Whether or not you have a chance is not important getting her out of your mind is.
You are a lowly nerd, a geek a dweeb and it does not matter if you are a history, science or martial arts nerd you still lack any social skills, you weigh 120 pounds and are too apathetic to change it.
You had a plan today was your day you will ask Gilda Griffith out on a date if only to try to get her out of your mind. The day at school went by so slowly each minute drags itself out along with each teacher speaking in slow motion. The classes and breaks you normally speak to her in you decide to ignore her. You've waited six years for this moment.
Okay your decision to postpone action was purely to make it more like a scene from a movie so you can return home in a pile of glee or self-hatred.
The evening bell finally rings, your heart starts to beat itself out of your chest with the very thought of being near Gilda. You stop by the bathroom to fix up your appearance and calm your nerves “You are the only man not scared of her.” You know you have little competition, no one else has the balls to do this.
You pull open the door out of the bathroom and into the swarm of students in the hallway beyond. The students lingering around the lockers went on with their normal boring unromantic day. The strange combination of fear and nervous excitement drove your hesitant stumbling to the parking lot. Navigating your familiar halls of your small town high-school was was second nature to you by now.
One last door stood between you and her one last barrier with golden sunlight piercing the window. You take a deep breath and step outside into the bathing sunlight. You scan the parking lot for the silver 80's VW belonging to Gilda. The car was not hard to spot Gilda bought it herself and maintains it herself leaving a pattern of creeping restoration on the car.
You spot your target and your heart sinks when you spot some unintelligent looking jock clearly hitting on her. Gilda notices you and dismisses the competition.
She turns looks straight into your eyes causing your heart to skip 2 beats. Her amber eyes contrasted with her short bleached white hair emphasizing the strength eminent eyes. The simple outfit she was wearing betrayed her beauty.
“Hey Gilda.” Just don’t mention the other guy and she won’t see you as pathetic.
“Hey.....” You always will like the way she says your name.
“I uhhh well do......” She smiles and sighs.
“Do you wanna come with me I was going to eat somewhere.” That sentence shook your world, all you have do is say something witty.
“I have nothing else to do.” Pretending to look cool are you?
“Haha! You are such a dweeb.” Her smile, eyes and attitude are just drawing you in.
“...” Your blushing like mad hold it together this moment is 6 years in the making.
“Come on lets get going.”
The two of you get in her car; the interior is strangely clean given who the car belongs to. Gilda starts the car letting the engine hum itself to life along with all the dials and lights on the dashboard. You see yourself smiling and blushing like an idiot in the rearview mirror, you glimpse someone watching as you pull out of the parking lot.
“Where do you want to go.” Gilda asks you as she pulls out of the parking lot.
“It's your idea.” You've known her for awhile now so you have a prediction.
“The Wendy’s is closest drive through to the school.” The drive through was still quite a long ways away in this small town.
“That place is on the highway exit right?” The highway was built right on the outskirts of the town.
“One should never question the wisdom of the great construction crew.”
“Is this your way of saying this place was built by idiots?” This is seeming to friendly and not romantic enough.
The conversation continued as Gilda found ways is insult everything she saw or thought of. You put out as many hints as blatantly as your heart could take it, usually ending in minor complements. You can't blame her for being so arrogant, narcissistic and drop dead beautiful.
After 15 minutes of conversation the car finally arrived at the drive through. Since rush hour is not exactly a problem in the ass end of nowhere the scene before you was calm. The two of you order your meals and you had the idea to park the car in a nearby field so you both can lay on the hood your idea of course.
You lean back on the windsheild and gaze at the oncoming traffic set against the backdrop of blue skys and empty pastures. Gilda joins you with your orders but neither of you say much of anything you both just sit there in each others company. Hours pass and neither of you say much of anything to one and other in place of words you exchanged glances and the odd fleeting moment of physical contact. The only thing wrong with this night is how many times Gilda caught you staring at her.
Time moved on as the sky shifted to orange as you inched yourself closer to Gilda usually timed during the short gaps of conversation. She eventually lets you snuggle up to her in much a way the woman normally would in a movie she completes the scene by placing her arm around you. You really enjoy her warmth, strength and solidarity feeling secure like nothing can hurt you now. Her phone started ringing but was quickly silenced.
After a length of time of time that felt like the 6 years you waited for this all those nights of praying that this very moment would happen. You don't want to push further you don't want to transgress against Gilda.
At some point Gilda just gets up and gets in the driver's seat without a word and an empty expression. You follow into the passenger seat without without trying to aggravate her for fear of personal injury.
“I should drive you home.” You couldn't tell what negative emotion she was feeling. She starts the car and takes off her mood became more dejected with each passing minute. Her driving over time becomes more and more aggressive and stopped talking altogether.
The car screams to a halt at your front door. You attempt to ask what's wrong but she motions you out of the car and follows you out walking closely at your side. “I'm sorry... I was reminded of something,” She walks you to the front door stopping you just before the door. “You reminded me of someone.”
Gilda grabs and twists you so you are mere inches from your face. She wraps her arms around you in a tight embrace that you are quick to return. You could feel her breathing in a relaxed motion. She always had this habit of bottling up all her emotion and releasing it all at once.
Gilda stays still waiting for you to be the man, but your body is protesting freezing up or reducing you to jerky movements. With a sudden burst of courage you move your hands further up her back and slowly draw her face closer. You start by pressing your lips against hers but she soon wanted more and her tongue was vying for entry. You bend to her will letting her direct every moment eagerly exploring your mouth with a dominant rigour. Offering no resistance Gilda takes continues leaving you in stare of lingering confusion and overwhelming ecstasy.
The kiss ended with Gilda pulling away leaving you with no support so Gilda rushed to catch you before you broke anything, “We can leave some things for later.” With that she leaves with a peck to your cheek.
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The next day you wake up in the greatest mood you ever had you bounced out of bed early like your life had a purpose. You speed through your morning activities trying not to look as childish as you feel. Once you are prepared you make your way down the route to school.
The scenic route you normally take calms you down as you try to think things over. The homogenous fields surrounded you with wind making waves in the grass. The road snaked its way into town as building slowly blocked the view to the expanse beyond. The town was as slow and boring as it was at any
You take a shortcut through thicket in the nearby park. As you make it halfway down the path you are suddenly knocked off your feet and are pinned at the chest to a nearby tree. You are greeted by some angry jock with a sadistic smile. He starts by bashing the back of your head against the tree.
“I saw you walking around with Gilda such a hot body is a little above you ain’t it?” He pushes you harder against the tree.
“Thick skulls are far from sexy.”
“Who's the one pinned to the tree?”
“Who's the raging idiot?”
“You gotta lot of balls talking back to me.”
“You your just compensating for you lack...” He punches you in the stomach ending your sentence.
“YOU ARE A LITTLE WEAK FUCKING!.....” You take the opportunity to knee the guy in the stomach, only cowards go for the nuts. You take the chance to escape but are instantly pulled back by the back of your collar.
The asshole was furious and pulls your face straight into his oncoming fist resulting in a cracking shot of pain. You see the world in slow motion as you fall to your knees. You give spotting a 2nd punch coming your way. Any response you could make was far to late to mean anything.
You saw colours many beautiful colours.
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Your consciousness returns to find its back propped up to being looked over by a blurry figure. It was clear once she spoke who it was but you could not understand a thing she was saying, all you knew she was trying to show sympathy. She offers you her hand, an offer you can't decline, you back up on your feet and take her shoulder. You hold on to her as closely as things slowly come in to focus.
“Tell me why everything you do goes wrong...” Gilda says your name in such calming and oddly caring way.
“Because I listen to you.” She smiles at you knowing that you are okay and begins her way to presumably her car.
“Say that again and you walk on your own.” You grip her tighter.
“Just drive me home school is the last thing I wanna do.” How she found you could be less important right now. The both of you get back into her car.
“You really do remind me of my younger self.” She looks down into the drivers wheel. “I not going to say too much but It was hard being a tomboyish little girl.” She grabs your hand and grabs it to your chest. “I guess this is my way of saying I can relate.”
“Gilda.” All you could do say her name and squeeze her hand.
“Don't worry this time you have me looking out for you.”