Darkness. Darkness is all I see. After opening my eyes, I’m met with complete and total darkness. I look around to try and find something but there’s nothing, absolutely nothing. I try to take a step forward but my body isn’t moving. I look to my right to see my arm is still suspended in the air but nothings holding me down, my arms and legs are free but immobile.
“How could you?!” I hear a voice and look around to try and find the source of it but nothing.
“We trusted you! We gave you a home and helped you! But you lied to us all this time!” Anger is what’s expressing the second voice. I try to violently rip myself from my invisible bonds but nothings working.
“You’re no better than anyone else of your own you claim to be evil.” A third voice insults me. I try to yell ‘I’m not like the rest of my own!’ but nothing comes out. I try to say the simplest words but nothing escapes my lips.
“I’m sorry Swift, but I think it’s time for you to go.” The first voice says. I look around to find those damned voices but I can’t find anything.
I look forward and my eyes widen. My six new friends that I just made are all staring at me with different sets of emotions. Anger, resentment, horrid, betrayal and… disappointment?
Twilight looks at me with a look of disappointment while all the others don’t. She lowers her head and turns around. She uses her magic and a door appears behind them. The door opens to reveal a bright light. I turn my head so I don’t become blinded but I also realize I can move. I’m free!
I look up to see that they are all walking through the door. I try to speak again but luck isn’t with me this day. I run as fast as I can to my friends but for some reason, no matter how fast I run, they aren’t getting closer. I push myself even faster but to no avail. Five of them are already out and all that’s left is Twilight. She steps though the door. My heart breaks at what is happening. My friends, my only friends are leaving me and don’t want me back. What the hell did I do?! How did I betray them? I don’t fucking know!
Twilight turns around and looks at me. The door finally starts to come closer and I reach for the door. It begins to slowly close, separating me from my friends. I won’t lose them. I can’t lose them! I just can’t! I’m so close to the door now but the door is even closer to being closed. At the last stretch, I crouch and propel myself forward, reaching out as far as I possibly can to grab the door.
“Goodbye, Swift.” Twilight’s last words before it shuts. I was so close, so close to the door, just an inch away from my reach. The second the door closes, it explodes, sending me flying back from the force of it. I hit the ground hard and begin to roll and tumble like a ragdoll. I stop on my back and I groan in frustration, from the pain and my loss. I just lost them, my only real friends in years and their gone. I slowly get up and look around to find nothing at first, but behind me is another door. I waste no time and sprint to it. I grab the door handle and open it to reveal a swirling red abyss. I back up a bit but something lunges out and grabs my leg. It pulls me hard and I hit the ground instantly. Another thing shoots out and grabs my other leg and pulls me towards the door. I grab the frame of the door at the last second and hold on for dear life.
The hands or whatever they are pulling me in harder and harder, my grip loosening with each passing second and the pain that I feel like my legs are gonna rip right off. Digging my nails in, they don’t do much to save me. I lose my grip in one hand and it instantly gets grabbed. With the added force against me, I don’t last much longer.
“No.” I quietly say before I’m pulled in and the door closes…
“Gah!” I yelp and shoot up from sleeping position.
I breathe heavily as my heart beats like it’s trying to free itself from my chest; sweat rolling down my face. What was that dream? What did it mean? Are the questions that roll through my mind after what I just saw. Liar, jerk, monster are they called me but… I don’t know why. I can’t remember a damn about what my family life was but after that, I can remember. I feel bad not telling them but if I do, they’ll kick me out of their town, or worse.
“Damn I’m thirsty.” I say to myself. I shake the thoughts out of my head and get up. I walk into the kitchen where I grab a glass, turn on the water to the sink and fill it up. I drink a lot of the water down on the first gulp and breathe heavily. Today’s the day that chooses whether or not I’ll stay or leave and leavings not really an option for me so the odds of something else happening are pretty high. I wipe the sweat off my head and take another swig. I walk back into the main room and look out the window to find that the sun is just barely coming over the horizon.
“Guess I better get ready.” I mutter in my mind. I go to my bag and sift through it a bit to find some extra clothes. After I get them, I walk to the restroom to change. Once I put on my fresh new clothes, I look at the mirror to look at my demeanor. My hair’s messed up, I have a dead stare, and my face is dirty. I’d take a shower but the ponies toilets were alright enough for me to do my business yesterday but the showers aren’t as much. I turn on the water and splash some of it on my face to wake myself up. I take some soap and begin washing my face, noting the smell of the soap smells a lot like berries.
I throw some more water on my face to get the soap off and use my old shirt to lightly dry my face. I breathe in and then out for a bit to calm myself.
“Keep a cool head man, try not to be an asshole, don’t do anything stupid you’ll regret for the rest of your life…” I recite to myself. I let out a depressing sigh at one other thought in my head.
“I just wish I can remember what I did all those years ago that got the police to notice me.” I wish I can understand myself better.
All I can basically remember is that I did something that got the police to notice me, I am someone who can take care of them self in a lot of situations, I’m resourceful, I befriended a few people for a short time and betrayed them in the end. I watched out for only myself in the end… but I always did have a soft spot for those who don’t deserve it. The people that rolled with me weren’t saints that’s for sure, but they had their uses until they got too free with me helping. A little lying with an anonymous tip to the police solved the problem right quick.
The soft spot I had was pretty much for innocents. A person who didn’t do anything and is punished doesn’t deserve it. I did something and now I’m paying for it, just wish I knew what it was. But this place, it’s got a happy feeling to it. The ponies are nice and generous and haven’t done anything wrong. I should be happy and grateful as hell to have friends like this, real friends. I sigh and walk out of the restroom with my previous clothes in hand to the living room where I place them down on the couch. I look out the window to look around Ponyville to see if anypony is awake. Nothing, not a flicker of life.
“We would have to leave pretty early…” I look around the room to find a clock and I find one hanging on the wall. Just past 6:30.
“Maybe one of the others is awake.” I leave my clothes out to dry on my bag while I snap my belt closed back onto my waist and decide to make my way out. Closing the door, I look around to see the lightly lit dark road and buildings around me. So peaceful and tranquil… I’ve never had that feeling before until now.
I walk down the road to where Twilight lives, not running or anything, walking. If there is a good chance that the Princess doesn’t want someone like me around her subjects, I better get used to this scenery; I might not ever see it again. I walk by the destroyed tower to see plenty of it still litter the ground but the bulk of its gone.
“Looks like they cleaned up a lot of it after I crashed out.” I think. I stand there at the foot of the destruction, recalling in my mind of what happened. I stop to think if anything else could have been done differently to prevent this. But now that it’s happened, it doesn’t really matter anymore now does it? I continue walking and after what feels like an eternity of walking, my destination is in sight. I see Twilight’s home with a few windows lit up with life.
“Is she really up at this time?” I ask myself, not really sure if she seems like the kind of pony to do this, but then again I haven’t really gotten to know her as much so I guess I shouldn’t be jumping the gun so soon. I walk over to the door and just as I am about to knock, I hear loud crashing noises and running.
“Spike! Where is my saddlebag?! I can’t find it!” Twilight yells from the other side of the door. It sounds like she’s pretty wound up, I wonder why. I slowly open the door to be greeted by a messed up and thrown about library; a lot of the books are thrown and spread out on the ground while papers are flying all over the place from the fast moving pace of the purple unicorn and her dragon assistant.
“Twilight?” I said, snapping her out of her freaked out state.
“Swift! What are you doing up?! You’re not supposed to be up for another five minutes! Did I do something wrong?! Were my calculations out of order?!” she begins hysterically say a little. I’ve been through a lot of things over time, but never have I seen someone so strung out like this. Do they have drugs?
“Twilight, are you okay?” I ask and dashes right up to me in an instant and looks up at me.
“No it’s not okay! The princess requested for me to go with you to Canterlot on the first train that leaves town at 7Am! I was supposed to get everything I needed, then go wake you up, have you get ready and leave straight for the train station and get on it! But I can’t find my saddlebag! Help me look for it!” She dashes back to wrecking the place for the bag she desperately needs. At least now I know she’s not strung out, her pupils aren’t dilated, she’s not sweating or hallucinating.
“I guess she’s just stressed out.” I think to myself. I look around from the doorway to try and find the bag. My eye’s spot a gray blue bag on the empty shelf on my right. I walk over to it and look at it to see it’s actually two bags held together by a single strap and both have a red star on it, resembling that of Twilight’s Cutie Mark if I remember correctly.
“My bag!” A loud voice breaks my stare and the bag piece I’m not touching instantly gets covered in a purple aura.
“Whoa!” I yell as the bag is pulled away with me still holding it. I crash to the ground and hear the happy squeals of the unicorn.
“Ohhh thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you so much, Swift! I was looking everywhere for it!” she praises me. I wave my hand weakly in the air from my daze.
“Sure. No problem, Twilight. Happy to help.” I say and Spike begins to help Twilight fasten her bag onto her. I just lay there for a bit until I look up to see the clock on the wall reads 6:50.
“Didn’t she say the train leaves at 7?” I say in my mind and sit up.
“Twilight, doesn’t the train leave at 7?” she looks at the clock and her eyes widen.
“Oh no! We’re behind schedule! We need to go now!” she yells and bolts off, practically spinning Spike.
“Bye Spike! Watch over the library while I’m gone!” she yells just before she leaves the house. Spike shakes his head and regains himself.
“I will! Good luck Twilight! You too Swift.” He wishes me luck. I knew this was going to be bad but Twilight’s a freakin’ train wreck!
“Get moving Swift!” Twilight yells back and I jump up and begin running.
“Alright alright, I’m com-*Pfff* Ow!” I quickly say and as I bolt out the door, my knee connects with the frame of the door. I lose my balance and roll on the ground a few till I stop and grab my knee.
“Damnit!” I yell in pain. I open my eyes to see Twilight coming right over to me and wedges herself under me.
“Get up you! We have to go now!” she says and I manage to stand. I’m about to take off but I remember something.
“Wait! I forgot my bag back at Rarity’s! I need to go get it! “ I say but she shakes her head.
“Swift we don’t have time! The train leaves in 8 minutes and the station is on the other side of Ponyville!” she points with her hoof in the direction and I notice its where I came from.
“Rarity’s is along the way! Just… get to the station and hold the train! I’ll be there as soon as I can!” I quickly say to her and begin running to Rarity’s at first but my leg almost gives out and I instead limp a little.
“Fine but don’t be late!” Twilight yells to me in an annoyed tone and takes off. I continue to limp/run as best as I can back to Rarity’s. I’d be there in an instant if I could run properly but the gods don’t shine well on me today! I quickly open the door, run right in and grab my clothes I left drying. I stuff them into my bag, not caring if their folded or not and still wet but right now I need to get the hell moving. I stand up as quickly as I can and take off. I swing the bag over my shoulder, head for the door and slam it shut.
“Oh crap! I better not have woken them! But then I’ll be long gone by then so whatever.” I say in my mind and head for the direction I saw Twilight head in. I look into the sky to spot the small plum of white smoke coming from the train. I smile and head straight in that direction. I look around and see a clock hanging nearby and see it reads 6:56.
“Crap! Not much time!” I yell lightly to myself. Never have I really busted my ass to get to something so quickly, but since it’s my first time, and not to mention that my knee hurts like hell, it completely sucks. The train station is in sight and I see Twilight standing on the platform with a few other ponies. The train gives off a couple loud toots of its whistle, signaling that it’s about to leave.
“All aboooaard!” I make out conductor the yelling and some ponies already board but Twilight stays.
“Ma’am, you coming?” he asks her and she looks around to find me but I’m coming from a different direction she doesn’t see.
“Hold on! I’m waiting for someone.” She says, a bit worried that I won’t make it. I try to run faster but only by a little.
“Sorry ma’am, but we are on a tight schedule. It’s either now or the next train.” He grunts to her and she looks around trying to find me. I wave to her but the shadows of the buildings hide me.
“Please if you can just-.”
“Twilight!” I yell to her when I’m close enough. She breathes a sigh of relief and walks in. I climb the stairs as fast as I can and practically jump through the door. I breathe heavily from the work I just had to do right now, coupled with the cold morning air, it hurts to breathe.
“You made it! “ Twilight says happily at my effort and I nod while breathing hard.
“Yeah, yeah yeah, I did. Can we sit down? I feel like my legs are gonna give out.” I say and she nods.
“Oh sure, I’m sorry. Over here.” She gestures and leads me over to a nearby set seats. I sit down and breathe a sigh of relief to rest my legs.
“Made it just in time?” I asked. She nods happily with a smile.
“We did, just in time. That was too close.”
“Yeah, it was.” I just lay back in my seat and steady my breathing. I would sleep but I’m a bit wired right now from the pain and running I just did right now. I look around the cabin to see some ponies giving me some odd stares but some others ease their minds by telling them what they saw of me doing the last few days. Thank god some of the ponies from town are coming as well. I could use more people who already know of me somewhat. I look out the window to see Ponyville getting smaller and smaller as we travel away.
“So Twilight, you mentioned sending a letter to Celestia a few times before. Why? What’s your relationship with her?” I asked. Since she seemed most connected to the princess, and how she specifically was tasked with escorting me to Canterlot.
“She’s my teacher. I never really understood much about friendship since I cared most about my studies and perfecting my magic since I found it so interesting. When a mishap happened with my magic during my entrance exam into a school specifically for gifted unicorns, Princess Celestia saw me and decided to take me as her faithful student to help me control my magic better, and to help me learn more about the magic of friendship.” She says happily. Sounds like she was happy with what happened, but she didn’t have to tell me so much, just a simple, ‘I’m her student’ would have been sufficient.
“You were rather… open with your response. Why did you?” I asked, curious as to why she did.
“Swift, you saved my life back when you first came here. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to repay you for that, not to mention that Applejack told me about how you helped her and Big Macintosh out with the harvest, and if I remember correctly, you saved Fluttershy yesterday, even though you would have died. You’ve done more than enough to earn my trust.” She says in a grateful and serious tone. I lean forward.
“Even with my species background? Even if I can’t remember my past?” I ask her, wondering what she’ll say.
“Your entire race can’t define who ‘you’ are. You are your own person who can define yourself in any number of ways. And your past? If you were just like what you say your species is, then I don’t see it. You’ve been a kind and caring person since we met you. You haven’t proved to be a burden, or a danger to us. You defended us that very first day and never even heard or seen us before, right?!” she says, expecting me to answer.
“That’s right.”
“You’ve proven to me that I can trust you. But tell me… why did you come to our aid?” I look down so I can think and come up with an answer. Innocence is what forced my hand. These ponies, so cute, so happy, so full of energy and life. They haven’t done anything wrong in my eyes, and their first impression was something good.
“I was on the run Twilight. Something happened, can’t remember for what but it got me noticed by the law of my country. They chased me for awhile and when I was finally cornered, I ended up here…” she looks surprised at what I said.
“Whatever I did, I can’t say I regret it, because it could have been something morally good, and that doesn’t cut it for the law back where I’m from. And I don’t go against my morals. A person who does nothing, but gets punished doesn’t deserve that. I’ve met and seen too many people get hurt because of another person’s ignorance and selfish reasons. I just… can’t stand to see an innocent person get hurt. When I first saw you all, I didn’t know what to believe. Were you real? Was I hallucinating? I don’t know, but when I laid my eyes on your kind, Twilight, you just looked too cute and colorful to be anything bad! When that wolf attacked you, I just reacted and attacked…” she continues to listen with rapped attention. I lay back and cross my legs.
“After it was all over, I was sure that my time had come, but you post-pone that for me. I can’t thank you enough either, for saving my life! If I have a chance to do something to help you or your friends out, I will do it! *sigh* I was hoping to stay a little bit longer, but the way the Princess talked, and how forceful she was, and if she has the power to send me back to where I came from; I’m probably not going to be here much longer…” I continue to say in my most sincere way possible since I mean everything I say. I lean forward again.
“For what it’s worth, I’m sorry for not telling you sooner about what I did remember about my past. I was just scared that you would kick me out of your town. Can you forgive me?” I ask her for forgiveness. She just stares at me for almost a minute, making me a bit worried.
“Don’t tell me I’m about to lose my friend.” I say in my mind. My heart lifts when a smile spreads across her face, making me smile as well.
“IIII think I can.” She says smugly. I laugh a little at this and extend my hand. She extends her hoof and I grab it, shaking her it. I lean back in my seat and continue to stare out into the open world that I might never see again. My happy face I just had right now slowly disappears at the sight of this place. She notices the sad look I have on my face.
“Don’t worry, Swift! With some insight from Princess Celestia’s most faithful student, I’m sure that we can keep you here in Equestria and prove you can help!” she says in a determined voice. She seriously means it, turning my frown back upside down.
“Thanks, Twilight. I really appreciate it.” I say and she nods and relaxes in her seat. That nightmare I had last night was pretty freaky. I don’t want them to yell at me like that, to call me a traitor, a monster or god knows what else. At least now my mind is a bit more at ease with her understanding and accepting me.
“*Yawn*” I yawn. My legs feel a little better and my tired state is catching up to me.
“It’s gonna be awhile before we make it to Canterlot. Why don’t you rest for now and I’ll wake you up when it’s in sight.” Twilight says to me. I nod and lie down on my seat, using my bag as a makeshift pillow. I just stare at the ceiling for a few minutes, letting my mind wander of the possibilities that are going to happen. Am I staying? Am I leaving? Will I go on the run from her? Will I become one of her guards?
“Hahaha.” I laugh to myself at the last thought. Like that’ll ever happen.
“What’s so funny?” Twilight asked, wanting to know. I turn my head to her with a smile.
“Oh nothing. Just thinking about how energetic and crazy Pinkie is.” She giggles at my answer and nods.
“She is a one of a kind pony.” She replies. I smile and look back up to the ceiling.
“True. True.” It definitely is true. I’ve never seen anyone or anything like her before, well except maybe someone who is either drunk off their asses, or as high as I kite. I close my eyes and let myself drift off into sleep.
“Swift? Wake up! We’re here!” I wake up about an hour or so later to the sound of Twilight’s excited voice. I slowly get up since I’m practically still asleep. When I am up, I’m hit by a gust of wind. I rub my eyes so I can see and I look to see Twilight sticking her head out the window. I lean out as well to see my possible final destination. The place looks beautiful from a distance, the buildings are high and skinny, a moat or river bed flows in front the place, it also has a drawbridge, and the entire place looks like it could collapse with how close it is over the cliff. How the hell has it not fallen?
“Beautiful isn’t it. My parents spent most of their lives here, the same with me. It got a little boring after awhile but it’s still beautiful as ever. I just wish that your first time to Equestria’s capital was under better circumstances.” Twilight informs me happily when we are back inside. Sounds like she really likes this place, hell it’s their capital, why wouldn’t she.
“Me too. But I have another question, why hasn’t it fallen over the cliff yet?” she smiles and gets ready for a complex explanation.
“Magic!” she says with a big smile. Wow. I was way off.
“How come I’m not surprised?” I sarcastically say. She chuckles at that and I look back out to the castle. We are very close to the city now and we just crossed over the water.
As we come up to the train station, I see some guards around the platform and some Pegasi flying above.
“Well, our welcoming party is here. Guess no time for sightseeing.” I mutter in disappointment. The place seemed so cool and badass from the outside! I wanted to see how the city looked from the inside but looks like I don’t get that luxury.
“Really?” she says and looks out side as well. She gets a disappointed look as she comes back in.
“Darn it! I really wanted to show you around along the way to the castle!” she says and I nod. It would have been nice but I still don’t have that luxury.
“It’s alright, Twilight. If I stay, you can show me around afterwards. If I don’t… well, it was still kind of you too offer.” I said, trying to cheer her up. My words have an effect and her disappointment turns to a smile.
“Thank you Swift. Nice of you to say.”
“ Anytime. Now let’s get going before the Princess decides to punish you for being tardy.” I note and her expression changes.
“Your right! Let’s go!” she hops off her seat and moves. I grab my bag and head out of the train. As I walk out, some guards walk up to the both of us.
“We are here to escort you to the princess immediately. If you resist, we won’t hesitate to use force.” The earth pony guard says in a gruff voice. He aims his spear at my face. I just stare at it for a bit, noting how sharp, pointy and shiny it is.
“It’s alright, good sirs. He’s not here to fight. He’s come of his own free will and will cooperate, right?” Twilight says while stepping between me and the guard. Saying the last part to me. I move the spear away from my face and nod.
“I have no wish to do any fighting whatsoever. I just want to see what the Princess has in store for me and get it over with. So instead of threatening me, why don’t we get moving so we can be out of each other’s hair?” I quickly say in a bit of a threatening voice. He stares at me for a bit and I stare right back. Twilight alternates from looking at me to the guard.
“Hmph!” he grunts and turns around, walking away while being accompanied by a couple guards. Some more move behind me and gesture me to move. I give out a sigh and begin walking with Twilight walking next to me.
“Are you alright?” she asks me and I smile at her, giving the saying that I’m just peachy.
“I’m fine. This isn’t my first rodeo. I’m pretty good at adapting to situations so I’m not as worried as I should be.” In truth I still really hate the idea of leaving this place, the populace, the old but still different architect, the magic, literally, and the different things I can learn, I don’t want to leave this place! I’ve been peaceful here than I ever had in so long. Plus, back home, I have hundreds of people looking for me, while here; I only have one person keeping a close eye on me. True she’s a high powered creature with abilities that I can’t possibly fathom, she’s still one, and one I can keep track of over an hundred.
“That’s good to hear.”
For the next few minutes, we walk past a lot of things, ponies in well pressed, formal, and really vibrant dresses and suits I’ve never seen before, the different kinds of shops that look much more expensive but nicer than back on Ponyville, the streets paved with concrete, many different banners of the sorts and getting a lot of weird looks from the residents and shop keepers. Some seem too busy with doing whatever it is they are doing, which is just them either walking or conversing with their friends. I try to get a good look of the things around me but with how fast we are moving, I can’t.
Everything zooms past us before I know it and me, Twilight and the guards find ourselves at the set of doors of a massive castle. Everything is as how a high royalty castle fit for the greatest king to rule in looks like. The guards in front push open the doors and continue to lead us through the castle. The walls, glass-stained windows, the curtains and so many other things about the place are pristine. I’d like to get a closer look at these things since I have never seen anything like these ever! But right now I have a date with fate. Mustn’t keep her waiting.
I step onto a big carpet that reminds me of when celebrity’s walk along to get to some important event. We soon come upon an even bigger set of double doors. The unicorn guards use their magic to push open the doors and there I see the decider of my fate in Equestria, the high and mighty Princess Celestia. She stands at the other end of the room on top of some stairs with the same red carpet under my feet leading right up to her.
“This is it.” I think to myself and I take my first step to her. But Twilight stops me.
“Wait! Let me to talk to her.” She proposes when she steps in front of me. I look at her, then up to the Princess, then back to her. She’s seems almost dead set of doing everything she can to help me.
“Alright, Twilight. See if you can, but please try not to do anything to damage what you already have here. I would never forgive myself if she did something to punish you for me.” I said to her. I really appreciate what she’s doing but if anything, I hope she doesn’t try too hard to defend me. She nods back with a determined smile.
“Don’t worry, Swift. I’ll do what I can.” She then begins walking over to the princess and closes the doors with her magic. I give a sigh of relief and just stand there, both because I want to be ready to head on in when I am needed, and that there is nothing to sit on around here.
Minutes pass by and my legs tire just a bit. I can feel the eyes of the guards staring right at me, watching my moves in case I try to make a break for it. I don’t plan to since Twilight opted to vouch for me, I’ll better do the same and help her if she needs it. I soon begin to pace back and forth for a bit, getting the blood moving in my legs so they won’t get all numb.
A creaking sound breaks the silence and I look to see the doors opening, revealing a somewhat happy purple unicorn. She has small smile on her face, saying that she had some luck but not to what she truly wanted. She walks right past but stops to my right for a second.
“Good luck.” She whispers to me and continues going. I look back to the princess and breathe slowly.
“Alright then, let’s do this.” I say to myself and walk right in.
Every step I take lands a big piece of weight on my shoulders, knowing that as I walk, I’m closer to heading back to being hunted. I get a bit of a sickening feeling but I press on, if I don’t do this, then she’ll be the one after me, including her guards. I think I’d rather take the chance of being allowed to stay here or being sent away. I stop at the bottom of the steps, gazing up at this powerful beautiful creature in front of me.
“Now, why have you come to here?” she asks bluntly. I take a deep breath and answer:
“I didn’t come here by choice. I was in the woods back where I was before, and the next thing I know, I wake up in the so called Everfree forest that the others have called. I didn’t know where I was or how I came to be there, but I had no choice but to find the nearest town or sign of civilization so that someone can help me. I was lucky to find Ponyville or else… well, I don’t know what would happen to me. I’d probably be dead.” I explain to her. I leave out the part of about me being chased for now. I need to earn her trust. Unless Twilight told her. No, she wouldn’t. My words were meant for only her, she would trust me with my own past.
“So you had no interest whatsoever in coming to my land and seeking out its residents?” she asked and I nod.
“Yes, I had no idea what you were at first but events played out and I got used to it.” I answer. It was pretty straightforward but I got what I meant clear. She looks at me, her mane and tail clearly flowing in the wind, even though there is no wind in here but I knock it out of my mind, crazier things have happened here as it is.
“Tell me, why is it that I should let you stay here and live amongst my pony’s?” she asked. I think my next words carefully, needing to come up with the best way to make my intentions here justifiable but with no harm to the ponys and residents of Canterlot and Ponyville.
“I can’t come up with the perfect answer, your majesty. I have no memories of my past, but the memory’s of my peoples history are still implanted within my mind. However, I may not be able to remember my own past, I still know my own morals and feelings. The innocent are my concern when the times permit. I’m not be the best of my kind, but I’m better than most. If a person doesn’t do anything wrong, then I won’t stand by and let something bad happen to them. Those are rare occasions back where I’m from, here? The innocent are all over the place with some danger. If you may, Princess, let me stay and I’ll walk amongst your kind with the intent to help and protect. Call me a liar if you wish, but my word still stands.” I say gracefully. I hope my words are enough to convince the Princess to let me stay.
“Hmmmm.” She says to herself, processing my intentions to that information that she was already given.
“Tell me every detail about your kind and how they are.” She says and I get confused. Wasn’t she already told about my kinds history?
“Weren’t you already told about that?”
“I may have. But I want to hear what you have to say yourself.” She says with a smile.
“She’s testing me. If I lie about this, and she knows already, I kill my chances of ever being here! I have to come clean. Can’t take that chance.” I think to myself since I know I’m right.
“*Sigh* Alright then Princess, I’ll talk…” For the next while or so, didn’t really keep track of time since I was focused on telling her everything. The kind of people my species is, the kinds of advancement we had, the wars, our law, and many other things as well. My heart breaking with each word I utter, practically signing my death sentence if I go back.
I may have seemed calm back where I was before, but in truth, I’m a wreck. I can’t keep doing that, going around all over the place, scrounging, hurting, betraying, and a lot of other things as well. I feel myself starting to get paranoid of the things that could happen later on if I go back. I can’t go back, I won’t. Once I am done, I breathe in since I didn’t breathe as much while I was talking. I wait for my answer and I try to make one up in my mind from her expression, but I can’t. She’s really good at not letting others be able to read her face. She finally speaks.
“That was an interesting tale you just told me.” She said with a smile. I clench my fist in anger.
“It’s the truth, ma’am, as much as it pains me. If I lied to you and Twilight had already sent you a message of my peoples history, then I would signed my eviction ticket. Plus, if I’m staying, we can’t keep secrets from each other if we are to cooperate.” I sincerely say. No more lies from here on out, if I’m going to stay, I’ll tell her about my past that I do remember. Right now she’s thinking. She walks over to the stain glass window on my right and looks out the window. The uncomfortable silence flowing in the air right now is killing me. Why in the hell won’t she just tell me?! I look back to the doors I came through to see they are still open with Twilight waiting to see what will happen. I’m curious to see what will happen as hell, especially since I’m in the middle of it.
“I’m sorry, but I cannot allow you to remain here.” I get angry. After what I did the first day, how much I helped? How I saved Fluttershy’s life?! How I came here willing, sort of, and how much I regret going against my own kind!
“Princess please, I have no-.” she cuts me off.
“It’s not just about what you are. It’s why you are here. Please understand that you are not supposed to be here. I am grateful for what you did to help my student and her friends, but I cannot allow you to remain here in case something will happen because you are here.” She tries to explain. I sort of understand what she means but I’m still not convinced. If there is supposed to be some kind of rift or something between our ours worlds because of me being here, it would have happened already! She’s obviously not going to let me stay, I guess it’s time for me to leave.
“Fine then, I’ll leave and never return if it pleases you.” I say with anger on my face and in my voice. She gives a weak smile at my cooperation. I turn around and begin walking to the door. Before I can pass them, they are engulfed in a yellow aura and slammed shut, scaring Twilight and getting me mad.
“Where do you think you are going?!” she asks me with anger in her voice. I turn around to look at her.
“I’m leaving. I’ll leave your precious Equestria and live somewhere else where you won’t bother me.” I say with force. She looks unconvinced and steps down the stairs and begins walking over to me.
“No. I will send you back to your world. That is how I will make sure that nothing will happen to my realm.” She sternly answers. I back up to the side away from her:
“You can’t. I won’t go back. You don’t have the power.” I challenge her and she smiles.
“Try me.” I hit the window and I look back to see that I am pretty high up, but there’s a bit of a sloped surface and a long flag along it, with some buildings down below. It’s risky as hell and there is a chance I might die, but I will not head back to that god forsaken world. I walk right up to her so I can get some distance away from the window. She stares at me and I stare right back at her, feeling those eyes practically staring into my soul.
“I’d rather die.” Is the last thing I say before I turn around and begin bolting for the window. I jump up to break the window but something stops me, a burning something. I open my eyes to see that same damn yellow aura around me. I’m turned around to look at her while still feeling that same damn burning sensation throughout my entire body.
“If you won’t allow me to do what it is I need to do in order to protect my pony’s, then I will force you!” her voice booms. Her horn glows even more and the magic intensifies, sending every nerve in my body on fire. I groan loudly, my voice rippling with the pain going through me. My tolerance to pain at this point finally breaks and I almost scream.
“Please! Stop!! I beg of you!!” I yell to her. I’ve taken plenty of pain before but that was only in a specific location. This is all over! I open my eyes as best as I can through the pain and I notice she’s struggling.
“I’m sorry! But I must! For Equestria!” she yells and her magic intensifies. My eyes shoot open, my heart beats faster, my skin feels like it’s on fire. I’d be on the ground right now spazzing out if her magic wasn’t suspending me in the air.
“Please… stop… your hurting me.” I try to say but I can barely make the words. All of it stops and I crash to the ground hard. I land on my hands and knees and begin breathing heavily. My vision is blurred and I can barely move my limbs. I shakingly look up to see she’s breathing hard as well. She was trying to send me back to my world but I didn’t go anywhere.
The aura surrounds me again and I groan loudly, to tired and hurt to scream or beg. She continues to try to send me away but each time she just brings me the most intense pain I’ve ever felt in my life. She almost collapses but still stands. I stand up as best I can and I move I hand in front of me.
“Please… no more… I can’t… I can’t take it anymore. Please… I’ll die.” I say with shallow breathing. She looks at me with anger and plants her hoofs on the ground. I also hear the sound of knocking and hitting sounds. I glimpse at the door to see it’s somewhat moving. They must be trying to get in. Fuck! That still hurts.
“One more time. Just… one… more… TIME!!” she yells the last part and sends a beam of magic at me.
“Nooooooooo!” I yell and hold my hand up in an attempt to stop her. How wrong I was.
The next feeling in me is something I can’t describe. My mind goes blank. I can’t tell if it was the feeling of a car hitting me at its top speed, a semi going downhill at it’s top speed, I don’t know. I drop my bag and collapse onto my knees and grabbed my stomach. I feel a type of liquid on me but I can’t move. The pain is just unbearable. That bottle I got stabbed with, a prick in comparison.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!” I yell at the top of my lungs and fall forward on one arm. I look at my stomach to see red, a lot of red.
Dripping out of me and slowly pooling around me. I look up to see the Princess with a shocked look on her face, and a bunch of guards around her, with Twilight in front of them all, a look of shock and worry on her face. Only one word manages to escape my burning lungs, past my quivering lips as a tear falls down from my eye:
“Whhhyyy?” I collapse forward. My eyes stay glued open as I look at the wall. My hearing deafening all sounds around me except for a few words:
“Swift! Swift! Are you okay?!” The voice of Twilight speaks. I try to mutter anything but I can’t. “Quick! We must get him to the infirmary now!”
Did Princess Celestia, the ruler of a land filled with the nicest and most generous ponies, kill me?
My vision brightens until all I see is whiteness, then darkness takes over and I fade out of consciousness.