Loss of self

by Capwn


Age 8

Rainbow Spectrumn, Age 8

Dear Diary,

Dashie is coming home tonight for Hearth's Warming Eve! I can't wait for her to get home! We'll talk and play tag and braid each others mane and be best friends again! I can't wait!

I guess I should tell you what I've been doing.

I've been going to the Cloudsdale library everyday now. I like to read up on everything. They have these things called airships in Canterlot! They're like big balloons that can carry ponies places, they fly through the sky like pegasi! I wanna fly on one of those things someday!

Ooh and down on the ground they build their houses out of rocks. Rocks! Can you believe that diary? They can't even use clouds! I feel sorry for them now..but they do have the ground...which doesn't move...or shrink...or go away. They're lucky for that I guess.

Ooh! Dashie is home now! Maybe I can get her to write in the diary!

Love,
Rainbow Spectrum


Rainbow Dash, Age 10

Dear journal-thingy,

Spectrum asked me to write in you...says it's good for you or somethin like that.

So I'm just gonna say it. I'm Rainbow Dash! The most awesome, coolest, and fastest pony in all of Equestria! You heard me, ALL.OF.EQUESTRIA.

I'm the only pony to ever complete a Sonic Rainboom! Old mare's tale my flank.Soon I'll be a Wonderbolt and no pony will be able to stop me! I mean I'm probably the best pony to ever live.....that wasn't a princess of course.

You're welcome for making you cooler,
Dash

(A drawing of a multi-colored lightning bolt adorns the rest of the page)


Rainbow Spectrum, the next night

Dear Diary,

Happy Hearth's Warming? Well.....happy isn't the right word I guess. I got some more books...and a new diary..I got some candy too. I already read the books at the library..and I don't want a new diary. I have you...The candy is okay but I ate it all. Dash got some cool wonderbolt socks, some candy...and a letter fomr something called the "Junior Speedster's Academy" I don't know what that is, but Dash was happy.

After we had our family dinner Daddy started drinking..Dash went to our room...but I was still eating, I just wanted to finish. But Daddy wouldn't let me, he took away my plate and told me to go upstairs...I started crying and he started yelling mean things at me...he said he didn't love me...and I was a failure.

(Tears stain the page)

I went up to our room and Dashie was writing in you...well...I guess I have to go to bed now.

Night.