A/N: Really short chapter, beneath a thousand words. I apologize for that. I have been feeling under the weather so I couldn't get myself to write that much. Next chapter will have more content. Now in other news regarding this story, I think about writing a HiE story starring the human in this story, but from his PoV. Should make the story behind her phobia much more clear. Unedited.
September 2nd
This stupid thing is really getting on my nerves... I feel... Angry about everything which is going on. I’m angry, but not angry with somepony. More like, somehuman or whatever the heck they say. But I’m also kinda mad at myself, y’know?
I mean, I am usually not acting like a scared pansy! I even charge some monsters head on, because I basically know what they can do against me. Almost all monsters and animals have some kind of known weakness I can use for my own benefit! But that human guy is different...
He’s literally one of a kind, as he’s the only known human in Equestria. And that makes his abilities pretty much unknown... I hate not knowing those things... So far all I know is that he probably has some strength, when he use his arms for so many things. I’ll have to find out more about him and what he can do, but that means that I’ll have to get closer to him... Not looking forward to that one... But if I have to, I’ll do it just to get it over with.
In other news, the nightmares just kind of... Stopped. I’m not complaining about it, it just feels strange but I’m also relieved. I also got back to work after taking three days off. My boss didn’t question it, he was actually relieved that I took some time for myself. However, I gotta get some sleep for tomorrow. Going to Cloudsdale with Fluttershy. So... Yeah... That's it for now.
September 3rd
The day started surprisingly good, actually. Fluttershy and I met up in town, as the... Human had insisted on watching her animals when she were out of town for the day. Dunno why 'Shy would trust that guy with her animals. They're practically her babies or something... Kinda creepy when I think about it, actually. Well anyway, we flew off to Cloudsdale after meeting up. It wasn't a long flight and we didn't hurry to get there.
When we were there, we did the usual; Fluttershy wanted to go and look at some fru-fru stores and I wanted to do almost anything else than that. But whatever, we did that so it would be fair to both of us. I found some polish for Tank's shell too. Gonna try it on the big guy later.
It was around seven, I think when we came back Ponyville. We had dinner at some diner on the outskirts of Cloudsdale. The waiter wouldn't stop looking at us with a weird smirk when he took our orders. Hay, I don't care, I just wanted to eat. After a while of eating, Fluttershy started talking about the human.
I told her that I didn't want to talk about it, but she nagged on about wanting to know about what was so wrong with Jay. I guess that it's his name 'cause she said it every time she mentioned him. So... I told her about my fear for him, but I made her Pinkie Promise first. Gotta be sure she doesn't tell anypony or human, for that matter.
As expected, she didn't say much more than 'oh my' a few times during my explanation. I facehoofed after that. I mean, It's Fluttershy. Of course she would react like that or something similar to it. When we had finished eating, we flew back to Ponyville. This time I followed her to her house and dropped her off there. I think I saw his face when I landed outside. A white ball of fluff smacked against his head and he fell backward. I have to give that bunny an extra carrot some time...
I said goodbye to Flutters and flew off, but I got a little curious and hid myself on a cloud a bit away from her cottage. I could still see everything which was going on down there. Everything... When Jay opened the door, he knelt down to her level. And... Ew. Fluttershy hugged him and then uh... Then she gave him a peck on the cheek.
I felt like my dinner was about to come up again, but I flew off while covering my mouth with my right hoof. I did not feel like vomiting while flying... Lucky for me was that my home wasn't very far away from her cottage. As soon as I came through the door, I took a long shower. I have just dried myself off when I'm writing this in the journal. I honestly don't know what to think right now, besides 'ew' and 'gross'.
That's it. I will look for some therapist or something tomorrow so I can really talk to somepony that I know can't talk about it to somepony else. Maybe there's a therapist somewhere at the Ponyville general hospital? Eh, I'll look further into that tomorrow. I'm spent, so I'm gonna go and get some sleep. Maybe I'll write something tomorrow if I can find somepony to talk to? I mean, there has to be somepony I can talk to about this! Twilight's good but... I think I'm gonna need somepony with a license or something. Maybe I'll even bring this journal?
Oh man, now I'm getting nervous about going there... What if the therapist laugh at me? What if he does tell somepony else about this? Okay, I have to calm down... A licensed therapist has to be bound by some law which forbid them about telling other ponies about it, right? I can probably ask some more questions then, but... Oh horseapples... Why me?
Just why...
Heh, the rapist...
...Oh wait...