve seen home, and I miss it very much. But I don’t expect it to be at all similar to how it was with you around.
Although the only difference will be your absence, home will never be the same without you there. Night has been dreadful, it is nearly impossible for me to fall asleep when I’m alone. Your warm body next to mine always eased anxiety and melted fears. You made me feel safe, and you made me feel loved.
I remember before we ever got together, how my self esteem wasn’t always at the best it could be. I never felt pretty or funny or fun to be with, I just felt average. But then you made me feel special. Everyday I spoke to you, you made me feel beautiful. I was often worried that my affection for you was one sided, that somepony as magnificent as you could never love somepony as simple as me. And for that reason I will always remember that day.
I was lying under a willow tree, reading a book as I often do. However, whilst reading I could hear the faint sounds of wingbeats somewhere in the distance. I looked up from my books to see you zooming around in the distance, putting clouds into place. For a second I was concerned, trying to remember if a storm was scheduled for the day. As the realization dawned on me, the first raindrops had already begun to fall. A big rainstorm was scheduled and I had completely forgotten. But then, a blur of color came speeding towards me. It was you.
You landed next to me and asked if I was okay, I made some general complaint about my books getting wet. You chuckled and sarcastically called me an egghead, but then you looked me in the eye and asked again if I was alright. I was confused for a second, and replied saying it was a bit chilly. Then you stepped next to me and draped a wing over my shoulder, and I felt myself shudder slightly. You giggled a bit and my face began to burn. I tried to walk away but you just held me tighter and told me it was alright. You said we could wait out the rain underneath the tree and we laid down.
The calm sound of the rain had made me doze off. I opened my eyes to see you looking into the distance, I took in all the details of your beautiful face, especially your smile. As you stared off, you had a calm, tranquil smile. You turned to look at me and I quickly averted my gaze. Again you laughed with the sound of bells chiming. Our eyes met, and then we shared that moment of time.
And then you kissed me. That was the happiest moment of my entire life. Everything froze and I was the happiest mare in all of Equestria. We just stayed in there in gentle embrace until a glint on the edge of my vision caught my eye. I turned to see a beautiful rainbow span across the orange sky, just as the sun set. Then you leaned to my ear and whispered the three words I had longed most to hear but feared I never would. And Now I repeat those words to you.
I love you.
Writing this out has helped so much, and helped me remember how much of a blessing you have been in my life. I love you, and I look forward to writing to you even more.
With Love, Forever and Always
-Twi